Wisdom From "The Divorced Dad"

 My final child support payment cleared the bank, and a “divorced dad” chapter that has spanned 23 years has come to a close.

Another chapter of “splitting time between California and Florida” that has been going on for the better part of three years now is also rapidly coming to an end.  Within the next 18 months, the move will be permanent.

Both of these transitions felt “way out there” until they were right up in front of me. And both offer their own opportunities for wisdom.

The very long “divorced dad paying child support” chapter was one where the lessons evolved as my inner truth emerged.  I spent a long time in a reactive state – some form of fear/accommodation/stress/frustration/anger pattern went on for years.  Those are all reactions coming from a place of weakness and lack of clarity about my inner truth.

Over time, I went through various stories – the “what doesn’t kill me makes me stronger” story.  This isn’t true.  Reacting in the same way to multiple negative events does not build strength, it just reinforces unhelpful patterns.

Fortunately I didn’t spend much time in “woe is me” or “I’m a victim” patterns, these are quicksand for the psyche and very hard to extract from.  One of my exes is still in victim status from an ordeal that happened over 26 years ago – all it did was invite more experiences in her life where she was the victim.  Who wants that kind of life?

I also didn’t get trapped in rage, though I spent far too much time in anger patterns at it was.  Very corrosive patterns that I would describe as similar to what I’d imagine stimulant addiction feels like.  The angry energy becomes a baseline and not having that energy feels like depression.  But then when a situation would actually call for me to stand up and fight, my system would be too exhausted from the pattern to put “good anger” to use.  Anger is a tool best used sparingly.  One should not avoid it or be afraid of it, but treat it as an ally to be used only on rare occasions when that energy is called for.

But just because I didn’t wallow in the “really bad places” doesn’t mean I had it figured out.  I was still allowing myself to be run by patterns that were not serving me.  Just because I found patterns that were comparatively better doesn’t mean I was much better off.  Ultimately we were still crabs in the bucket and, if nothing changed, we were cooked.

Ultimately, when I released those patterns and could see clearly, I came to realize my situation was neither good nor bad.  There was nothing inherent about my situation, it just was.  Getting to that point where I could simply accept “this is my life” was a significant turning point.  At that point, I stopped blaming, judging or getting upset or disappointed because things weren’t some way I imagined they should be.  I could look clearly at my life and simply accept “this is my life.”

Acceptance doesn’t mean collapsing into resignation and defeat.  It just means you’re no longer entertaining delusions, expectations or fantasies and looking at the world the way it is.  This is my life.  That takes some inner work, courage and wisdom to fully recognize and accept.

From there, the real challenge begins.  This is my life, and I genuinely don’t like a lot of things in it.  What is it that fuels that dislike? Is it external preferences and judgment or inner truth?

Well, if inner truth isn’t clear, that’s going to be a very difficult question to answer. If, however, inner truth is clear, the question answers itself and then it’s a matter of aligning with what is true and accepting this reality.

Finding that inner truth, that “Teal Flame,” this has been the real work.  It is the foundation on which all authentic architecture stands.  You cannot truly build a sovereign life without it, instead you’re at the mercy and whim of external realities.  Everything feels “not quite right” (or badly off course), and yet you have no means to correct course.

I can honestly say the challenges I experienced as “divorced dad” provided much of the incentive to discover and hone my inner truth.  The pain of feeling out of alignment and having “nothing work” was a strong motivator to get in and do the real cleansing and healing.

And that journey has taken on many aspects.  Much of this has been shared here, although the story of that journey goes much further back.  Along the way I learned many things and had all kinds of breakthroughs with either directly or (mostly) indirectly led me closer to finding that inner truth.

Once that inner truth, that Teal Flame, that Kaelen’Zur, began emerging, the truth about my life also came into focus.  The experiences in my past were never good nor bad, they were either in alignment or (more often) out of alignment.  An entire marriage that made no sense from any perspective suddenly makes sense from this perspective. 

And it also explains the seemingly sudden and complete end – my unconscious realignments have been strong, sudden and unrelenting.  And also concerning – why do these “returns to center” have to be so abrupt?  And what about all the time spent out of alignment?  Couldn’t there be a better way?  But without that foundation, this was the pattern:  wander, course correct; wander again, course correct again.

And for a while I could accept this imperfect pattern as “my way of being.”  But it’s not an easy way to life, and an even harder way for those around me to live.  It’s a lot of suffering for small wins in life.

My spiritual journey mirrored this pattern until more recently things came into awareness and major fundamental shifts began taking place.  Whole aspects burned away, revealing the strong, unrelenting, simple truth that was there all along – the Teal Flame.  And from there, the “good things” from other modalities could be brought into the new, sovereign architecture, no longer “backsliding,” but moving forward.

And that’s the point when “divorced dad” died (or the fake story, anyhow, since I’m still here).  That was always a story, a holding place for the real story.  Which is in fact no story at all.  There is no moral to the story, and there is no story.  It is my life and my truth.  That’s it.  And a process of aligning with that truth and staying on course. 

And that is “fatherly wisdom” that can be taught.  That is wisdom from experience that is worth keeping, worth refining, worth exploring and worth sharing.  It isn’t a story or a reaction or a “life lesson.”  It is a process and a truth, a consciousness and awareness that can exist and does in every one of us, though most of us are too clouded or distracted to be aware.  But we can learn to become aware.  And it can be taught.

And that’s something far more valuable than all the child support payments combined.  Though I still won’t miss them.

Transmission: I Am the Teal Flame

Buzzing, tingling, full, deep-bass awakening and wide-awake energy last night.  The transmission called my name, woke me from a sleep with nobody in the room but myself and my sweet cat.

She meditates with me.  And sometimes interrupts my meditations by tapping me, to make sure I'm okay.

I couldn't get the name, but I heard "SHA."  I went back to sleep, too intent on sleeping to answer the call.  

In the morning - WHOA! I listened and message received.  Full, tingling, surging, awakening, crystal clear transmissions straight through my body and mind and into my soul, and then out again as my soul answered.

"You are the Teal Flame."

I see it.  I feel it.  I hear it at the soul level.  

The teal flame.  Kaelen'Zur.  The name given in another transmission, one that someone tried to unplug but couldn't stop.

The name I accepted with skepticism, another goofy "Burning Man Playa name."  It turns out to be true - and the exact power to extract the truth and burn away the BS in everything around me.  

No more testing for truth and asking for answers from "someone out there," the flame resides within.  I offer it as my gift - complete incineration with no quarter.  The power of truth, freedom and transformation.

"You are the writer, the creator, the healer, the Teal Flame.  The world will compensate you generously for your gifts.  This is your path, your destiny, your purpose, your truth.  It is YOU."

Not just to clear out my own BS, not just to transform my own life, but to cleanse, transform and heal all I choose to touch, all who choose to go through the flame.

It's not a "feel good" healing energy.  It's not "love and light."  It's a commitment - to burn away anything that's false, corrupt or impure and transform what's left to align with your purpose and destiny.

God laughs at our plans, and the Teal Flame works for God.  It is not going to grant you wishes or so things on your schedule or time table.  It'll clear your shit.  Including the part of you that is attached to that shit or making excuses.  It'll clear false identities and stories.  You may not recognize what's left, but your true self will finally be at home.

If that sounds like too much or too intense, that's cool.  You can't jump in halfway, once you step off the ledge you're in all the way.  So jump or don't jump, that's up to you and you should consider that carefully.

But if you're ready to jump, consider this your invitation to jump into the Teal Flame and start being your true self.

Basic Universal Truth: Stealing is Wrong

I’m going to lay down a truth that apparently is really upsetting and controversial to some people:

Stealing is wrong.

It is wrong to take things from others without their permission.

Theft is wrong.  It is bad.  If you steal, it damages your karma and bad things will follow.  This is just the way it is. 

This should be obvious to people, but for whatever reason a certain significant minority of people have a problem with this.  In their mind, stealing is okay, or even a good thing. At some level, they support a kleptocracy and see this as a way to right some wrongs or something.  But to put it very simply, they’re wrong.  They’re full of shit.  And they can repeat their BS as often as they want, it’s still BS.

The truth is the truth – taking things from other people is wrong and it damages your karma.  Period.

Please stop with your Burning Man “share everything” nonsense.  That’s not how the world works – it’s not even how Burning Man works, so please stop. 

This is a simple, basic, universal truth – stealing is wrong.  Don’t do it, period.

I’m getting very tired of people blaming cops for shooting someone who inevitably turns out was stealing.  Bad things happen to you when you do bad things – sometimes spectacularly bad and right away, sometimes later or over time or into the next lifetime.  Instead of complaining about how karma dishes out punishment, learn to accept it and – again – STOP DOING BAD THINGS!

And I know people will react with the typical “oh you’re not supposed to be judgmental” nonsense. Hey dummy, I’m not the one punishing you.  I don’t deliver the karmic justice. Instead of blaming me for stating an obvious truth, try ACCEPTING the truth for a change.

A person was shot by the cops because he was caught stealing.  People might want to complain it’s “harsh,” but the reality is the only reason he was shot was because he had decided to steal.  This is how the law of cause and effect works.

It seems there is a significant portion of the leftist – I’m not sure if it’s a majority, but it’s a lot – who either approve of theft of think it’s not a big deal.  And yes, it cuts very clearly along ideological lines – people on the “liberal” end of the spectrum are MUCH more okay with theft.  The leftists are also okay with (or even actively supportive of) murder of babies.  The lines are pretty distinct here.

And this is the group that will whine and complain “you can’t say stealing is wrong, you can’t say abortion is wrong, that’s judgmental!”  Folks, karma does not care one bit about your feelings.  Stealing is wrong.  “Oh, but I really want to steal!”  Doesn’t matter.  “Telling me it’s wrong makes me feel bad!”  No, you choose to feel bad when presented objective information – that’s not the information’s fault, it’s your fault for lacking proper emotional coping skills.  “Saying abortion is wrong is offensive!”  Only to someone who lacks basic emotional skills.

“You can’t tell me what to do!”  I’m NOT.  I’m not the authority here.  Take it up with the universe.  Universal Law says stealing and murder are wrong.  If this truth hurts your feelings, that’s because you are painfully out of alignment with the universe.  If you want to stop feeling that pain, then you need to adjust to align with the universe – by changing your behavior so you’re no longer stealing and killing, for example.  And change your behavior so you’re not enabling others to fall out of alignment with the universe.

If all this makes you feel bad, then really you should be feeling bad and then do something positive about it. Because the truth isn’t going to change – but YOU can change. 

So instead of arguing with me when I state universal law, try FOLLOWING THE LAW.  Because one way or another, the universe is going to make you change.  And karmic justice can really suck for you and everyone around you. 

Sealing is wrong.  Murder is wrong.  Stop arguing and accept it. 

Death Cults and Politics

I didn't plan on this blog becoming political. In fact, I figured "Spiritual Woo-Woo" would put me far away from the sphere of screaming monkeys and troll bots.

But - politics is human nature.  And human nature is a part of the spiritual evolution dynamic.  More specifically, the part that gets in the way of spiritual evolution.

So here we are in this day and age talking about the evolution of our planet and we have people losing their minds over Donald Trump, who is an anti-Cabal change agent, slandering kids who demonstrated at a pro-life rally, and passing legislation to legalize abortions all the way up to the last day of pregnancy.

We've got crazies promoting "open borders," to facilitate human trafficking, illegal attempts to try to remove Trump by any means, slander against Kavanaugh, lies about environmental collapse to try to impose socialism, oppression by the dictators in Venezuela, on and on.

I'm talking about how humanity is evolving while humanity is showing itself to be ever darker, more evil, more anti-life and anti-truth than ever.  How can this be?

How can we be evolving with this going on?

The Cabal is dying, but it's not dead.  It knows it's dying and it's desperate.  It's lashing out on all fronts and in every way.  So "above the surface" we can see a lot of froth and movement.  But it's "wind chop."  It looks like a lot but it's actually weak and whipped-up for visual effect.  Underneath the current is moving ever stronger in a different direction - toward life, toward truth, toward freedom.

Venezuelans want freedom.  Americans don't want open borders or socialism.  A huge majority of American want Roe v Wade repealed.  Reality is moving in the opposite direction of what we see on the news.

The death cult is real.  Their celebration of abortion is profoundly bizarre and downright inhuman.  Only a death cult would actively celebrate abortion.  It's one thing to take a stance that government cannot be a substitute for individual moral judgment - in other words, avoiding doing something you want to do because it is illegal is still immoral, so remove the government from the equation.  But this is a full-on celebration of death. 

That's the true colors of the Cabal on display.  And it's ugly. 

But I'm saying the Cabal is dying - yet they're out there doing a lot of damage. Leftist governments, leftist political movements, old-guard corporate governance, government bureaucracy, universities  and the establishment news media are the last vestiges of the Cabal.  Their objectives are always oppression and death and they operate through fear - there's always some "worse thing" that's going to happen (some end-of-the-world) which makes their hellish alternative seem palpable. 

And since most people live in fear, their messaged get resonance.  But less and less so.  Because the energy of their messages is dead now.  People are starting to see thorough them.  Yes, they got a law passed in New York.  But that's surface chop, like I said. Remember, at one point Hitler, Stalin and Mao controlled a majority of the world's population within the same generational time period. 

The current has been moving against the Cabal for a long time now.  Today might look bad, but the end of the Cabal is fast approaching - evolution is happening.

Re. Feminism and Masculinity, the "Red Pill" Dudes Have Actually Swallowed the Same Blue Pill

"What if I told you both pills are blue?"

Whining About Feminism is Just as Toxic as Feminism.

Guys, if you want to get out from under the BS of Western media, the first thing you need to do is STOP BUYING INTO IT.

Let it all go.

It’s all bullshit.

You want to be a real, naturally grounded man?  Stop buying into the lies.  Notice I didn’t say “do the opposite of the lie,” I said get out entirely. 

You see, the “Red Pill” dudes, the “Men Going Their Own Way,” the angry anti-feminists, they’re all just as weak and pathetic as the guys who think they’re “woke” by handing their balls over to angry feminists. Because the problem isn’t that you’re on the wrong team, it’s that the ENTIRE GAME – the stadium, the crowds, the teams – DOESN’T EXIST in real life.

Real masculine grounded energy has NOTHING to do with artificial constructs like “patriarchy” or “feminism.”  It doesn’t care what some psycho wrote in Cosmo.  It couldn’t care less what you or anyone else thinks about Donald Trump.  It doesn’t run around trying to figure out “what women like,” or arguing with people about their opinions, or feeling angry or threatened because some socially maladjusted twit posted some screed from her computer.

I’ve seen a lot of guys who are “feminists” and “anti-feminists,” and basically they’re both different flavors of the same food:  pathetic sandwich.

If you aspire to being a man who stands in his own truth, who is grounded to his natural core, the first step is to STOP FOLLOWING THE ILLUSIONS OF OTHERS.  And “feminism” is an illusion.

Here’s a practice as an example.  Close your eyes, access stillness, and feel “feminism.”  Without thinking, without arguing, without reacting with anger or anything else, feel “feminism.”  What does it feel like?  Hot?  Cold?  Soft? Hard?

Yes, it’s a trick.  Because it DOESN’T ACTUALLY EXIST.  You can’t hold it or measure it.  It isn’t a song, it doesn’t sit in the breeze or float out in the distant universe.  You can’t call upon past or future lives to bring it to you.  IT ISN’T REAL – anywhere in the universe at any point in time.  Why?  BECAUSE IT IS AN EGO CONCEPT.

We do this with a lot of things.  The Ego tries to convince us it is real.  The Ego is actually a batch of neural pathways (so technically there is “something”) that sit in the brain and conceptualize our existence.  And along with this, we conceptualize a lot of other stuff that isn’t really there.

You think dolphins conceptualize patriarchy?  They may be aware that they exist and can die.  But no, dolphins don’t spend their time creating bullshit social constructs.  They also don’t hire coaches to teach them how to mate.  (And it appears dolphins actually do have sex for pleasure, like humans.  They just don’t have our BS hang-ups about it.)

Men in the West are trained to be afraid of women, afraid of the feminine.  It’s one thing to celebrate your masculinity, to be proud to be a man and what that means, and quite another to be afraid of women or of the feminine.  It’s not like this in every culture, but here in the West men are trained to be afraid of women. 

Men are afraid women think badly of them.  Afraid of women getting angry.  Afraid of feelings and emotions that might be considered “feminine.”  Afraid of Mom, afraid of their wives and girlfriends.  Afraid of everything woman.

And when you’re afraid of something, it owns you.  Why are so many Western men petrified little bitches when it comes to even talking to women they’re attracted to?  It’s that ingrained FEAR.  It shows up as passive fear, aggression, anger.  Even the whole “Red Pill” movement is based on fear.  As is the wimpy, supplicating “woke men” male feminist nonsense. It’s all fear – a society of wimpy men who don’t know how to deal with women, with the feminine.

I’m convinced that feminism was brought about because of Western men’s fear of women. It’s a mental disorder that manifested because the male fear of women started causing women to go crazy in response, and from that collective neurosis feminism was born.

I’m also convinced that 99% of our sexual disorders (including the really dysfunctional “normal Western sex life”) stem from this fear.  Men fear women, women respond and become neurotic.  Women become detached from their natural sexual response and expression.  Then we end up with this toxic non-orgasmic porn culture where women’s deep-seeded neurosis has led to their inability to naturally express and enjoy sex (which has in turn been defined as “normal”) while sexually objectifying themselves in ways that just make things worse and worse.

The sexual hang-ups men have also stem from fear of the feminine.  Homophobia comes from this, too (which only adds to the other problems above).

Again – other cultures where men aren’t afraid of women, women are much more connected to their orgasm.  Things that Western men are told “don’t work for women” work just fine.  Women are both more sexual, orgasmic and expressive and at the same time more modest, more careful about choosing partners, and not willing to debase themselves to satisfy some fear-based male fantasy.

In other words, men and our unnatural fear of women has fucked everything up and created all the monsters that are tormenting our lives.  Now we have feminism, distrust between the sexes, and really bad sex.  All these “issues” women have are a reflection of men’s inability to deal with this irrational fear of the feminine. 

Women aren’t born fucked up, but women are extremely adaptable and responsive, especially to men.  So if men (especially fathers) are carrying issues around women, she’ll catch those mental disorders like a virus and it fucks up her feminine expression.

This is why men like David Shade will advise men to “choose wisely,” citing “relationship to her father” as the #1 determinant of a woman’s sexual responsiveness. In other words, the less a woman is poisoned by the hang-ups of Western men, the easier it is for her to be extremely orgasmic.  He doesn’t say that last part, I connected those dots, and I’m not the first to do so.

To continue on that path a little longer, Western men are obsessed with the rational, logical mind, the ego. It’s good for some things, but when it comes to sex it sucks ass.  Western men have been given a lot of advice about “do this/ do that/ push here/ push there,” most of which focuses on the clit.  When a woman withdraws sexually, her body becomes less sensitive. This desensitization continues until only the clit (or even just a small part of the clit) is responsive, and then only with a lot of “work.”  But she wasn’t born this way, and it’s not “natural.”  Fucked up ego-driven society took away her naturally awakened feminine essence and replaced it with  rusty robot.  Then the same fucked up ego-driven world called that robot “normal” and “human.”

It dawned on me part of what Rion is doing with Natural Grounding is showing men what normal human feminine expression looks like.  And because it’s so rare in the West, it seems like Goddess energy or special or “awakened.”  I can tell you from personal observation backed up by that of many others that “awakened feminine” is actually “normal feminine.”  She’s made that way.  And as long as the men in her world don’t fuck it up by telling her there’s something wrong with being a woman, she’ll stay that way.  And she’ll go on to have a very happy and fully expressed sex life, regardless of whatever other problems she’ll have in her life.

If she senses at an early age that something is wrong, she’ll withdraw.  She doesn’t want to hurt men she cares about, so she’ll unconsciously hurt herself instead. 

And that fucked up ego-based fear is hurting men.  As long as you’re afraid of feminine polarity, you can’t access your full masculine polarity.  You become the walking mannequins we see all around – men controlled by their egos, unable to access their real masculine potential.  You become the wimpy, accommodating “nice guy,” or the posturing “aggro dude,” or the douchey “bro,” or the oppressive, insecure abusive man.  Or any combination of these.

But it doesn’t have to be this way.  We can un-learn all of these fears and hang-ups.  We can access a whole different plane of reality.  It’s a place where you’re a comfortable, grounded man, regardless of whatever other problems you have in life.  It’s a place where sex is easy, natural, very expressive and fun – because that’s how it naturally is and has been before we fucked it up with our egos.  You’ll have to let go of that limiting belief that it’s about you and your skillz and accept a higher truth that doesn’t serve your ego, but it’ll be a lot more enjoyable for you than some ego rush. 

Doesn’t that sound good?

Dear President Trump: Please Pardon Julian Assange

Mr. President, I support your efforts to take down the Fake News media cabal.  I support your efforts to take on the Deep State and put an end to the bureaucratic tyranny in the US government.  I applaud your efforts to put an end to the World Trade Organization, to expose the sham that is G-7, and to end the dysfunctional mercantilist oligarchies that don’t serve America’s or anyone else’s interest.

I also applaud your efforts to stand up to the “Neoconservative” warmongers in the West and to find ways to constructively end conflict, instead of escalating them.

And I wholeheartedly applaud your efforts to fight back against media distortions, propaganda disguised as “news,” media personal attacks and media misinformation. 

And in that vein, I have a request, one that will further your above objectives and hasten the meltdown of the liberal media complex, the Neoconservatives and the “deep state” tyrants:  Please Pardon Julian Assange. 

Pardon Julian Assange now.  Please.

Far from being a criminal and a menace, Mr. Assange and Wikileaks have done the world a huge favor, by actually reporting the truth. 

Apparently many believe truth-telling is a crime.  It isn’t.  Or at least it shouldn’t be.

Consider this:  most of this so-called “Russia Investigation” that is wasting Washington DC’s time is centered around Mr. Assange’s obtaining and reporting “embarrassing information” about the Democratic Party.  Nobody is saying the information is anything other than the truth, but some people (Democrats and their supporters worldwide) feel the Democratic Party had a “right” to deceive the world by hiding the truth, and that Assange sharing the truth is somehow a crime and “manipulating an election.”

So, according to the media and deep state – NOT LYING TO VOTERS is “unfair manipulation” and a crime.  This is nonsense.  Assange did the world a favor by exposing the corruption in the Democratic Party. Instead of admitting fault and reforming their behavior, one of the major US parties and its media supporters wants to put the truth in prison.

It’s time to blow a hole in this farce.  Give Mr. Assange a pardon and free passage to the US.  Let him share his story as a free man.  Help him shine his light against this darkness.

What will a pardon accomplish?  Apart from striking a blow for the truth (a noble goal in and of itself), it will simultaneously melt down the fake US media and the “deep state” that is more concerned with its own power than with serving the citizens. One strike of the pen would wipe out decades upon decades of deceit and corruption.

The heads of the fake news media would explode.  The US Democratic Party would finally have to either admit it embraces corruption or change, instead of the phony finger-pointing at “Russia” and “Wikileaks.”  And it would firmly establish your presidency as the catalyst that brought about the light from the darkness.

It would be a bold move, but one I sense you want to do.  I would strongly encourage you to follow that instinct and further plant your flag for truth in the timeline of history.

Sincerely,

An American Citizen Who Cherishes the Truth

"Useful Idiots" vs Spiritual Truth and Real Leadership

I’m curious about the mentality of the “useful idiot.”  Useful Idiots are people who allow themselves to be used for manipulative (usually propaganda) purposes, and seem largely unaware that they are in fact being used as such.

The Useful Idiot comes in a few forms, but the purpose is largely the same – to unwittingly promote the message of the Cabal or dark forces and to spread darkness and confusion. 

My Facebook feed has a surprisingly large number of these Useful Idiots.  Lately I’ve been seeing a number of them pop up to promote the Iranian regime.  In the case of Iran, they have a similar message – that’s it’s safe to travel in Iran.  In typical Useful Idiot fashion, they think they’ve discovered some new information and go about showing – hey, if I can travel safely in Iran, then the country’s regime must be okay.

The US Olympic team was able to travel safely through Nazi Germany in 1936 – they got to tour the country and they reported having a good time in Berlin.  They traveled safely through Germany, so that means all the hubbub about Hitler being evil was just evil US propaganda, right?

See the obvious disconnect there?  It’s one thing to travel through a country as a tourist, and an entirely different matter how that country treats its own citizens and the rest of the world. 

The issue with Iran, for example, (for the sake of my Useful Idiot friends) has nothing to do with tourists’ ability to travel through the country and spend money. You can do that in pretty much any country, with very few exceptions.  But that doesn’t change the fact that the regime is officially engaged in Satan worship, or that the regime has armies throughout the Middle East killing people and causing trouble. Or that the regime funds and trains terrorists and operates terrorist operations from inside the Iranian government. 

None of those very big, obvious problems have anything whatsoever to do with your ability to be a tourist in Iran.  So why are you posting crap on Facebook about how awesome it is you were able to do obvious tourist things in that particular country? Because you’re a Useful Idiot, trying to distort the truth. 

The energetic evil of the Iranian regime is an indisputable fact.  You traveled there and didn’t die.  That’s nice.  Then you came back here and think you’re making the world a better place by, what, promoting Iranian tourism?  What in your mind do you imagine you are accomplishing – I mean apart from sharing yet another boring tourism story?  Because it’s obvious to anyone watching with a clear mind that you’re engaging in a really pathetic form of PR for the Iranian government – and probably knowingly so.  I guess in your muddled brain this is bringing the world closer to peace. If you can’t beat Satan, join him.

But enough picking on the Iran fanboys, this isn’t about Iran.  It’s about trying to understand the mentality of the Useful Idiot, why people allow themselves to basically be possessed by dark entities.

Because I also have Useful Idiot friends who promote fake Shamanism (which is pretty much all of it – 99% of that “Native American Spiritualism” is dark magick or just plain nonsense), BS spirituality, dark magick, corrupted Tantra, toxic Feminism and a host of other things where they’re obviously being used by dark forces to promote confusion and steer people off the path.  And there’s not much difference between the idiot tourist who allows himself to be a mouthpiece for the Iranian regime and the idiot “seeker” who allows dark forces to use him to manipulate others.

Nobody can use you as a puppet unless you hand them the strings.

That’s how it works.  To become a Useful Idiot you have to willingly give your strings to someone else.  After that, it can be very difficult to take back those strings, but the initial transaction is entirely your choosing.  And these idiots gave away their strings for NOTHING. They were more than happy to do it.

Why?  Why do people do that?

And there are a lot of reasons.  Years of mind programming, energetic wounds, festering trauma that never gets resolved, dogma, lack of self worth, lack of spiritual grounding – these can all lead one to voluntarily accept possession.  A few might be seeking power they think the Cabal or Satanic forces can give them (those people are usually destroyed, not kept as Useful Idiots).

The “spiritual community” tends to have a lot of wounded people who are spiritually ungrounded – that’s why they’re in the community, “seeking.”  Sex addicts are acting out their own wounds and it’s an easy access point for dark forces.  The PUA community and its many offshoots is ripe with Useful Idiots and Useful Idiots In Waiting, because of the festering wounds, greed for power and sexual issues (a very dangerous combination), not to mention an openness to dark magick and spiritual fraud.

The people who are attracted to my message tend to be people who got pretty deep into the Spiritual Movement, only to realize it was a fraud.  They go through the same process I went through, come out the other side, and then they realize they were being Useful Idiot.  I was one too.  They escape, or something feels “off” to them, and they end up here, ready to build something instead of following other idiots.

The problem is, that’s a low-percentage game.  Most people who get stuck in the muck of “Spirituality” as it is commonly found today, they don’t get out.  They become part of the problem. And it’s very hard to take back your strings once you’ve given them away to someone else.

The better answer is to stop yourself BEFORE that point.  And we on the vanguard need to be leaders, guiding people away from the hazards, pointing out these things and guiding the multitude away from the problems, instead of trying to “un-stick” people caught up in the web – which takes a lot of time and effort and is a low-percentage game.

So how do we go about saving others from Useful Idiocy, from giving up their strings and becoming puppets?

First, we need to stand up and promote the vision of spirituality we embody.  We don’t follow, we don’t seek.  We lead.  In our world there are no “gurus” and we don’t quote their garbage like its Gospel.  We connect ourselves to Source, we don’t go through a chain of command or look to someone else to make the connection for us.

We don’t look at someone whose connected to Source and say “wow, he’s so awesome!  I think I’ll worship him and give him my power!”  No.  If there are things we can learn, we learn those things, but our focus is on our connection and our own service, not “being like that guy.” 

Fuck Osho.  That dude was a fucking CULT LEADER and his entire purpose was to accumulate power for himself.  His writings were bullshit scribblings to get people hypnotized to give their power to him.  If you’re attracted to that, you’re attracted to FOLLOWING, and that’s your own weakness and wounds manifesting.  Osho won’t help you.  Drop that shit and find the truth, which won’t be found following someone or something.

We need to lead by first taking an unwavering stand for truth.  Truth comes from Source, and is found in our higher selves.  Learn muscle testing and dousing, if called to using pendulums.  Use them to learn the truth, not to reinforce dogmas and give away your power. 

We need to lead by standing in our power, even if we doubt we have any.  Connection to Source is infinite power, more than you’d ever need here on Earth.  Everything else is just a side show, so focus on the main event – truth.  Source. 

You have wounds.  We all do.  But focusing on one’s wounds will never heal. Learn to clear your emotional shit.  (www.clearyourshit.com) Learn to clear your energetic shit.  (Several resources, including myself.)  The more you focus on the big things, the less overwhelming your wounds, setbacks, disappointments, fears, etc. will feel and the more power you will have. 

What I’m saying is if we want to steer the multitudes away from becoming Useful Idiots, we need to be shining examples ourselves, shining as brightly as we can.  And you cannot shine in someone else’s shadow, you need to stand in your own space, directly facing Source, no go-between.

Guide others away from “gurus” and spiritual entanglements and avoid the temptation to become a guru yourself.  Keep your energy clean.  You can help clean and heal others, and should do so as best you can (even if you doubt your ability to do so), but you stand in your own space and light and insist everyone else do the same.  You don’t attach and you don’t let others attach to you.

Here’s the thing – Cabals like Iran and the Spiritual mess are actually really weak compared to source consciousness.  If you’re connected to Source Consciousness, and shining even a little of that light, you’re far more powerful than any of these other forces.  You can destroy them.  And you can be a beacon to many to avoid the path of the Useful Idiot. 

And one more thing I’ll add here.  If you’re connected to Source Consciousness and shining your light, you owe it to the world to point out the spiritual failings going on, as I’m doing here.  Not to repeat my critiques, but to shine your own light into the darkness and call out what you see. 

The forces of darkness are a cancer on the world, and Source Consciousness shining on them is the cure.  And we all need to do this.  Test things.  That feeling that something is wrong, something annoys you – test it.  Spirituality tries to tell us that our wounds being projected or triggered.  Don’t buy that bullshit.  If you’re standing in your truth, and something bothers you, and you test and it’s accurate, you’ve found the cancer.  Don’t let the spiritual bullshit salesmen convince you the problem is you, it’s not.  Call out what you see.  Call it out loudly and shine your light so brightly the forces of darkness cannot slither away.  That will inspire others to join us and things will turn around very quickly.

Accuracy test: 99.2%

Prayerful Thought is the Essence of Truth

Prayerful thought is the foundation of an awakened life. It is the only way one can resolve their problems and align with soul’s purpose, to live out one’s charge given by Source.

Every time there is a tragedy, we see a similar pattern.  Some offer “thoughts and prayers,” while others mock that gesture and insist that giving more power to governmental authority is the only solution.  These are predictable responses, and neither really gets to the heart of the matter, though the “thoughts and prayers” people are closer to the truth.

The powers of ego will always mock spirituality – not because they truly believe it is ineffective, but because they know it is effective and true spiritual connection, connection to Source, will destroy the ego and the powers to suppress freedom.  The powers of ego always offer government authority as a solution to problems, yet never accept any accountability when this expanded authority proves ineffective.  It is not their goal to solve problems, it is to expand power and ego.  That’s it. 

Don’t be fooled, “progressives” are not the slightest bit interested in solving problems – they thrive on chaos, suffering and ego power.  People who debase and oppose spirituality are not to be trusted, because they are the enemy of truth and freedom, however righteous they try to present themselves.  What they oppose, a spiritual person should examine, because there is usually some strong truth in the things “progressives” most vehemently oppose.

And prayerful thought is one of the most powerful truths there is.  So let me provide a simple outline of how to establish a spiritually-grounded life.

1.       Take full responsibility for your life experience.  One of the most foundational aspects of a spiritual life is fully embracing the “Law of Cause and Effect,” that everything in our life experience exists because of our thoughts and actions, in this life and previous lives.  You create everything in your life experience. 

But, you say, I’m impacted by a tragedy in wherever.  That can’t be my responsibility!  Yes it is.  You invited that tragedy into your life experience.  You didn’t shoot anyone or have anything to do with the event, but it’s in your reality nonetheless, because you put it there with your thoughts and actions.  Nobody else could put it there but you. 

This is a truth for every experience in your life.  Every thought and action you have is your responsibility.  This is the most difficult aspect of spirituality, taking full responsibility.  The ego wants to blame and deflect.  The moment one takes full responsibility, the ego is mortally crippled. 

2.       Connect to Source.  You cannot think yourself out of your situation at your current level.  You must find a higher place to get a full view.  You can’t fix ego problems through the ego, you need a higher source.  Connecting to divinity, to the reflection and expression of Source, elevates one’s vibration, which gives one space to truly see and resolve things from a place of truth. 

Truth does not exist at the ego level.  It comes from Source.  Humans cannot find truth without connection to something bigger, the universal truth. 

Guess what?  Connection to Source in its expressions and pure reflections is PRAYER.  You accept responsibility for your life, you let go of the belief that your ego can fix itself, and you PRAY to connect to truth. 

3.       Allow Source Consciousness to Change your Beliefs.  Let go of your attachment to being right and accept a higher truth.  Your broken beliefs led to wrong thoughts which invariably lead to wrong actions.  Right thoughts lead to right actions, which changes your life.  So allowing one’s beliefs to be a pure reflection and expression of Source consciousness is the only way to truly embody right beliefs, which create right thoughts and lead to right actions.  There is no other way.

4.       Test for Accuracy.  Don’t assume the new beliefs and thoughts are accurate until you’ve connected to your true self and confirmed that these are in fact coming from Source consciousness.

5.       Let go of the Ego.  This process of prayerful thought is a mortal threat to the ego and it will fight for dominance.  Let all that go and embrace a higher truth, however uncomfortable.

6.       Trust your Right Thoughts and Actions.  Go forth and take action fearlessly.  You may not be able to logically understand what you’re doing, but you need to allow the process to flow through into your actual behaviors.

7.       Rinse and Repeat.

When I say “simple,” I don’t mean “easy.”  Most people will take many, many lifetimes to embody this simple process.  The huge majority of people will die with their egos fully in charge and will have to keep going through this process again and again.  The good news is we are undergoing a major energetic shift, which means more people than ever are breaking free of ego disconnection from Source.  And many more will fully free themselves in a few more lifetimes, instead of thousands of lifetimes. 

But it’s not easy.  In fact, going through this process will probably suck, at least for a while.  There’s a misconception that spirituality equals joy and comfort and ease.  This is a distraction from the truth.  Source consciousness isn’t concerned with an individual’s personal ease and joy.  It is only truth and freedom.

So next time a tragedy comes into your awareness, by all means, send prayers and thoughts.  There are those who say they do nothing, but in fact they’re the only thing that will truly work.

Energetic Growth, Personal Habits and... Arguing on the Internet?

I’ve been experiencing a major elevation of my energy, and it’s being noticed by others – not just people around me, but some people who have a lot of power themselves and are attuned to noticing these things.  Even on a physical level things are different – I’ve lost a lot of weight and in much better shape and feel better, too.  Along with greater efficacy in the world, it’s growth at all levels.

This isn’t an accident – I have made changes in my practice and lifestyle that have made a major effect.  And it’s worth noting what I’m doing.

On an energetic level, I utilize my downtime at work to watch Natural Grounding videos (muted) while listening to powerliminals from Rion’s Powerliminal YouTube channel.  It’s a REALLY good combo, apart from being a good use of free time at work (instead of getting lost in Internet hell).

At home, in engage in daily spiritual energy meditation based on my work with Etienne and whatever comes up from that personally. 

I exercise regularly, a combination of strength training and things that elevate my heart rate.  I don’t do cardio anymore (or rarely), more calisthenics.  And I switch things up to maximize effect.  For whatever reason, my body doesn’t like too much resistance training, but needs some regularly.  Balance is the key. 

I also practice a form of daily periodic fasting.  2-3 days per week I’ll fast for 18 hours.  The other days I fast for 15-16 hours, eating only Greek yogurt and either coffee with milk and raw sugar or lemon/citron tea I get from the Asian supermarket to break the fast for the first two hours.  Sometimes I’ll have a cheat day where I’ll have alcohol or the bucket of popcorn and candy with my kid at the movie theater, or splurge on some snacks from Thai Town, then back to the regimen. 

Again, my body likes measured discipline.  Too much fasting and it’s counterproductive – I feel lousy and it has no positive effect.  Too little and I feel sluggish and “too full.”  So I listen carefully to my body.  Lots of Greek yogurt, coconut milk, coffee (with or without the milk and sugar), green tea, lemon or citron honey tea, Thai home cooking, very little wheat.  When I drink it’s usually wine or apple cider, not so much beer.

I also dedicated myself to a lifestyle aligned with my inner truth.  For me this means more time with family and loved ones, more reading, resting, meditating, and reconnecting with the things I enjoy, like skiing and fishing.  I even got a cat, which is helping to relax and balance my energy.

I generally refrain from arguing on the Internet, but as my energy has been elevating, I’ve felt compelled to express my truth.  This isn’t the same thing as arguing.  Arguing is two people discussing their opinions – often in violent conversation.  It is entirely ego-based and serves little purpose apart from giving people something to do.

An expression of truth can often be confused with arguing, but it’s not coming from the same place.  It’s from my higher self, and it isn’t at all concerned with appearing “right,” but with providing a message and doing its best to make sure that message is received.  After that, I’m done.  The person I’m “arguing” with will usually not be convinced of anything – that’s not the point. In fact it’s better to utilize an unconscious “living straw man,” who can unconsciously assist me in getting out my message through their attachment to ego-based argument. 

I’ve found “social justice combatants” to be excellent “useful idiots” in my expression.  These people are so unconscious and hopelessly attached to their opinions and wounds, they can’t help themselves but argue.  They don’t debate, that involves a certain level of inquiry into the other person’s logic.  They just reflexively regurgitate facets of their opinion, which invariably reflect a collective unconscious illusion referred to as “progressive thought” or “social justice.”  And since it’s not their own thought derived from their own truth (because they’re unconscious, though ironically refer to themselves as “woke”), it provides me an opportunity to juxtapose my higher truth against the collective unconscious.  This allows me both a chance to more clearly express my truth and to expose the collective unconscious for the few who might actually want to connect to their own higher truth instead of being an Internet zombie.

This is a rather new development for me.  For the past few years I’ve made a conscious effort to withdraw from forums where Internet arguments were propagating, even going so far as to mute or unfriend many loud and unconscious friends who engage in this behavior.  Now I find myself called back – not to argue about their silly opinions about imaginary issues to feel “right,” but to express my truth where called forth, even if that means engaging in what others might see as “Internet Argument.”

I’m not sure why I’m being asked to do this.  I don’t seek this out, it is finding me. I still refrain from the Internet as much as possible, apart from the Natural Grounding videos I just mentioned.  My sense is many others who are evolving are being called forth, too, that the people who have been suffering in silence while the Internet bullies have been running wild, polluting the Internet and the media, are now being called forth to speak the truth and expose the collective unconscious for the fraud that it is.

Sometimes it’s calling on me to “fight,” but I feel calm, not angry.  I feel peaceful when I state my truth and then go about my day.  These arguments used to take up all my energy, now I feel like my true expression is returning.  And I see more and more others speaking up, too.  Maybe the universe has finally had enough of this ego bullshit and it’s time to bust some heads in a spiritual sense.  

On the Google Controversy: I Am Spiritual, Not a Feminist

I’m not a feminist.  And at this point I can’t bring my efforts to today’s “feminists” in any way or form.  Feminism as it is today is toxic garbage that places temporal emotions over principles and truth.  There’s no longer any place for constructive discussion, much less action, under this tent, and I’m out.

You call yourself a feminist – fuck you, I’m not working with you.  That includes people I’ve been working with for many years up to now.  You’re full of shit, and whatever good you think you’re doing under that umbrella, it’s not good.

I’ve been seeing the toxic effects of today’s feminism, particularly in men who imagine themselves “woke” because they’ve swallowed the garbage pill.  It’s toxic.  It creates authoritarianism, it separates thought from truth and emotions outside of alignment.  It empowers the most wounded and dysfunctional women, who go on to give horrible – HORRIBLE – advice to men.

And every single “feminist leader of men” inevitably drinks the Kool Aid and starts inviting women into the leadership.  And then their coaching practice goes to hell.  Every time, without fail.  “Woke men” are blind and stupid men and make REALLY. BAD. COACHES.  Period.

I’ve been following with curiosity the controversy around an internal Google memo that criticized Google’s HR practices and in doing so proved itself right with the condemnation from Google and the employee’s firing. 

I encourage you to read the memo.  It’s spot on factually. Don’t take my word for it, read what the experts say. 

I don’t feel bad for the employee, he’s got his ticket punched for basically writing a decent psychology term paper.  It’s basically a typical liberal analysis and solution to a non-problem problem.  His analysis is okay, his suggestions and focus slants very left-of-center and he gives far too much attention to a problem that isn’t really there.  Obviously part of his focus is due to his employer’s obsession with modern feminist dogma, but I think it’s also his worldview.  I have no doubt this writer voted for Clinton with both hands in 2016 (which makes his current lionization by conservatives hilariously ironic and sad, but whatever floats your boat, commentators).

The reaction among modern feminists is exactly why I won’t have anything to do with feminists.  They attack him as “sexist,” cheer his dismissal from Google, praise Google thought police, and somehow think they won something because the power of their blind feelings got someone they don’t like fired from a job. 

How is that a blow for “equality” (which I believe is a stupid goal to begin with, but it’s their stated objective, not mine)?  Well, it isn’t.  It’s basically a successful temper tantrum – you got to keep your binkie, which mean ol’ Dad took away but Mommy intervened.  That’s your win.

To me this whole thing isn’t a revelation of the idiocy and toxicity of modern feminism as much as confirmation of what I knew to be true.  Because I’ve seen it.  I’ve seen wounded, immature women using modern feminism as an excuse to act wounded and immature.  I’ve seen “woke men” who consider themselves leaders of “evolved masculine” (whatever the fuck that means), holding these really awful examples of femininity as “goddess energy” and encouraging men to listen to and worship this insanity.

There’s a Facebook group that claims to be promoting the “new masculine,” basically this “woke man” modern feminist nonsense.  Most of the posts are selfish, stupid women talking about things nobody would care about if it was on their personal Facebook page, much less this supposedly enlightened coaching space, or it's people selling their junk services.  It’s a creepy, self-righteous Craigslist with idiot posts from wounded women.  And the owners of this steaming pile of social media junk think they’re waking men up with this crap. And I'm done wasting my time with those kind of men.  They're doing more harm than good in the world.

The only time anything interesting happens on that page is when someone dares to bring a shred of truth to the forum – then you’ll see everyone on the page gang up in righteous indignation, call the person a bigot, sexist, etc.  (like anyone whose not a lunatic would be hurt by such ridiculous labels).  Then you see what “progressive” and “feminism” and “being woke” is all about – irrational emotional catharsis, authoritarianism, group think, and a complete lack of any common sense or rational thought.

So these men holding themselves out as “spiritual leaders,” who think they’re here to “awaken men” or help them “evolve,” imagine the solution involves destroying the rational part of one’s brain, acting childish and emotional, worshiping the wounded, and shutting down anyone who disagrees with this insanity?

Yes, that could be an accurate description of modern feminism.  Or a 70s cult.  At this point, it’s hard to tell the difference, so fuck all y’all, I’m outta here.  I happen to like my brain, thanks.

There is absolutely a place for spiritual awakening and valuing healthy male-female relationships.  I just don’t see how we do ourselves any service by using the polluted labels such as “feminism.”  (I’m even starting to wonder if we should ditch the word “evolution,” since it’s also become so polluted, but that’s another discussion for another time.)  Real spiritual leaders need to disavow the term.  We can value the feminine without endorsing the toxic.

I think it’s time for those who are truly on the cutting edge or spiritual awakening energy to divorce from feminism and from those who have taken the label as part of their practice. We’re either bleeding energy or empowering the forces working against us – forces of oppression, authoritarianism, falsehood and irrationality.  We really need to take a firm stand in our own place and our own truth, free from the poison of political correctness.

I Am Responsible For All My Suffering

I’m using this weekend as an opportunity for meditation, observation and reflection.  I need to clear out my energy and get clear about things, and then chart a new course. 

Last night, after a good workout at the gym, I came home and meditated.  But it was different, I felt a different connection with my crystals, and particularly my crystal ball.  I haven’t used my obsidian crystal ball in a long time, but last night I held it and was communicating with the archetypes.  They were helping me to gain clarity and understand my purpose.

One of the first realizations that came up was that my home is in Thailand, and it feels like it’ll be a very long time before I can even go back just to visit.  The archetypes explained that Thailand is an important part of my destiny and that I’ve lost connection. This made me feel very sad, because it’s true, I’ve lost a lot of connection – and I do feel like I’m away from my heart’s home.  But at the same time, I love my family life here in the US and really love my son, who is still young, and the time we spend together.  (Of course I love both my sons, but my older son is pretty much on his own now.)  And of course I’m going to be here for a long time, working and taking care of my son. Does this mean I have to put my purpose on hold for years and years?

The archetypes agreed this wasn’t a good solution and something needed to be done.  They also explained that it is because my “heart” is anchored in Thailand that my money has been flowing to Thailand instead of staying here, which has caused me tremendous stress.  Yes, a lot of that problem has been resolved with my wife working, but this only created other problems and stress and feeling things are not right.

The archetypes agreed this isn’t a good arrangement and agreed to re-anchor my heart and root energy so it’s with me now and not elsewhere.  Then they began explaining my purpose in life, why it’s been my destiny to go through suffering and stress.  Through most of my life I’ve been conflicted – my ego has been in strong opposition to my heart and true life path.  This has led to so many problems which I’m still struggling with.  My ego is constantly worrying because it fears and resists everything my heart is trying to do. 

I felt really sad hearing this.  It’s like I’ve been dragged kicking and screaming to this place.  Am I going to have to keep suffering?  Why does everything have to be a struggle?  Do I have to be exhausted and have so many root issues?  Why can’t I have some peace and relax?  What do I have to do to get out of my way?

The answer – no, you don’t have to suffer.  You have to release your fears, surrender and follow your heart.  But how do I know I’m following my heart?  I’ve done so many foolish things when I thought I was following my heart and it turned out I was full of shit.  Answer – some of those things were things that had to be as part of your destiny and we are sorry it had to be so painful for you.  Those things weren’t mistakes, you just couldn’t understand and weren’t ready to surrender.  Other things had to happen so you would be ready to dissolve your ego and fears and surrender.  And other things, yes, were foolish mistakes on your part, but those things ended up having little consequence apart from the pain caused by your own ego.

“You see,” they said, “your pain has been entirely of your own choice.  It is because your ego has been defiant and stubborn in its fear, and you have chosen to value that fear above your own heart’s desire, that you have suffered.  Your fate was never to simply live a stable, comfortable life.  You look at the uncertainty and different nature of your life and compare it to the many comfortable, stable and happy people you know and you feel sad.  You feel disconnected.  But you feel disconnected from what your ego imagines you should have, not what your heart knows is your truth.  The pain is your ego’s interpretation of your unique path as failure because it looks so different than everyone else’s.”

So how do I finally release this ego, this fear, and allow myself to surrender?  “You just do.  All you need to do is clear out your energy and surrender to your true path.  It is your ego that is the source of your suffering.  Release the ego and everything will follow.”

At this point I felt very sad but I also felt a sense of peace.  My ego is very negative, full of shame and judgment.  I’ve believed it got me through all the rough times, but looking at it now I believe it was what was responsible for my getting into those situations in the first place. 

This is why I needed this reflection.  Everything related to ego needs to go.  So no, I don’t need to chart a new course, because that would just be another ego adventure, and that needs to go.

Today I worked out.  A lot.  And then I went to beach and walked and sat and contemplated and walked some more. I saw police having a confrontation with someone and then saw paramedics come in and actually diffuse the situation.  There’s ego and heart playing out in real life in front of me.  Ego – the cops and the suspect, neither one backing down.  Heart – the Fire Department paramedic breaking through. 

This is the lesson, this is what is meant by “follow your heart, let everything else go.”

All the problems in my life now, or in my past, are a manifestation of my ego resisting – either clinging to something I should let go or fighting something I should surrender and accept.  All the fear and anxiety – just ego.