Jared Goff's Energy Revisited

I’m going to take a break from the challenging posts I’ve been putting up lately.  In my effort to speak my truth, I’m being too harsh and causing some unnecessary pain.  It’s because this isn’t an easy divorce for me, leaving the communities I once called home.  My general approach to such things when I realize it’s time is to “rip the Band-Aid off,” but that’s a pretty traumatic process for anyone watching.

So I’m going to venture into more benign territory and talk about football.  I’m going to revisit my energetic profile of Jared Goff, now QB for the Los Angeles Rams.  About a year ago, I wrote a profile of Goff and said he had the energy of a superstar QB and team leader.  Then last season happened.  Needless to say, the energies I saw in him did not manifest on the field last season.

So was my reading incorrect?  Testing says no.  The reading was correct.  My conclusions, which were not based on energy reading or testing but my own assumptions, were way off the mark.  Go figure.  If anything, it’s a lesson in how not to value one’s “emotional logic” over intuitive imprints sitting right in front of us. 

It’s also a lesson in how football is a team sport.  The Rams began the 2016 season with a lot of problems on offense. They ended the season with a lot of problems everywhere.  In the middle of that transition from bad to worse, Goff was tapped as the starter.  Needless to say it didn’t go well.

Has Goff’s energy changed significantly since last year?  He’s a little more grounded, but otherwise about the same.  He’s also apparently put on some weight from weight lifting and training.  All indications are he’s reacting positively to the failure of 2016, a sign of strong energy.

Lots of successful players (especially at QB) spend years in the wilderness before achieving success.  It’s not unusual for truly successful people to need a long runway before liftoff.  Also, 2016 saw a number of other rookie QBs do relatively well, which of course brings up the concerns of Goff being a bust for this reason or that. 

It’s far too early for that kind of talk.  Also, those comparisons are not apples-to-apples.  A mediocre rookie can look phenomenal behind a stellar O-Line and with a full stable of good receivers.  And a very good QB can look horrible without those things.  So is Goff right now a good QB on a bad team or a bad QB on a bad team?  Hard to tell.  One thing we do know, Goff’s offense in 2016 was horrible.   The O-Line was bad, the receivers were putrid, the running game was nonexistent.  How good can a QB be when he has no blocking, no running and nobody to throw to?  No better than a bad QB.

In other words, we know next to nothing about Goff’s abilities as a QB.  Unless we could put him behind center on a good offense, there’s no way to tell.  It appears the Rams have upgraded their offense, but who knows?  It’s the offseason and all we have is a handful of objectively bad games to examine.

So what will Goff be like this year?  He’ll be better than last year.  Can’t get much worse.  If he has decent protection and receivers who catch the ball (how does any Rams receiver from last season still have a job?), he’ll look much better.  Those two things alone will open up the running game and then we’ll see if Goff in fact has the leadership energies I’m seeing in his profile. 

Over the long-term I see Goff being a successful franchise QB. My concern at this point is 2017 will likely be a below-mediocre year for the Rams.  Everyone talks about the Rams defense, but in the second half of the season the injuries piled up and the defense was unimpressive at best.  Guess what?  2017 season has just as many games as 2016, so however good the Rams defense is at full-strength, it won’t stay there long enough to keep the team in games at the end of the season.  So no matter what Goff does, the Rams are looking at probably an 8-win ceiling.  Goff was unfairly blamed for defensive problems at Cal, don’t expect Rams fans to be any more gracious (or intelligent).  If management gets impatient, Goff could end up being someone else’s franchise QB, maybe after spending a few seasons as a back-up somewhere, and the Rams will have squandered their #1 overall pick about as badly as a team could. I wouldn’t put that possibility past the Rams’ management.

So I’ll withhold any bold predictions for Goff this season except he’ll be noticeably better than last season.  My long-term assessment remains unchanged.

Creepy PUAs, Spiritual Coaches, and Finding Freedom and Happiness

"Those PUAs are So Creepy!  Join us."

For those who have followed me for a while, you know I’ve had an interesting relationship with communities like pick-up (PUA) and its cousins, the “We’re different than PUA but really not that different” groups (let’s call it “Spiritual Inner Game Seduction” SIGS for short).  I’ve been both deeply involved and deeply skeptical, and tend toward the belief that, while they can be somewhat helpful for some in the short-term, for the most part they’re a waste of money and long-term exposure is toxic.

I’ve been apart from them for a while now, and in this place of looking at them from the outside, I’m even more convinced they are dangerous and overall do more harm than good.  Some of this is an adjustment in my own perspective (I can see where I was manipulated and ended up spending even more time off-track than if I hadn’t been involved with them), and some is shifts that have taken place in these communities themselves.

While it is possible to learn and practices certain social skills in the PUA community, it’s become so corrupted by greed, arrogance and deceit that it’s extremely difficult to navigate the swamp, find and utilize a good resource, effectively learn the skills, and move on with one’s life without becoming corrupted psychically and energetically. 

If you’re a man who feels he is lacking connection with women and wants to better himself, I recommend Rion Kati’s Natural Grounding and his dating resources (look up Natural Grounding and ping him about other resources).  He’s not the only clean resource, but he can point you in the right direction and it’ll keep you out of the boneyard.

My greatest concerns, however, are with the SIGS.  Most of these are a mashup of Tony Robbins and NLP, PUA and California Spirituality. As such they are inherently problematic.  Now with California spirituality and the yoga/ Tantra community completely aligned with dark forces and lost, they’ve become full-fledged cults with dangerous spiritual entanglements. I used to say “these can be good if you know how to keep your head above water,” but I can’t say that anymore.  Even with all my spiritual training and activation, I’m being told “STAY AWAY!”  If the archangels are telling me to just stay away, I can guarantee you have no business being anywhere near this stuff.

One of the problems with SIGS is the prevalence of Neuro-Linguistic Programming, or NLP.  While this can be useful to help people overcome negative programming, its primary function is to CREATE negative mind programming (such as advertising), not free people from it.  And while these groups purport to free people from negative societal programming, in truth they are about creating artificial addictions to their supposed healing modalities.

The mind and spirit, like the body, are naturally self-healing.  What keeps people “hung-up” on past wounds is when something short-circuits that healing process and creates a loop where the wound is basically put on auto-replay – or even programmed to replicate itself.  This is pretty much what SIGS do – they create addiction on the psychic and spiritual level by perpetuating these infections and in advanced cases turning them into self-replicating viruses that can be spread throughout the group.

This is made worse by SIGS obsession with indiscriminate sexual contact. This group is maniacal in its obsession with sex – connecting with more and more people, demonstrating prowess, creating sexual addictions and obsessions in partners.  It has twisted the Tantric concepts of exploration and acceptance into a religious worshipping of sexual wounds, which then get spread far and wide in the communities through indiscriminate sexual contact. 

The practitioners in these communities are clearly damaged souls.  Ken Wilber, Moses Ma, virtually all the Yoga and Tantra leaders, the “spiritual female PUAs,” so so many – really damaged people. Their spiritual energy fields are black with all the veils and entanglements polluting their fields.  But lately it’s taken an even more dangerous turn – they’ve fully identified with the spiritual pollution and now worship their morass of veils and entanglements – they’ve decided black is white, pollution is clarity, slavery is freedom, and anyone actually fighting on the side of freedom is now an enemy to be destroyed. 

There was a time when forces of light could operate within the spiritual communities and the “open-mindedness” dogma would force the polluted majority to at least pretend to tolerate the true light workers.  But that window closed after November of 2016.  That catalyst event forced the polluted majority to take a stand, and they have – they’re fully committed to their wounds and spiritual pollution and are no longer even willing to consider alternatives.

At this point, the archangels have no choice but to accept this decision and barricade the practitioners of pollution.  Before I was getting messages “be very careful,” and now the message is “STAY AWAY!”  There’s nothing for us to do but work together with those who are outside the barricade, keep the forces of light out, help each other clean and heal (many of us are an energetic mess from “trying to help”), and keep building what we’re doing.  This means for many a loss of many friends, but also a massive freeing and cleansing of energies.  It’ll be okay, you’re never alone.  Don’t waste your time mourning for people who have chosen spiritual pollution and slavery over freedom and light.  Yes, it’s sad, but that’ll just put you at risk of getting sucked into destruction along with them.

So what do you do if you’re someone who wants romantic connection?  I mentioned Rion, I’d highly recommend that path, it parallels the spiritual development path as well.  What if you want to improve your “inner game,” and live a happier and more fulfilling life? Pretty much stay entirely away from the “inner game” practitioners.  Even guys like Tony Robbins are hopelessly corrupted, and many have made deals with dark forces and are now operating just to destroy as many souls as they can get their hands on – they’re unapologetic cults.

So what can you do?  First, disconnect completely from the SIGS – all of them.  Find a good coach whose on a spiritual path (I know some), or start connecting with clean material.  This blog, Etienne’s blog, Natural Grounding, a clean meditation practice, all good places to start.

I’ll work on creating some very simple but clean material on how to heal and rediscover your happiness (which is also your life purpose, and which will improve all the aspects of your life you think aren’t working).  In the meantime, sit down, close your eyes, breathe slowly and deeply, and let everything go.  Keep listening.  Keep clearing.  Keep coming back here and I’ll keep shining the light.  And stay out of the shadows.

From experience, I’ll tell you most of your “problems” will heal themselves once you learn to clear your energy and relax your mind and body.  The few “skills” you need to learn will usually find you through inspiration or coincidence.  (Unless you’re being called to something really big, but you’ll know.)  Most people don’t need a coach, they just need to get out of their own way, drop the BS and follow their heart.

I'm a Racist. And a Misogynist. And Whatever Other Label You Give to Good People With Self-Esteem.

Apparently, according to people I don’t know, whose opinions hold zero value to me, I am guilty of being a racist, misogynist, and whatever else labels they’ve got that they think would make people upset.

Why?  Have I done something really wrong?  Have I been mean or abusive to people?  Do I engage in behaviors to put people down and take advantage of them?  No.  And the huge majority of people in the world, many of whom are being tarnished with these labels, haven’t done these things, either.

Most people are good people just going about their lives.  They’re not hurting anyone.  In fact if anything they’d give the shirt off their back to help their neighbors in need. They’re not racist.  They’re not misogynist or any of these other labels.  They’re just people living their lives – apparently in a way that irritates other people who should be minding their own business.  That’s not mean-spirited or oppressive, it’s just different people doing different things.

But apparently that’s enough to bother a small group of people who have appointed themselves judges of what is and isn’t good behavior and who are and aren’t good people. But who cares what these people think?

Well, that’s the thing.  Grounded, well-adjusted people who value their self-worth DON’T care what self-appointed feminists or experts on “race relations” (which looks more like conflict than relating, but apparently grammar is also racist) think.  If you value yourself, you strive to be a good person and you don’t get caught up in nonsense about whether some crazy person on Twitter with a blog thinks you’re “woke” or not.”

If society was filled with mostly high-self-esteem people, the feminists and race baiters would be flat out of a job.  But it’s not.  There are a lot of good, decent people who listen to these people – not because these people are good resources on how to live a good life, but because these people remind them why they should feel unworthy.

America doesn’t have a race problem.  America doesn’t have a misogyny problem.  America has a self-esteem problem.  It’s not that there aren’t enough Americans who love women and love people regardless of the color of their skin, it’s that too few of the people who are good, decent people are willing and able to accept themselves as good people.  And so they listen to the manipulators who try to convince people that we are all bad.  And unfortunately, some of them take it to heart and become bad – not because they really are bad, but because they completely devalue themselves.

We’re not bad people.  Yes, there are a few genuinely bad people.  They’re about 1-2% of the population, and they really are just evil.  Then there are a few more who are just ignorant.  And there are some on top of that who aren’t bad but who have some “anger management issues.”  They’re at the far end of the low-self-esteem spectrum. Calling these people “bad” doesn’t really help.

And none of those people even know the social justice manipulators even exist.  Probably 90% of the “bad things” are perpetuated by a group of people that is either hopelessly evil, really ignorant (and these people are mostly harmless, though they get a lot of attention and shame), or unable to control their harmful impulses.  Railing about social justice does absolutely nothing to deter the bad behavior from this group.  You know what does help?  Policing, intervention, basic education.  In other words, the things society does already, but maybe not effectively enough.

After that we have two broad groups of people – those who know they’re good people, and those who are good but doubt their worthiness.  Both groups run the gamut of political opinions and social status. The first group isn’t going to listen to the social justice people, because who is going to take advice from someone who obviously has more personality issues than they do?  They may get annoyed/ be amused, but they’re not affected.  This covers “most people,” and pretty much all the people who go about their lives and really don’t have much to do with politics outside of casting votes every so often – you know, those “disengaged voters,” or people who don’t even vote.

Then you have the “sheep.”  These are people who are good, but for whatever reason don’t accept their worthiness as human beings on this earth.  I know far too many people who fit this category. They want to be good, they try to be good, because deep down inside, they believe they are not good. 

And as such, they are easy marks.  Every charlatan, every race baiter, every feminist hones in on these people like flies to dog business.  They’re the people who provide the money to “personal coaches,” PUA’s (pick-up artists), social activists, you name it.  Because they don’t believe they are good, they believe they have to “do something” to achieve worthiness. 

It’s no surprise that the most manipulative, dishonest and toxic feminists I’ve come across are also aligned with the PUA community.  They’re attracted to weak, wounded men.  They smell the fear like sharks smell blood.  And they attack without mercy.

If you look to social justice people – or personal coaches, or PUAs – to give you worthiness, you will be broke, unhappy, and forever unworthy.  You will be a sheep, and they’ll just keep fleecing you over and over.

Because the problem isn’t that you are a racist.  You’re not.  You’re not misogynistic, either.  And you’re not a pussy, or any of those other things.  You’re a human being, a spiritual being of infinite value who has lost connection with their inherent worth.  You’re not a bad person, or unattractive, or boring, or shy or whatever you tell yourself.  You’re a good person whose a little lost.  You’ve forgotten how to be human and how to be happy and you’re trapped in an unhappiness loop.

Yes, there are bad people in this world.  And if you’re reading this, there’s almost zero chance you’re one of them.  Yes, there are ignorant people in this world.  If you’re reading this, you’re not one of them.  And there are people who have lost their way.  And there’s a good chance you’re one of them.  And the first step to finding your way out of being lost is to stop listening to the people who stand to gain from keeping you lost and confused.

You’re not racist.  You don’t hate women or men or anyone else.  And it’s time to stand up for yourself.

Yes, the people who seek to manipulate weak people would say I’m racist and misogynistic. That’s good – they hate me because I’m a mortal threat to their existence.  I know who I am, which makes me immune to their BS.  And I empower others, which means I have the power to destroy their audience.  Because once you connect to your true self, you’ll have nothing to do with people who accuse good people of being evil.

In the Energy Flow (Finally!)

These past few months my energy has amped up dramatically.  A lot of things changed kind of all at once.  My living situation, my energy around my family both improved dramatically.  The financial oppression I’ve been living under for years has lifted. I’ve been spending years fighting against the current and the past several months treading water as the current subsided.  Now the energies are at my back and it’s making all the difference.

I’ve been swimming in the ocean – actually taking time to connect to the ocean for myself.  It’s the first time in years I’ve done this.  I finally have energy for things like this – and lately a lot more. 

Now I meditate with crystals I feel a surge of energy, particularly sacral chakra creative energy.  It’s flowing very strong with nothing blocking it.  For so long it seemed like all I did was clear stuff out and heal the energy without making any real progress.  Now I’m feeling real movement, and everyone around me is noticing the difference as well.

I stopped taking herbal supplements – all of them.  I’m not sure they were doing anything for me, and I have never felt better than I have these past few weeks herbal-free.  I did a pendulum test and determined the herbal supplements were a drain on my energy. 

I don’t know how much of this is due to the epiphany around death and life purpose that happened recently.  It seems like my energy has been non-stop since then.  This also coincides with my ceasing all herbal supplements. 

I was taking melatonin or something else herbal to help with sleep for the longest time.  I just stopped cold-turkey and my sleep is about the same.  What I’m getting back is those things do little to help me sleep and whatever sleep benefit is more than offset by the energy drain of their side effects.

The little shifts add up.  And now feeling my awakened energy is full forward flow is just… wow!  Maybe it’s a good thing I began this journey fighting the current. The energy might have been too much to handle at that point in my life, the resistance was my training wheels. 

For the longest time I thought there was something wrong with me, I had no energy in any aspect of my life.  I felt like I was in a very deep rut and needed help.  It’s pretty obvious I was being crushed under the energetic oppression.  Take away the resistance and the energy comes roaring back, better than ever. 

Today I’m meditating with tiger iron.  I’m feeling this surge of deep, grounded, masculine energy.  Nice. My mind is much more clear and open, my body is more relaxed.  There’s more space and freedom, a larger container. 

Damn, I could get used to this!

SPOILER ALERT: The World Will Not End

It’s fascinating to see the human ego in all its folly.  We humans consider ourselves very smart, but the physical manifestation of human intelligence – our ego – is hilariously stupid and illogical.

The “End of the World” myth is a classic example of this.  The concept that the world is going to end because of our doing (nuclear war, ozone layer, overpopulation, global warming, moral depravity bringing about divine judgment) is so obviously egoic and logically false it’s hard to understand how otherwise “smart” people get sucked into such cult-logic nonsense.

The logical pattern is the same.  The ego realizes it is mortal.  The ego also believes it is the center of the universe.  Therefore, if the ego dies, everything else must die with it.  The most terrifying concept for the ego is the truth - when you die, the world will keep going along just fine and won’t miss you.  That logically sound and factually accurate reality is too much for the supposedly “rational” ego to handle, and it goes into delusion.

And just because millions of people all fall into collective delusion doesn’t make it any less delusional.  The world is not going to end.  Each person in it will end, and the world will go on as if nothing happened.  Because as far as the universe is concerned, nothing happened.  I’ll die.  You’ll die.  We’ll all die.  And the universe won’t care. 

This is the natural order of things, and it’s actually quite beautiful.  It’s only our grotesquely distorted ego that finds something wrong with the cycle of life.  And so our egos create stories about the entire world ending, and then we come up with false logic to justify our ego delusions.  And yet, despite all this, the universe continues to not care one bit about our crazy theories or our egos or our lives.  Life goes on.

With the theories of the end of the world always come an ability for the human ego to control the outcome.  We will all die from nuclear war unless we give up control to my ego, which will save us.  The earth will get revenge on us for using fossil fuels unless you bow down to my ego.  God will stamp you out and send you to hell unless you consent to handing over your life decisions to me.  See the pattern here?  It’s all about ego and control.

The truth is, there is no control.  The ego is an illusion that has no control over anything.  The force of life moves as a giant river and the human ego doesn’t amount to even one atom in that river.  Your life is infinitely valuable, but your ego is entirely worthless – literally it has zero value and holds no real physical or energetic space.  And yet we constrict the force of life and seek to control others in violation of the laws of God and nature in service of the worthless at the expense of the infinite. 

Armageddon is the ultimate illogical extension of valuing the worthless (ego) over the infinite (life).  It is what cult leaders use to manipulate followers into committing mass suicide.  It is what politicians use to consolidate power over weak-minded countrymen.  It is what religious leaders use to control followers and turn people away from spiritual truth and the force of life.

Armageddon is not real.  The world is not ending.  Life will continue long after your ego is gone.  As terrified as your ego is of dying, neither you nor the rest of the universe will miss your ego when it dies.  Ego is nothing more than an evolutionary aberration as our species moves toward a higher state of evolution.  Some people have trained themselves to dissolve the ego – eventually evolution will do this to the entire human species, or whatever the next step in the evolutionary ladder will be called.

So in the mind of the collective ego, yes, the world will end.  But only for the ego, which was never real to begin with.  So a collective illusion will end.  Life will not. 

But the stories about the end of the world are powerful.  They play on fear.  They play on the illusion that the ego is real and must be preserved.  They perpetuate distortions, which is where fear exists.  And because fear has a strong biological response associated with it, we assume that fear is real.  But just because an ego-based collective delusion produces a strong emotional response doesn’t make it real.

For those who value the force of life and true consciousness, it’s important to look at the delusions for what they are.  The world is not coming to an end.  Your death is not something to be feared or viewed with dread – in fact the opposite.  Death is a welcome friend.  Your purpose here is not to avoid death or sit out your days in comfort, it’s to live out your higher calling in service of the force of life – freedom, love, beauty, truth.

We are not living in order to not die.  We are living because we will die, and our mission here is to earn that noble death through a good, purpose-driven life.  And when that day happens, the world will go on, the universe will not care a single bit, and the only thing that will end is your physical body (which will likely be more trouble than it’s worth by that time) and your illusion of ego.

Sorry, the world will not end.

The Future of Natural Grounding is in Nature

Life is different when you’re off the grid.  It’s different when you’re not in an office all day, when you’re not attached to the phone.  It’s different when you’re under the sun instead of fluorescent lights.  It’s different when you’re around trees and can walk on dirt.  It’s different when it’s quiet, there’s no traffic and fewer people. 

That’s home for me. 

The problem is, right now I only get to visit and most of my time is in a much more urban environment (though less urban than it was some months back). 

I was thinking about why guys like Rion and Etienne and others are so much further along with Natural Grounding and alchemy and it’s pretty obvious – they’re not stuck in a city.  They move around, they go outside, they’re not stuck in a commute or under office lighting or any of the other soul-sucking mind-control routines.  And because of that, they succeed.

It’s very difficult, if not impossible, to be a natural in an artificial environment. 

The urban environment is toxic and soul-suppressing.  It’s a form of mind control.  There’s a reason central planners and authoritarians love cities – it’s how you control people.  It’s why the Cabal constantly ridicules people from the countryside as rubes – because people in nature are more connected to Source and much more difficult to coerce, manipulate, repress and control. 

It seems every nation in the world has this similar dynamic – those who want to control others utilize the large city and then seek to cast those who are not living in the city as the “enemy of civilization.”  They’ll exaggerate differences and play to the insecurities of their urban minions by casting “outsiders” (those more closely aligned with nature) as dangerous, unsophisticated, poor and ignorant. This is not just a US or Western phenomenon – look at Thailand, look at India, look at China, Japan, everywhere. 

In the minds of the Cabal, nature is to be rationed and presented in an environment that closely resembles an urban setting.  I recently saw this up close on a visit to Yosemite.  The whole way the park is designed is to maximize traffic and parking problems and create foot traffic congestion.  They’ve even created “villages” where large numbers of people “camp” in close quarters (and have to reserve their spaces months in advance), and there are just enough urban amenities to keep most people disconnected from nature. People are forbidden from walking on grass or in meadows and strongly discouraged from making any contact with rivers or streams.

Those on the furthest end of the authoritarian spectrum include so-called “conservationists” who don’t want people interacting with nature in any way. They would like to ban hiking trails, hunting, farming and fishing entirely.  Barring that, they want to place as many stressful restrictions as possible, to energetically block the benefits of nature. They seek to cut people from nature by making it stressful and expensive for most people to engage with nature.

It is no surprise that those who actually interact with nature the most (fishermen, hunters, farmers, ranchers, woodsmen) are those who are most strongly opposed to the urbanists and radical “environmentalists.”  Those who derive energy from nature can see what the social planners and restrictionists are really trying to do. 

And this is true in every country.  If you move to the country, buy a farm, minimize your Internet usage and learn to use a gun, you are a traitor and an enemy of the urbanists and they will stop at nothing to destroy you.  Again, I’ve seen this firsthand in more than one continent.  Those in the country don’t despise the people in the cities, but those in the cities violently despise people in the countryside.

On a personal level, being in the countryside, in nature, is returning home.  And coming back into the urban mechanism after being outside it makes the reality that much more clear.  Everything about urban “life” – the illusion of sophistication, the illusion of style, media, the unnatural living conditions, traffic, artificial lighting even during the daytime, it’s all invention.  It’s mind control. You’re being duped. Or you’re actively invested in your own illusion.

The Matrix talks about the Red Pill and the Blue Pill.  Taking the blue pill is a conscious decision to accept illusion over reality.  And people in the cities not only swallow blue pills by the handful, they pay a fortune to keep their medicine cabinets filled with every kind of blue pill they can find.  They’ll even try to convince you blue pills are good for you and make you smarter.  Because city sheep are smart.

Well, city sheep are educated.  They’re clever.  And by competing with other city sheep to see who is the most clever and adapted to artificial life, they don’t have to look at the big picture and see how disconnected and unnatural their lives are.  And coming into contact with that reality would make city sheep feel really stupid for spending all their time and money chasing blue pills.  And there is nothing city sheep hate more than to feel stupid.  Which makes them easy to herd, fleece and slaughter, unlike those unruly country sheep.

But wait, you’ll say.  Rion and Etienne spend plenty of time in cities.  Yes, but they don’t have roots there.  The few times Etienne returns to his “home city,” things don’t go well.  Same when Rion spends a considerable amount of time in Los Angeles.  There’s a difference between visiting a city and establishing a home and roots there.  Visiting New York City is fun and exciting; living there saps the life out of you.

And it’s important to add that there are some who are truly at home in a city and thrive.  The problem is that’s not most people.  And it’s clearly not me.  It’s why I need to constantly visit the ocean or a lake or stream to reconnect to my true base state, to “reset.” 

Etienne recently used the trees in the Amazon Forest to receive energy that the light workers wouldn’t accept.  We know about the power of crystals.  I’m certain that bodies of water can be utilized in a similar way, as can mountains.  The plant and root structure of forests and farms is another available resource, basically anywhere there aren’t a bunch of people messing things up with their collective resistance and delusions.

This says to me that the evolution of alchemy and Natural Grounding is grounded in nature, away from the urban system.  And while I have responsibilities that require me to live in the urban area for a while, my purpose and my future depends on my expanding my connection in nature on a larger, and eventually permanent, basis.

Making Friends with Death and My Soul Purpose

Little things can set big changes into motion.  They can also provide great clarity.

My mind was pretty clouded recently.  I went on a nice mini-vacation, which cleared things up a lot.  Then I had my wake up call.

A little thing, a small piece of candy in fact, blocked my windpipe.  For a moment, I was choking – like can’t breathe at all choking.  Amidst the surge of adrenaline there was a realization that I could really die.

And that was my spiritual alarm going off.  In that moment, my mind went completely clear.  I connected with my soul and faced death.  I’ve had a couple other close calls and it was the same feeling.  Death doesn’t scare me – what’s on the other side is okay.  But I also got clear about my greater purpose in life – I didn’t want to die, I wanted to fulfill my greater purpose.  I wanted to take care of my family and fulfil my larger purpose.

A moment later, I hacked out the candy.  It was an interesting feeling – I faced my mortality and I knew the whole time I wasn’t going to die then.  The whole experience was less than a minute and boom – total clarity (though I believe the time in nature set up this moment).

Later I spent some time meditating and accessing that essence.  I noticed my face looked much different.  The anxiety and chatter was gone.  All the things that seemed so important were meaningless. 

It’s hard to hold on to fear when one knows death – the “worst thing that can happen” – is okay.  Death is natural and the transition over is very pleasant.  When it’s finally time for me, I’ll go willingly, but it’s not my time – I have a lot of things left to do and people who need me. 

Connecting with that reality really clarifies things.  Most of the things we all worry about are meaningless BS just there to distract us.  Money worries, job worries, petty conflicts, even a lot of health concerns are all nonsense. The irony is all these worries actually get in the way of our ability to realize our human potential.  Worrying about money keeps money away; worrying about health actually saps our vitality.  My moment of clarity brought forth a surge of energy, and then I slept really well.

I also realized the obsession with “saving for retirement” is utter baloney.  There is no such thing as retirement.  I work in large part to create the resources to support my family and to build a financial foundation to allow me to further my greater mission once my family obligations come to an end.  After that, I don’t “retire,” I repurpose.

A life of leisure, which most people think of when they think of “retirement,” is not living.  It’s a life of distraction.  Yes, certain comforts and pleasures are nice, and there’s nothing wrong with that.  But that’s not a purpose.  Given what I’m doing now, I’ll have more than enough resources to live my purpose and be comfortable enough to enjoy myself while I’m doing it.  That’s all I need. 

I’m clear on where I need to be in order to fulfill my purpose – close to nature, connected to the cycle of life.  Let all the other stuff go, follow my heart, which leads me to my purpose.  Family, love, freedom, life, happiness.