Showing posts with label lessons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label lessons. Show all posts

Friday, March 3, 2017

Holding Back Energy Vs. Clearing Out: Lessons from "Difficulties"


Still going inward, still slowing down.  Still learning so much from this.
Last month I had a number of experiences that seemed like “bad luck” or “challenges,” and it was only after that I realized what they were – a clearing out of bad energy.  In one case I had been holding onto physical and emotional trauma from a years ago that was trapped and festering in a tooth.  The root canal cleared it all out and then it’s gone.  I had negative energy that for some reason had settled into my car’s transmission, and after replacing it there was all kinds of opening.

A car?  But it drives completely differently now and the energy when I’m driving it is clean.
Even the spending of funds and paying off of some debt freed up energy, actually opening paths to receive more wealth in the future. 

I have a tendency to hold onto energy, which creates tightness in my energy system and body and also lends to fear-based patterns. Going inward is bringing awareness to them and they’re releasing. 
I’m beginning to see how that “holding” pattern has guided a lot of my thinking and behavior patterns.  And it’s drained energy that could be better used to actually create what I want, instead of holding on and fighting against things I don’t want.

I wouldn’t see this larger pattern if I hadn’t spent a considerable amount of time slowing down to pay attention.  This is a key piece, the thing that’s been holding me back, and once I see it it’s actually not that difficult to flip the switch.  All this time I’d been operating under the assumption this is just how it is, but it isn’t.  It’s a choice.
And when trying to do “big things” with energy, I’m realizing how important it is to align those patterns to create and move energy through, instead of holding back or seeking to preserve. Just noticing this I feel a huge sense of relief.  It makes perfect sense.

So I’m grateful for the “challenges” of the past month.  They’ve helped me to learn a much more valuable lesson.

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Lessons From A Period of Change

The past month has been a period of transition for me – it’s been very interesting.  Periods of being busy, tired, stressed, that “not getting what I want” anxiety, other worries.  And also a period of silence and meditation and introspection that I haven’t enjoyed in a long time. 
And as stressful as this time was – and it was stressful in a lot of ways – I have been committed to using this time to grow, to challenge my old patterns, to create a new way.
And it’s been enlightening.  I see a clear path out of my current debt situation.  I see a stronger and more disciplined meditation practice, as well as a conscious practice of reflection and challenging of my beliefs and habits that it already yielding big results. 
Things are changing, because they had to change.  I had to change inside, to create the space to go to the next level.  And some of that is stressful, and I’ve had to put that aside and commit to the change process.  I couldn’t continue to simply absorb the energetic awakenings while operating under the same personal and psychic system – I’d be fried.
So I’m welcoming this change and trying to find ways to get my sleep and exercise (this has been the hardest part).  And to take the time to address the issues as they come up, without taking any of this personally, as I had done in the past. 
I now have some time alone, and I’m realizing how poor my meditation practice has been.  It’s not easy to build up a meditation practice, but I’m doing it.  I’m realizing how much energy there is when my financial energy is freed up and I can pay down my debt – it’s a HUGE energetic improvement. 
But every movement in this direction is yielding big results.  This week it feels like the pressure is off and I can breathe again.  I meditate and fall asleep easily.  I find that center.
Meanwhile energies around are going crazy.  The veil of spiritual denial is being lifted, though it’s taking a lot longer and a lot more energy than expected.  There’s a whole lot of energetic change and also the same challenges in a lot of other people that I’m going through now. 
So what insights are coming up these last few weeks?  What are the lessons I can bring forward?
First, slow down.  Then slow down more.  And don’t expect this to be easy, it’s a process.
Second, the resistances, the anxieties, the things I hate – these are the places of growth.  All the triggers and negative feelings are the pathway for releasing the old paradigm and opening up space for what’s to come.
Third, everything has to change, and I am not naturally inclined to embrace change.  Even when change is necessary and unavoidable, it’s something my system resists strongly and I have to work through with that knowing in mind.
Fourth, before I can “do what I’m meant to do” I need to fully embrace the process of “not doing,” to fully cease all the many thoughts and actions that are out of alignment.  It is impossible to create right thought and action while holding onto wrong thoughts and actions – one must first open one’s hand and let go of the bad object in order to free that hand for something better. 
Fifth, the process of releasing and letting go is not relaxing and enjoyable – often there is psychic and spiritual stiffness from holding onto the thing that isn’t serving me.  This means releasing is going to be painful and difficult.
Sixth, fantasy, self-pity, anger, blame, fear, worry – these are all patterns of poverty and scarcity.  And I can directly communicate with and challenge these patterns and create significant change in a short amount of time.
Seventh, the more I slow down, the more I focus on releasing, the more I clear and un-stick my energy, the more the positive changes “just show up” without my having to do anything in particular.  So the process of change is mostly a process of getting rid of the junk.
Eighth, none of the outside stuff matters.  Any reaction to stuff outside is only an opportunity to go inside. Football games, politics, stuff on social media – none of it means squat, apart from what I choose to take from it.  So what am I choosing to take?

Monday, May 30, 2016

Revelations from My Connections With My Feminine Past Lives

I found yesterday’s ritual had a significant impact on me as well.  My clairvoyance expanded and my connection to stillness and source is deeper and cleaner.
And after a day of integrating the experience with my past life memories, going through my day yesterday and noticing experiences and changes I want to write down a few insights around the understandings I’ve gained, which apply to others as well.
Women and men, at a fundamental soul level, are not that much different.  The feminine and masculine expressions are naturally different, but there’s nothing especially unique about the soul energy of a woman compared to a man – as far as I can tell and the feedback I’ve received, they’re exactly the same.
Which means, there is no such thing as “divine feminine” and “divine masculine,” there is only divinity, a unified divinity.  The expression is distinct and worthy of understanding and respect, because it carries with it the history and uniqueness of masculine and feminine, but above the bodily chakras there is no difference. 
Instead of saying “divine feminine” and “divine masculine,” it would be better to say “the feminine/ masculine expression of the divine,” because that’s what we are in our human existence – an expression of the divine, one tiny facet of an infinite gem, yet each facet absolutely essential to the integrity and beauty of the whole.
We will reincarnate between masculine and feminine depending upon the wisdom our souls desire from such an experience.  Most souls have spent half their time as each. 
The concept of “privilege” is an odd egoic concept that is currently holding back spiritual growth in a big way our souls chose this living expression for a reason and gain value from all the experiences that come with it.  To say one is “privileged” is to deny the worth of every other soul and place the (almost always materialistic and superficial) experience ahead of every other.  This is a spiritually dangerous path that can allow the ego to interfere with spiritual development to the point of spiritual retardation.
“Privilege” fosters envy and creates the illusion of a caste system.  The universe seeks freedom and values love.  The enemies of spiritual growth are things that restrict freedom, oppress, diminish healthy self-worth, kill, cause suffering or deny spiritual truth.  From this perspective, “class warfare” and the entire Marxist-based grievance system is entirely anti-spiritual, as it deliberately seeks to repress, kill and deny truth while embracing materialism, envy and hatred.
Basically, the entire Western political system, and most of the religious systems, are anti-spiritual, both on the left and the right.  And the philosophies supporting these systems are full of deceptions and spiritual lies.  Unfortunately most of the spiritual movement has been ensnared by the political system which has corrupted the spiritual teachings.  Some very obvious examples are people like Deepak Chopra and Moses Ma, but there are many, many others.  My Facebook feed is full of well-intentioned, spiritually-minded people who are badly ensnared in the Western political illusion.
On the “right,” spiritual people have also been ensnared (though more “politically correct” to attack than the “spiritual left,” though there is no difference as far as the levels of deception and spiritual entanglement).  Here we have many people who are good and spiritual in their personal lives but have given over their personal freedom to forces of oppression and deception. 
In some respects the “Evangelical Christians” are more spiritually aligned with truth than the supposedly “free” “Spiritual Movement” people.  One of the key tenants of Evangelical Christianity is “don’t follow leaders, follow Christ,” which is very close to the spiritual foundation of freedom.  Meanwhile, the “anti-Christian Spiritualists” are running around looking for gurus – whether it’s the Dali Lama, Deepak Chopra, some shaman, coach, yogi, or whatever flavor of the week (this week Pope Francis is popular with spiritual sheeple, but he’s as misaligned as the others and full of ego and deception).
I’ve often found it’s easy to identify the spiritual oppressors – they’re the ones pointing fingers at everyone else.  (I say this with full self-awareness that I’m doing the same to some extent right now – I have a long ways to go myself on this journey, and I place a high personal value on irony.)   
The victimist spiritual model that embraces the “privilege” talk (currently voiced by people like Pope Francis and most of “white people Buddhism”) is nothing more than Marxist political ideology dressed up as spirituality.  It’s a form of Satanism practiced by about half of the Cabal intentionally designed to deceive people into giving away their freedom and embracing oppression and death.  It embraces envy, disconnectedness, anger, fear and outward-looking.
The truth is our souls chose our current forms for a reason.  To say one person is “privileged” over another is to deny the inherent wisdom of the soul.  It’s certainly the case that some souls are more evolved than others and as such will attract more power in its various forms (though sometimes difficult to see).  But evolved souls always seek to use their gifts to leverage that power for maximum good for others.  Look at evolved souls like Albert Einstein and Henry Ford.  Buddha was born extremely wealthy and high-status; obviously his soul needed that “privilege” in order to carry out a purpose that has transformed the lives of millions.
That’s not to say oppressive forces and structures are okay, they’re not.  Oppression, hatred, fear, disconnectedness – these are the enemies of true spiritual evolution.  These enemies take the form of “political correctness,” statism, racism, sexism, bigotry, war, pollution, many forms.   Buying into the mindset that you are privileged, or oppressed, is taking you away from spiritual connection.  When one finds oneself looking outward and comparing oneself to others, this is the time to stop and look inward.  Ask “what is it in me that is out of alignment with love and freedom?”  The solution to problems outside oneself are found within as we are all interconnected.
This is a long detour from where I was going, but a valuable stream-of-consciousness and I hope you’re staying with me.
Men want to understand women.  There is a lot to be gained through better connection with women (friends and lovers), and also through accessing your higher self and past lives. 
I’ve learned that women are incredibly sexual and sensual and designed to absorb a great deal of energy, both good and bad.  Pretty much every woman is carrying around a lot of pain and sadness, and the healthy women have learned to utilize this as grounding energy (while in unhealthy women it shows up as stress, tension and acting out behavior).  Women carry a lot of emotional energy which serves them well and are extremely intuitive, which often puts women’s energy at odds with men who are more attached to their rational.
Interestingly, men have a naturally lower capacity for handling energy, emotions, pain and sexual excitement than women.  This shows up in paradoxical dynamics – men often seem “out of control” sexually, precisely because men have a low capacity for carrying energy (need to “release”).  By connecting with memories of my past lives, I’ve learned how to expand that container more (even though I’d been practicing I was still comparatively undeveloped). 
Unfortunately in the West, women have shut down huge parts of their energetic and emotional systems to be more like men.  There are a lot of theories as to why this is, but the correlation between spiritual oppression and female energetic and emotional disengagement cannot be ignored.  I’ve noticed in other countries where spirituality is much more clean the energy is flowing freely and very powerful.  Then here in the West, everyone’s turned into energetically dysfunctional men.  Then we spend thousands of hours and dollars trying to “find spirituality” when it was our birthright from the beginning.
This disconnect is something my past lives cannot help me with.  My female past lives were all open in their energy, even if their sex lives were not entirely fulfilling for other reasons.  They have no ability to comprehend the energetic self-castration that has gone on in Western women, and thus offer little help for how to help women out of this phase.  About the only advice all my past selves offer in this regard is “keep evolving and shine your light more and more.”  Certainly this will inspire higher vibrations which will dissolve the lower issues.
Some big personal lessons that apply to everyone:
You are far, far, FAR sexier, attractive and inspiring than you think you are.   In a way this is obvious.  The ego is not capable of seeing our true potential because our egos are small and very limited.  The collective ego is even worse, because it contains deliberately oppressive structures.  The invitation here (joyfully accepted) is to deeply explore, activate and shine that higher self.
Women are INCREDIBLY sexual and energetic. 
Assume every negative thought about women is a personal projection that can be easily fixed through inward-looking and you’ll be on your way to amazing success. Women are great mirrors and projection screens.  Instead of reacting to the projections, or beating yourself up, use this gift as an opportunity and transform.
Everyone has their journey for a reason – release judgements, prejudice and pride and connect to your own journey.