Not Taking Crap Anymore

Some day-after observations of my energetic work with Etienne.

First, I feel an amazing energetic clearing today, especially in my lower dantian.  I’m amazed at how many of my unhelpful automatic responses in the world were the result of that stuck fear-energy.  Just going through my day is night-and-day easier and it will be much easier to further my purpose with this energetic resistance gone (and the energy now working for me).

Second, and probably more important given our recent work, I had a dream that explains the message of perseverance I received yesterday.  (The message was “keep going; it’s going to get tough, but it’s worth it.”)  In the dream I had thrown boxes and boxes of junk out of my space.  This action enraged some oppressive people.  I could see at first they were shocked and then very upset.  I went back inside and could see them outside the front door.  They dropped some new boxes of junk and banged on the door, demanding that I take their crap.  I told my wife not to let them in, but somehow they got through the door carrying boxes of their junk. 

I told them they had no business violating my personal space and to get out and take their junk with them.  They were yelling, threatening, demanding I take the junk as if I owed it to them.  It was very tense, but they did leave, still making threats and saying this wasn’t over.  I threw their junk outside, shut the door and that was the end of it. 

I spoke with my higher self and confirmed with a pendulum test about this, that it was a fairly accurate explanation of my current situation.  I have been a willing receptacle for the psychic garbage of other forces, to the point those outside forces feel entitled to use my space as their psychic garbage dump.  Over time I would clear out the junk, but always more would show up, and the cleansing process has been very time and energy consuming and often feels like I’m not getting anywhere.

The message I was receiving yesterday was more specific than “keep going,” it was a message to expand and protect my personal sphere and not take anyone’s crap.  (Which aligns with my personal history on all levels.)  You could see this when you’d go to remove junk and forces would immediately try to shove more junk in.  The message is telling me the external efforts to fight my internal cleaning efforts will intensify until they get the message that their junk is no longer welcome here.  The immunity is the door and walls, and they’re going to test that immunity until they’re exhausted, which could take a while.   

This isn’t just “higher-level” energy, this all energy – above, below and here in the physical world.  I’ve spent my life taking people’s crap and then properly disposing of that crap, only to have more dumped on me.  Yes, this is true – this is how I’ve lived my life since as early as I could remember.  All my mechanisms were attuned to receiving, processing and dealing with this external crap. 

Then I’d wonder why I’d get tired, be resistant to dealing with people, be afraid of confrontation, worry all the time and have so much “stuff” to deal with.  My life has been a psychic garbage dump and I’ve been operating from a reactive place. 

Last night, that shifted.  I’m no longer taking anyone’s crap.  And I’ll likely receive strong resistance on all levels to this change. 

So I’m adopting a process on all levels, to consciously and unconsciously no longer take other people’s crap.  It’s interesting – I’m noticing how everything I’ve been doing has been from that place where I’m supposed to take this shit.  When I stop that, everything changes, the whole energy changes.  It’s powerful.

And as I move into my role as coach and healer, this becomes important.  I’m not here to take crap, just help other people heal and delete their own junk.  That’s a powerful step into healthy coaching, learning how to help others without getting entangled or drained energetically. 

The first step toward actualizing my truth.

Energy Clearing With Etienne: "Keep Going."

Had my first "high-level" coaching session with Etienne. Some major energetic clearing and attunement. Lots more to do. 

One thing that came up was the old man "Ron" at the other end of the Tunnel of Death gave me the message to "keep going. You're on the right path." I interpreted this to mean there would be some trials and tribulations, and likely will be. 

Also many opportunities for doubts and just giving up. Life is always throwing stuff at me and it's easy to disbelieve and not continue, to give up on my higher purpose and not fulfill my destiny. 

So the message is to keep going, to not keep looking for "good things" to prove I'm on the right path, but to actually commit to this path and to stick with it even when good things aren't happening. 

Because that's where the real success lies, pushing through that point where it seems like I can't do it. Just that extra step, and then magic happens. 

Revelations from My Connections With My Feminine Past Lives

I found yesterday’s ritual had a significant impact on me as well.  My clairvoyance expanded and my connection to stillness and source is deeper and cleaner.

And after a day of integrating the experience with my past life memories, going through my day yesterday and noticing experiences and changes I want to write down a few insights around the understandings I’ve gained, which apply to others as well.

Women and men, at a fundamental soul level, are not that much different.  The feminine and masculine expressions are naturally different, but there’s nothing especially unique about the soul energy of a woman compared to a man – as far as I can tell and the feedback I’ve received, they’re exactly the same.

Which means, there is no such thing as “divine feminine” and “divine masculine,” there is only divinity, a unified divinity.  The expression is distinct and worthy of understanding and respect, because it carries with it the history and uniqueness of masculine and feminine, but above the bodily chakras there is no difference. 

Instead of saying “divine feminine” and “divine masculine,” it would be better to say “the feminine/ masculine expression of the divine,” because that’s what we are in our human existence – an expression of the divine, one tiny facet of an infinite gem, yet each facet absolutely essential to the integrity and beauty of the whole.

We will reincarnate between masculine and feminine depending upon the wisdom our souls desire from such an experience.  Most souls have spent half their time as each. 

The concept of “privilege” is an odd egoic concept that is currently holding back spiritual growth in a big way our souls chose this living expression for a reason and gain value from all the experiences that come with it.  To say one is “privileged” is to deny the worth of every other soul and place the (almost always materialistic and superficial) experience ahead of every other.  This is a spiritually dangerous path that can allow the ego to interfere with spiritual development to the point of spiritual retardation.

“Privilege” fosters envy and creates the illusion of a caste system.  The universe seeks freedom and values love.  The enemies of spiritual growth are things that restrict freedom, oppress, diminish healthy self-worth, kill, cause suffering or deny spiritual truth.  From this perspective, “class warfare” and the entire Marxist-based grievance system is entirely anti-spiritual, as it deliberately seeks to repress, kill and deny truth while embracing materialism, envy and hatred.

Basically, the entire Western political system, and most of the religious systems, are anti-spiritual, both on the left and the right.  And the philosophies supporting these systems are full of deceptions and spiritual lies.  Unfortunately most of the spiritual movement has been ensnared by the political system which has corrupted the spiritual teachings.  Some very obvious examples are people like Deepak Chopra and Moses Ma, but there are many, many others.  My Facebook feed is full of well-intentioned, spiritually-minded people who are badly ensnared in the Western political illusion.

On the “right,” spiritual people have also been ensnared (though more “politically correct” to attack than the “spiritual left,” though there is no difference as far as the levels of deception and spiritual entanglement).  Here we have many people who are good and spiritual in their personal lives but have given over their personal freedom to forces of oppression and deception. 

In some respects the “Evangelical Christians” are more spiritually aligned with truth than the supposedly “free” “Spiritual Movement” people.  One of the key tenants of Evangelical Christianity is “don’t follow leaders, follow Christ,” which is very close to the spiritual foundation of freedom.  Meanwhile, the “anti-Christian Spiritualists” are running around looking for gurus – whether it’s the Dali Lama, Deepak Chopra, some shaman, coach, yogi, or whatever flavor of the week (this week Pope Francis is popular with spiritual sheeple, but he’s as misaligned as the others and full of ego and deception).

I’ve often found it’s easy to identify the spiritual oppressors – they’re the ones pointing fingers at everyone else.  (I say this with full self-awareness that I’m doing the same to some extent right now – I have a long ways to go myself on this journey, and I place a high personal value on irony.)   

The victimist spiritual model that embraces the “privilege” talk (currently voiced by people like Pope Francis and most of “white people Buddhism”) is nothing more than Marxist political ideology dressed up as spirituality.  It’s a form of Satanism practiced by about half of the Cabal intentionally designed to deceive people into giving away their freedom and embracing oppression and death.  It embraces envy, disconnectedness, anger, fear and outward-looking.

The truth is our souls chose our current forms for a reason.  To say one person is “privileged” over another is to deny the inherent wisdom of the soul.  It’s certainly the case that some souls are more evolved than others and as such will attract more power in its various forms (though sometimes difficult to see).  But evolved souls always seek to use their gifts to leverage that power for maximum good for others.  Look at evolved souls like Albert Einstein and Henry Ford.  Buddha was born extremely wealthy and high-status; obviously his soul needed that “privilege” in order to carry out a purpose that has transformed the lives of millions.

That’s not to say oppressive forces and structures are okay, they’re not.  Oppression, hatred, fear, disconnectedness – these are the enemies of true spiritual evolution.  These enemies take the form of “political correctness,” statism, racism, sexism, bigotry, war, pollution, many forms.   Buying into the mindset that you are privileged, or oppressed, is taking you away from spiritual connection.  When one finds oneself looking outward and comparing oneself to others, this is the time to stop and look inward.  Ask “what is it in me that is out of alignment with love and freedom?”  The solution to problems outside oneself are found within as we are all interconnected.

This is a long detour from where I was going, but a valuable stream-of-consciousness and I hope you’re staying with me.

Men want to understand women.  There is a lot to be gained through better connection with women (friends and lovers), and also through accessing your higher self and past lives. 

I’ve learned that women are incredibly sexual and sensual and designed to absorb a great deal of energy, both good and bad.  Pretty much every woman is carrying around a lot of pain and sadness, and the healthy women have learned to utilize this as grounding energy (while in unhealthy women it shows up as stress, tension and acting out behavior).  Women carry a lot of emotional energy which serves them well and are extremely intuitive, which often puts women’s energy at odds with men who are more attached to their rational.

Interestingly, men have a naturally lower capacity for handling energy, emotions, pain and sexual excitement than women.  This shows up in paradoxical dynamics – men often seem “out of control” sexually, precisely because men have a low capacity for carrying energy (need to “release”).  By connecting with memories of my past lives, I’ve learned how to expand that container more (even though I’d been practicing I was still comparatively undeveloped). 

Unfortunately in the West, women have shut down huge parts of their energetic and emotional systems to be more like men.  There are a lot of theories as to why this is, but the correlation between spiritual oppression and female energetic and emotional disengagement cannot be ignored.  I’ve noticed in other countries where spirituality is much more clean the energy is flowing freely and very powerful.  Then here in the West, everyone’s turned into energetically dysfunctional men.  Then we spend thousands of hours and dollars trying to “find spirituality” when it was our birthright from the beginning.

This disconnect is something my past lives cannot help me with.  My female past lives were all open in their energy, even if their sex lives were not entirely fulfilling for other reasons.  They have no ability to comprehend the energetic self-castration that has gone on in Western women, and thus offer little help for how to help women out of this phase.  About the only advice all my past selves offer in this regard is “keep evolving and shine your light more and more.”  Certainly this will inspire higher vibrations which will dissolve the lower issues.

Some big personal lessons that apply to everyone:

You are far, far, FAR sexier, attractive and inspiring than you think you are.   In a way this is obvious.  The ego is not capable of seeing our true potential because our egos are small and very limited.  The collective ego is even worse, because it contains deliberately oppressive structures.  The invitation here (joyfully accepted) is to deeply explore, activate and shine that higher self.

Women are INCREDIBLY sexual and energetic. 

Assume every negative thought about women is a personal projection that can be easily fixed through inward-looking and you’ll be on your way to amazing success. Women are great mirrors and projection screens.  Instead of reacting to the projections, or beating yourself up, use this gift as an opportunity and transform.

Everyone has their journey for a reason – release judgements, prejudice and pride and connect to your own journey.

Ritual Complete (and ongoing)

I completed the distant energetic ritual. 14 people began the ritual (6 unconsciously joined) - need to boost my marketing a LOT.  

Removed hundreds of implants, almost 100 entities, closed over 300 portals, removed 72 spiritual entanglements, killed 3 demons (those three people will be feeling MUCH better) and healed the Evil Eye.  Not a bad cleansing. 

Powerful attunement and activation. I felt a few more people join at that point, so I put the ritual on "loop" so new attendees receive the same benefit. I gave everyone a special energetic "gift."

Obviously I need to do a lot better at getting the word out but a few people's lives got considerably better this evening. 

I hope yours is one of them. 

With love,

Uthaithani 

Update: My Connection to a Past Life, Changes Happening

So many things are opening up it’s hard to get them down.  And it’s difficult to remember them.  I’m finding that my mind is shifting into a deeper presence which leaves me forgetful.  My higher self tells me I need to create a better to-do-list and calendar system, because “this problem is not getting any better, it’ll only get worse.”

My go-to recall system has been fear – a pain about unfinished things or worry.  Not going to work going forward, so I need to work with my state of presence by creating a conscious organization structure.

Last night I had an amazing experience.  I connected with a past life – a woman.  It turns out she was a very beautiful woman and I connected with her memories (my memories) from that life and brought forth that understanding and experience.

Apparently she was very sexually awakened, but her husband, while a good man, was unconscious and so her sex life was good but not what it could be.  It was a powerful life – she carried a lot of awakened energy and was clairvoyant during her life, as well as very intelligent and talented.

As I accessed those memories, I was able to communicate with the person I was then – she couldn’t understand why I held any fears or self-doubt and figures it must have been something imposed on me to suppress my expression until I was mature and foundationally ready – that if I’d known my greatness early I would have likely wasted it on womanizing and shallow pursuits.  (So my suffering is a gift??  Having a difficult time with that one.)

I was able to access her feminine sexual response, which made for an intense and very enlightening lovemaking last night.  I could feel the physical and emotional feminine responses on an energetic level.  I’ll have to process and share that insight, maybe more will come up today.  A whole new way of looking at things.

I woke up with massive energetic pressure in my belly and then slept some more after processing the energy and had crazy weird dreams. 

This is the “sexy” spell working its way through me.  There’s so much for me here.

I’m writing this a few minutes before my clearing and attunement ritual.  I sense there are at least six people participating, maybe more.  It’s going to be powerful.  For those who didn’t chose to join, there will be many opportunities, but I’m sensing many non-believers are going to regret their stubborn skepticism when they see the massive changes going on in those who are receiving my gifts.

REMINDER: Distant Energetic Clearing and Attunement TONIGHT!

6pm Los Angeles time the ritual begins. Simply decide to accept the clearing and attunement and you'll be a pert of this. 

Free Energetic Clearing and Attunement: Saturday, May 28 6PM Pacific (US) Time

This Saturday, May 28, 2016 (tomorrow) at 6pm Los Angeles, CA time, I will be conducting a free distant energetic clearing and attunement for anyone who wishes to participate. 

To join, simply affirm in your mind that you would like to receive and energetic clearing and attunement from me and it will be done.  This is my gift to my readers.  Please feel free to share this invitation with your network.

Benefits of this energetic clearing include removal of energetic blocks, openness to receiving insight, improved clairvoyance, removal of stress and more ability to achieve the things you want with less effort.

Sound good?  Simply agree in your mind and you will become part of this energetic cleaning.

There’s nothing you need to do at the time.  You may meditate, rest, or go about your day.  Sitting in quiet meditation will provide you the most benefit. 

And please let me know the effect of this ritual in your life.

With Love,

Uthaithani

Stepping Into Something Big: "Chapter One" of the New Book of Ages

Zhongli Quan - My Higher Self

 

I’ve taken the first step on the path of greatness.  I call this “Chapter One.”

I’ve embarked on an amazing journey the past three years, one that led me to create a home in Thailand and bring a beautiful, naturally-awakened Thai woman into my life.  It was a powerful shift that began when I first worked with Etienne Charland.  At the time I felt “stuck” and then things just flowed.

After integrating this massive change, which included changing jobs and a major internal adjustment, I attracted some powerful new things into my life which led to the creation of this blog, among other things.  I experienced an even deeper awakening.

I found myself resonating more and more with what Etienne was saying – the “crazy stuff” made sense on a deep level.  I read his “History of the Universe” and was called to begin a new phase of alchemy.

Then last night I spoke with Etienne and began what I call the first chapter of the awakened life.

He sensed I was one of the Eight Immortals, reincarnated and now assembling again.  He sensed Zhongli Quan.  Pendulum test – yes.  But obviously skeptical, as I’ve never considered myself spiritually gifted.  But there are likely very good reasons for this.

I was given serious ego suffering as a child for a reason, born into a family that doesn’t embrace this kind of thing, and had to hide my fascination for the magical. I tried to put it in the box and forget about it, but every time I tried bad things would happen.

I made bad choices in relationship that seemed to make no sense.  I kept sabotaging myself at work and couldn’t understand why.  It seemed like everything I did I would undo. 

I felt disconnected and lonely, but at my core actually happy.  I wrote about this before, this conflict between my inner self that feels happy being a “lone wolf,” and is actually happiest when I am speaking my truth, even if it alienates others, and the external world telling me there’s something shameful or wrong about me.

When I allowed myself to open up to the wisdom of my higher self – to the power beyond the rational mind – magical things happened almost on their own.  I learned how to channel sex magic to manifest amazing things in my life (I shared the “magic formula of manifestation” earlier – another insight out of the blue).

For a long time I thought I was a daydreamer and that my “intuition” was actually pretty lousy.  What I didn’t understand was this was part of the journey.  I was stuck between two worlds – the spiritual world my heart longed to live in and the rational world that was being imposed upon me.  And being in the middle of the road is not a good place to be.

I ended up struggling along yet having remarkable experiences that couldn’t be explained.  I could never do anything “by the book” and would forget steps almost as soon as I learned them. Yet somehow I’d get by on my instincts.  In fly fishing I have arguably the worst casting form ever, yet I catch fish regularly.  I’d often have experiences where I’d “get” things – even high-level things – right off the bat, then backslide into rational self-doubt.

I’d read things like “The Zen Teaching of Huang Po” and immediately find that place of stillness.  And then I’d doubt myself rationally and slip back into lower-level suffering.

Many examples of this – I became multi-orgasmic and learned to circulate sexual energy almost entirely through intention.  But then my ego would get involved and I’d still struggle with ejaculatory control.  Things didn’t make sense.  I’d seem to magically manifest relationships (back in my unconscious days) with multi-orgasmic women (and I had NO skills) and later learned about energy and that I was somehow doing this naturally – but only when I believed it would happen.  With women where I felt self-doubt or ego attachment, things didn’t work so well.

Eventually as I learned more and began to trust my energetic mind and body, I began to reverse-engineer this.  There is logical and rational comprehension and then there is Knowing, which is all the woo-woo stuff, and also the only path that has brought me happiness.

I have moments where someone will say something, or a certain tone of voice, or something I read triggers something and I “bliss out.”  I love that feeling.  I used to attach it to the person but later realized that’s not it at all – this is a connection to a past energetic self, a blissful, high-level energy.  How do I know this?  Because I’ve tested it and I’ve accessed more and more of those levels on a regular basis during the latest phase of my awakening. 

But I’m not content to enjoy these things myself or with my chosen partners.  I believe these gifts can be opened up for many others.  And I’m prepared to accept a certain amount of resistance to step into this truth.  These are energetic access points to my past lives, to Zhongli Quan, and his many incarnations between that period and now.  There is a common energetic thread that unifies these lives that I can dive into and learn and teach.

The Lumerian selenite wand kept telling me I had greatness beyond my egoic imagination.  And I had no idea.  I’ve only accessed little tastes of what it possible, but there is so much more.

So I did something I thought I would never do – I gladly invested a lot of money to enlist Etienne to help me fully awaken and amplify this energy, to amplify my voice and bring my gifts out to the world, to awaken others in this journey.   And I don’t feel the slightest bit uneasy about it.  (Okay, the financial pinch hurts a bit, but I fully trust my higher self will return the money several-fold.  It’s truly an investment, not just in myself but in a higher calling.)

I’ve fully moved from a place of wanting a better life for myself to my higher purpose – to inspire others to raise their frequency and live a better life. 

This is why the wand thought my “spell” was a waste.  I was “wasting” it on myself and not furthering my larger mission.

I knew almost nothing about the Eight Immortals before I saw the videos Etienne recommended.  They line up (on the top level) very well with his “History of the Universe” book.  There’s clearly a unifying thread.  Why would this resonate with me when it seems so crazy?  Why does this fit with my truth while I struggle to find a way to work with Destin that feels right for me?  Why do these seemingly “crazy” things fill in the blanks for me and explain so many of the disconnects in my life?

When I embrace the wisdom and awakening energy of the Lumerian wand, of “The History of the Universe,” of alchemy, of sex magic, of activated and attuned crystal energy, everything clicks, I have a sense of purpose, I feel good and good things happen.  When I go back into “rational, reasonable self,” I’m unhappy.

Zhongli Quan had a fan that he used for magic and as a weapon.  I’ve pendulum-tested – the Lumerian wand is not the fan.  The fan is still out there, waiting to be found.  He loves wine – again, I knew nothing about this stuff as I spoke with Etienne, yet for some reason I felt compelled to bring a bottle of apple cider to the conversation.  I don’t drink a lot – never more than two drinks a day and often none.  But a lot of times I feel called to have a drink when I’m meditating and there’s a certain “rightness” to it.  Sometimes it’s just half a beer.  But this totally fits the archetype – Quan wasn’t a drunkard or an alcoholic, he just enjoyed sipping on wine as part of his spiritual journey. 

Here’s Etienne’s article about the Legend of the Eight Immortals and how it applies to what is going on today.

So I’ve taken this step – a massive step.  I have zero doubt.  I’ve never felt so fully on my path and living in my truth as I do now.  I’m living a greater purpose, the veil is lifted from my eyes and I’m embracing my truth.

Get ready for some big things!





Why Are People So Attached to Their Limiting Beliefs?

In general, people are very attached to their limitations.  Most people would rather fight to retain their small view of themselves than step into the greatness that is their birthright.

I received this message a couple ways today.  On Facebook, someone posted this fairly obvious truth:

“You don’t have to understand your limiting beliefs to let go of them.”

To me this seems obvious.  Of course you don’t have to analyze your limiting beliefs and energetic blocks – simply get rid of them and live as your true self. Obvious, right?  I don’t always apply this perfectly, but I understand the truth of it. 

So why is this so difficult for many to accept?

There were all kinds of posts about how this is wrong, that we need to spend a lot of time making friends with our limiting beliefs, etc.  Unbelievable. 

I’ve seen so many other places where people fight this basic truth in many ways that I’m convinced most people really are attached to their limiting beliefs.  Most people don’t really want to live extraordinary lives, they just want to feel better about the small life they’re living.  They’re looking for a spiritual happy-pill, not enlightenment or real transformation.

We’re attached to the psychological model that tells us we need to go back into our memory and spend lots of time crying it out and healing.  And healing certainly has its place, no doubt.  But changing habits and beliefs, and letting go of blocks, isn’t about healing – it’s about cutting off the energetic node that’s blocking your flow.  It’s simply about letting go and doing something different. 

Why are we programmed to believe it’s harder than this?  That our limiting beliefs are a part of us, like our arms and legs are part of our physical bodies?

The ego is weak and seeks control to compensate for its weakness.  It will concoct elaborate stories to convince us our self-imposed limitations are “real.”  And we accept it, even when actual evidence tells us our limiting belief is factually and logically incorrect.

Instead of fighting, try letting go.  Instead of arguing, just face the limiting belief and let it go.  It’s fake, it’s an illusion.  Just see through it and let it go. 

The universe is far larger than your limitations.  Connect to the truth of the universal energy and let that dissolve your artificial limitations. 

Revisiting the Walking Spell and Greatness

I had an inquiry about a “walking spell,” so I’ll go into that and the follow-up meditation with my Lumerian wand.

The ritual is something I’ve made up myself, but I guess you could call it NLP.  It’s not like Hypnotica’s version, but could easily be modified (and I’m going to try that and report back). 

Basically I took my highly-attuned nummite stone and another highly-attuned power crystal – in this case serpentinite to charge up the Kundalini energy.  I walked grounded, set the intention of what I wanted from the spell (highest sexiness, highest sexual energy, total confidence), changed a mantra (use whatever works for you), then sat for a couple minutes and let it settle.

Then I walked around the building a couple times carrying the stones in my hands, exploring all the places where I might be resisting and bringing the spell into those places with each step.  Then walked some more, allowing the spell to fully activate.  I feel like the sunshine and physical movement is a key part of this.  When it felt activated, I went back inside and pendulum tested, confirmed the spell activated.

So it’s utilizing the energy of the highly-attuned crystals while implanting a bulletproof intention.  Part magic, part NLP.  I suppose I could do a lot more with this and make it more robust, this was a first attempt.  It’s like affirmations on steroids.

At home I meditated for a long time and spoke with the Lumerian wand.  The wand confirmed the spell would have its full effect, but asked why I cast such a worthless spell, telling me I was already powerfully sexy and had everything I needed.

The wand confirmed that my energy and charisma would increase and I’d notice a massive shift, but that this wouldn’t really be magic.  It would be me simply letting go of limiting beliefs, false paradigms and unhealthy entanglements.  The wand said “you don’t need a magic spell for that, you just needed to clear your vision and see yourself as you already are.  You are already powerfully sexy and energetic.  The greatness you think you need to find is already inside you.”

“Maybe so,” I responded, “but how can I teach others if I simply access my own greatness without any steps or method of explanation?”

“Accessing greatness,” the wand responded, “is like accessing any form of enlightenment.  It’s not a step-by-step process or some form of magic.  It is a matter of un-thinking, un-trying and allowing the greatness to fill your awareness and being.  Stillness is our natural state, only interrupted by the ego’s need to control and create structure where no structure is asked for.  Greatness is the same.  When you release the illusion of disconnection from greatness, it fills your presence entirely.”

“That sounds too easy.”

“Well, you’re 44 years into this life and still haven’t mastered this, so maybe it’s not all that easy.”

“What about all those people who work hard, study and practice for years to achieve greatness?”

“No.  People work hard, study and practice to acquire skills and knowledge.  Greatness is not found through practice.  When you fully understand and integrate the difference, you will discover your true greatness.  Then nothing you do will feel like hard work, just the next step on your path.

“When you watched Destin’s videos from a meditative state, you were integrating the lessons from a place of inner greatness.  You were attuning to the energy and deeper wisdom. This is the foundation that is greatness.

“Once you let go and allow yourself to see and feel and live from that place of greatness, you’ll begin to understand the true power of magic.  And you’ll look back on your spell today and laugh.  Do you think I was brought into your life by accident?”

“You were attracted to my greatness.”

“Yes.  In the presence of your  power, I can feel alive again.  Together we can do truly great things.  You are so much more than the human you have been.”

Obviously, this lesson isn’t meant just for me.  Take this with love into your own life.

With Love,

Uthaithani

My Personal Learning Challenges

After I finished reading “The Secret of the Golden Flower” I read Etienne Charland’s “The History of the Universe,” my third reading.  Most of the reading I was overcome with sleepiness and still feel very sleepy.  This is my edge.

I’ve noticed this about my learning and integration style – I’ll often embrace something new the first time, even putting it to full use on the first try.  Then the subsequent times I’ll encounter resistance to continuing my integration of the work. My mind likes to “get” things, but then the self-doubt and self-sabotage comes in.

Destin has a great program about erotic techniques and it’s the same thing – I’ll jump right in and have success with something, then find excuses to walk away instead of fully integrating it.

I can’t tell you how many times this has happened – getting things right out of the box but never deepening.  Or I’ll start off super inspired and then run completely out of steam and can’t seem to get the energy to reengage.

I used to chalk it up to general laziness, but that’s not it.  I’m not lazy.  It’s something deeper, some implant that’s likely affecting many aspects of my life.  Something I am committed to removing so I can be rid of this habit.  Maybe there’s a boredom aspect, that I’m attracted to learning and embodying new things, but not super interested in deepening.

There are many things in my life where I have found deep integration, but there is still that rapid start – slow second gear.  Maybe it’s nothing to worry about, just the cycle of learning.  I’ve learned the more I’ve let go of attachment to outcomes and just keep putting one foot forward, the easier the learning process becomes. 

So… couple things that just came up. 

After reading, I went on a “spell-casting walk” (using the nummite and Labradorite stones) focused on supercharging my energy and confidence.  Muscle-test, the spell is complete and will be fully activated and integrated in three weeks, with some effects showing up immediately and others evolving as my system integrates.

Then after that I began watching Destin’s videos in this meditative trance state, attuning to the energy.  WOW.  Feel really GOOD!  Just attuning to the energy and letting the lessons sink in on a deep level without rational interference.  I’ll be interested to see the long-term results; short-term I’ve got a wonderful trance-buzz going.  I’ll take it!

Required Reading: The Secret of the Golden Flower

Powerful reading “The secret of the Golden Flower” by Lü Dongbin I would consider required reading for anyone serious about personal evolution and raising your vibrational frequency.

The esoteric nature of Tao Buddhist texts often makes them seem out of reach for laypeople, or easily dismissed by skeptics. This is actually the point of the texts – they are not meant to be easily digested.  One must put forth some effort to attain the lesson, as the process of attaining and integrating the lesson is the process of elevating one’s frequency.

For those who would dismiss the reading because of conflicts with one’s different religion, keep in mind this philosophy does not require one to submit to a dogma.  In fact, the overreaching message of the lesson is the attainment of freedom for the soul.  This is the opposite of dogma.

There are some religious interpretations in other religions that require adherence to specific dogma and might consider the reading of this text to be undermining their dogma.  But the true path to spiritual connection is not adherence to man-made rules, whether government, religion, social or internal.  Freedom will provide you true enlightenment. 

Taoism is more a practice than a religion, and one that will allow one to expand awareness of all things.  A practice that can deepen one’s connection to their other chose religion, or serve on its own as a religious practice. 

In order to grow on an energetic level, one must free oneself from attachments, energetic entanglements and distractions. One must learn stillness.  One must not let dogma and attachment to man-made things and ideas hold them back.  Enlightenment is attained through the conscious integration of many sources. 

There are many paths to God – and God is love.  True love is found only through freedom.

My Emotional Healing Meditation - Healing My Past

I went deep into healing meditation last night.  I have been holding onto lots of anger and took the time to face it and take responsibility.

I took a powerful step toward really healing my past, instead of operating unconsciously in the same self-sabotage pattern.

Using powerful crystal attunement and Hoʻoponopono, I faced the sources of my anger and accepted responsibility.  The truth is, I never really healed my first marriage.  I ran from it. I felt terribly guilty and judged myself a bad person, so I ran.

The truth is, I feel bad about what happened and what I did.  I hurt her – I gave her joy and took it away.  I may not feel that my current situation is fair, given what I did, but I have to take full responsibility.

Moreover, take responsibility for everything before that led to this. 

It felt good.  At one point I was back on the blacktop at my high school – probably in the 8^th grade (it went 7-12 grades when I was there).  I felt all the things I felt then, and then I brought my awareness to now and broke free. 

I pulled out two large entities – I killed one that said it hated me and wanted me dead because I was good.  The other was huge – much bigger than me – and I transmuted it into love and watched it burst into a giant pink prana cloud. 

My social habits no longer serve me.  I was wrong about everything and everyone.

My mind was full of prophecy dreams (which I can’t remember) and powerful energies that made for a kind of restless sleep.  The agitation is settling down a bit now.

I can finally accept responsibility for the ways I hurt people – especially women – and how that’s all been a reflection of the self-hatred in me, of my low self-worth.  I can apologize and forgive myself.  Layers of trapped guilt, shame and suffering melted away.

And I can accept my current situation without anger or hurt feelings.  And I can allow my own suffering to come forth and heal.  Now I feel free – sleepy, but free.  As I continue to elevate my energy, there’s going to be more need for these healings and I need to make this a regular part of my meditation practice.

Facing My Worries More Deeply, and Jasper Meditation

I really need to write more on an earlier post about asking into the worries and fears, there’s so much here. 

Last night, I was playing out in my mind a potential conflict with an ex and I caught myself, sat on the side of my bed and meditated.  I asked what in me is bringing this up, what am I afraid of seeing in myself.  The entanglement popped up and I could face it and eliminate it.  Then I felt compassion and understanding, so I knew I’d resolved the matter.  And fell right asleep.

It turned out, of course, nothing happened – worry over nothing.  But not nothing, because I dug deeper and found self-acceptance.

The picture above is my ridiculously highly-attuned jasper wand.  It’s one of the stones I enjoy looking at and find myself drawn to, but then grow tired of connecting with.  It’s not because it isn’t powerful – it’s very powerful.  But it doesn’t have that juicy, otherworldly “kick” some of the other stones have.  Instead it’s a very slow, earthy energy.

I hadn’t spent a lot of time with this one since Etienne attuned it.  Even when I took it on my weekend getaway it sat mostly as a focus piece.  I blessed it in ritual and made it a “power stone,” but still hadn’t given it much focused attention.

So today I did.  I sat with it and grounded to it.  A deep, rich, earthy, grounded energy.  As I sat with it I felt relaxed, confident, stable, secure.  It’s a slow energy, so when my mind isn’t quiet it can seem “boring,” but that’s the danger of the ego, it seeks out preferences everywhere. 

Staying with it, I felt into the energy, the gravity, the stillness, the humbling quietude.  I could feel that earthly power like standing at the Grand Canyon or looking up at a giant rock cliff.  I also began feeling an earthy sexy quality as I felt into the sexual energy of my root chakra.

Often when we think of sexuality we think of sacral chakra, but sexuality also resides in the root (actually in all of the chakras). It’s a powerful, primal flavor.  I feel into that and I can feel the energy of the DNA I’ve been carrying that goes back to the beginning of life on earth, that primal connection to all life on earth.

It connects me to that part of me that wants to have a farm and live off the land in Thailand. 

It’s a very different experience than connecting to timelessness or alchemy.  But that’s just it – this is about awakening all the energies.

Cosmic Natural Grounding Meditation

I've added some Taoist energetic meditation to Rion Kati's Natural Grounding program for people to use to awaken and expand their energy. 

Meditation:  Begin by grounding, centering and connecting to Gaia energy. Bring this energy into your body.  Then look at each picture individually, connect to the stellar energy.  Imagine yourself connecting to the stellar body in the universe.  Then say "As above, so below."  Bring the energy into your body. 

Each object actives a different part of your energetic system.

They can be used with other Natural Grounding methods.

You can use with musical meditation or alchemy meditation.

Highly recommended with Rion's powerliminals.

Using highly-attuned crystals will massively amplify your experience.

As above, so below.

Feel the peaceful, tranquil energy of the cosmos, available to you.

 And know there are billions of places just like this throughout the universe, as well as higher universes with even more powerful spiritual beauty, all available to you.

As above, so below.

With love,

Uthaithani

From My Higher Self, The Fox

I was off the grid for the better part of three days and it was both beautiful and challenging.  Somehow I expected the time in nature and away from the Internet to be more relaxing and “spiritual.”  It certainly had its moments, but also a fair amount of inner turmoil and frustrations manifested.

This troubled me, so I took some time to consult with my higher self.  My archetype seems to have taken the shape of a humanoid fox, a two-legged fox-man who is considerably shorter than me but far, far taller than a fox.  And he speaks English.

One of the things that came up was that I was bothered by others who were very closed-off in their energy, and making all kinds of dumb decisions, talking about how third-eye awakened and spiritual they are. 

So I sat with this.  My higher self pointed out this was pointing me to the places where I doubted myself, where I was telling myself my third eye isn’t open, where I am telling myself my spiritual and energetic progress is bullshit.  And it was really solid advice, changed everything. 

Every time I want to engage, that’s where my inner negative-talker is residing, the blocks waiting to be released.  This is where real progress can be made!

Similarly, today I kept noticing people being critical or Etienne, calling him a fraud.  What is that?  Well, it’s a reflection of my own doubt about my own path.  Of course.

My higher self said my most powerful projection object is my ex-wife.  Every fear of her is my own fear; every doubt and trigger is something in me holding me back.  A lot of the time she attacks me for things that don’t trigger me at all, because they’re off the mark.  But there’s still stuff there.  Avoiding it doesn’t make it go away.  Asking within is the only way.

So what are those things?  I have inner doubts about my ability as a father.  I feel rather impotent and angry about how things have gone with my older son and I’m afraid I’m a hopelessly inept person.  Deep down my fears about my job, about my exes, all boil down to this fear that, deep down, I’m incompetent, I’m no good, I’m not worthy.

That I’m a fool, that I’m stupid, that I’m just no good as a person.  And certainly there have been times the world has reflected this.  And there have been times, frankly, I’ve given out that loser energy and got what I deserved.

Sometimes it’s difficult to face these truths.  But collapsing into “I am a loser” or denying “no, no, I’m all over that, I’m good now” are both failures to confront.  There are core fears, core limiting beliefs.  Now I can face these. The real reason I fear conflict, attacks and rejection is because I’m afraid I’ll see that I am a hopeless loser and there’s nothing I can do about it.

Well, of course that’s bullshit. It may be work, but, yes, I can look at those things and make changes.  I don’t have to accept what I don’t like, but I have to accept reality is what it is.

Which changes everything about conflict and confrontation.  It doesn’t have to be triggering, it can be enlightening, an opportunity to find and heal those blocks and negative programming. 

The other thing that comes up is I feel like I don’t have the energy, that I’m lazy.  Hah!  I’m realizing this is just another illusion – the rest of the world isn’t working harder than me.  Maybe it’s something that seems like hard work – okay, give myself breaks, reward myself and pace myself. Not hard.  A lot of times it’s just about applying solutions instead of finding excuses.

So the time away was positive – very enlightening and worked through some thick barriers.  But not the restful walk in the park I thought it would be. 

But that’s the point.  The vibration of the crystals isn’t designed to zone me out, it’s there to raise me up to help me better resolve issues and serve my greater purpose.  That’s what it’s about – moving forward.  And I have a real path out of my worry now, which is through my problems, not distracting myself.  This is progress.

Crystals: Update and "Why Crystal Evolution?"

Four new crystals, just attuned by Etienne.  When bundled together the bag felt very warm against me.  Putting forth a LOT of energy.  Not sure the picture really does justice to the energy of these ones.

Upper left:  Astrophylite – Powerful wave of inner peace and calmness when I hold and attune to its frequency.

Upper right: Labradorite – Feels like I’m flying away from the earth, traveling through space and other dimensions with this one.  It’s for magic and protection, as well as third-eye opening.

Lower left:  Fluorite – peaceful, spiritual energy, a little airy but very nice.  Also a heart opening.

Lower right – Serpentinine – Surges of energy rising up through my body and crown into my higher chakras.  Used this with 37 Chakras Ascending meditation for alchemy – powerful Kundalini awakening energy.

Some people are justifiably skeptical of the crystal and energy magic, as I have been.  I had some powerful crystal meditation experiences with Rion Kati about a year and a half ago at his immersion, so I bought some and had some good experiences. 

It wasn’t until I decided to get some attuned by Etienne that I discovered these stones can do more than be a powerful grounding and meditative element, but a transformational experience unto themselves.  They’re magical and have transformed my experience over these past few weeks since I began this new phase.

And to the skeptics who say it’s not possible, look at the results.  Look at the massive transformation in my energy, my creative force, my coaching and insights.  Before this latest awakening, I was in a happy-content but stagnant state.  I broke through a lot of things.

To which skeptics will say “that’s just a placebo effect, you wanted the stones to do that.” Well, first, I’ve spent far, far more than the small amount I spent to get these attuned and REALLY WANTED those things to work, too.  And they didn’t work to this effect.

With other coaching modalities, it’s taken me a long time to raise my base state, to dissolve lower feelings.  And I never slept well.  Now my vibration is rising rapidly and things are changing rapidly – and I’m sleeping!  The insights and epiphanies come faster than I can write them down.

And it’s not just me, pretty much everyone whose had their gems attuned has seen similar quantum leaps.  (Of course, it helps to have the foundational work beforehand, so I’m ready for this.)

The only people who aren’t seeing the results seem to be the people who don’t want to see it, who seek to justify their inclination to disbelieve.  Fine, fine.  Everyone is where they are at, that’s cool.  I don’t really understand the need for certain people to go out of their way to attack people who are having success.  Is my success hurting these people?  Why all the effort to prove I and others shouldn’t be happy when we are?

I really don’t understand that mentality.  Maybe it’s always been there but I was in a negative place myself and didn’t see anything unusual about it at the time.  Now it seems really… bizarre.

Look, I don’t really care if you aren’t into crystals, or really don’t utilize energy.  There’s a lot I do that’s helped people which doesn’t have anything to do with energy work, very practical things.  But I’ve used all that stuff and I have to say, the energetic path – and integrating particularly these highly-attuned crystals – is the fast path. 

It’s about results – what’s getting the best results. 

Crystals offer a lot of benefits – they are very compatible with meditative-based transformation (which I’m about), great for visual-kinesthetic anchoring, great for altar space, not expensive (don’t have to be, anyhow), nice calming aesthetic.  If one is open to higher possibilities, there’s much, much more, but even at much lower levels they offer a lot of value. 

And what’s the harm?  You go down some other paths and you start getting into some very questionable ethical and moral ground.  Hang out in Tantra circles and you might find spirituality and sexual satisfaction – or you might go to prison for a long time.

Other more “traditional self-help” modalities don’t show a great success rate.  People who use Landmark or Tony Robbins often feel better in the moment, maybe feel like they’re making progress, but get nowhere.  Others take the same workshops and have great success, and the things I’m doing only enhance that success, it doesn’t have to be either-or. 

But again it comes down to results – what works.  For me, this works.  Very well.  I’ve done other things that have worked, too – such as coaching work with Destin Gerek.  This is compatible with his work, too. 

Basically, I enjoy it, it feels good, and it works.  So I run with it.