Thoughts on the Afterlife

Came across an article about a woman who has "died" three times and experienced the afterlife.  What was interesting is that her interpretation of that post-death experience matches very closely with my own personal revelations, both experientially and in coming into contact with others who have passed.

Fear of death - the fear of the destruction of our consciousness and ego - is normal and natural.  It is also false and unnecessary.  (Unless you are someone who has good reason to believe your punishment in the afterlife will be severe, in which case that fear should be your signal to change your ways.)  It is both a lie created by the ego to control our spirit and a lie perpetuated by society to collectively placate our individually oppressive ego patterns.

Those of us who have seen the truth about death know it is beautiful, sacred, peaceful and a natural part of life.  There is no end, only transitions and death is a transition into something transcendent.  And that "something transcendent" is already available to us in the living world.  The ego does not want us to know this, because that would render the ego useless, it would lay bare the truth, that the ego is weak, knows very little and is governed by base emotions like fear and anger.

As a society, we have collectively created a structure to defend our fragile egos in the face of infinite connection.  Our egos need us to believe their death will be the end of everything, not a step into pure freedom and true life experience. So our egos connect with other egos to create a self-sustaining architecture, all for the purpose of sustaining their illusion of control.

The Teal Flame does not recognize the egoic falsehoods, at the individual or social level.  It's all bullshit.  And just because a lot of people buy into that BS, doesn't make it any less false.  When the stories and fears are placed into the flame, they burn away to nothing, but the true person remains.

Your fear of death is an ego shadow.  Embracing the impermanence is a recognition of the essence of life, which has no beginning or end.  Life is not some chemical reaction or some spontaneous event, it is a universal experience that exists beyond space and time and can manifest in the physical world, but is not limited to that manifestation.  

We are an expression of this universal force, this experience.  Call it God or Source, it doesn't matter because it doesn't have a name.  We are here on Earth as a temporal expression of the divine, and we will continue as such after our death.  And it is this temporal, cyclical energetic experience that makes life on Earth so beautiful.  It is fragile, it is only here for a short time before returning to the infinite.  And it will return and bring forth new life.  

Fearing death is fearing the essence of the divine experience.  Seeking to forestall death through weird artificial means is ungodly.  It misses the point of life entirely.  Our bodies are finite, our lives are not.  In the finite there is beauty.  The mystery of what is beyond is not a mystery - when we can feel past our physical experience and feel into what is beyond our physical bodies, emotions and thoughts, that is the infinite that resides inside us and what we will experience when our physical bodies pass away.

Encountering Resistance

 

I've been undergoing some pretty cool lifestyle changes, and I knew going in it was going to be difficult to maintain the energy for three weeks - which is how long it takes to create a new habit.  Some aspects - the Kundalini guided meditation, the orgasmic meditation, some of the changes in listening tracks - have been smooth.

Others - the changes in physical exercise, even the beat music - I'm encountering some strong resistance now.  I dumped the Kundalini app, which felt like far too much work and not aligned with where I'm at right now.

I'm also experiencing far too much "money bleed," which is one of the aspects of resistance, it often shows up not just as physical and emotional issues but financial as well.  

Resistance is to be expected.  There's nothing shameful about encountering resistance.  There's nothing wrong with acknowledging it and appreciating it for what it is.  This is a key aspect to truly working through the resistance.

When my body says it is fatigued, I have to listen.  I can't just plow through stubbornly, that's how injuries and illness happen.  It doesn't mean I need to give it, but I need to honor the warning signs and separate the resistance showing up as fatigue from my body's genuine need for rest. One must be worked through, the other honored fully.

That doesn't mean I stopped doing pushups.  I adjusted to account for gym days while keeping on track.  

The resistance to the beat tracks is interesting. I enjoy listening to them, but I find myself switching out to other things like meditation tracks - which is fine, still taking a break from the unconscious "familiar" music.  I also notice I miss the old "liked" playlist. Which is totally understandable - they're liked for a reason.  So this is more about gently redirecting back to my goals while honoring my preferences, and avoiding too much of one thing. (And avoiding other things, like TV and social media.)

The spending patterns and "bad financial luck" is an interesting one.  My unconscious patterns show up in my spending and consumption habits.  And here a much more conscious approach is called for.  Mindless austerity is as bad as mindless spending, because it still avoids the conscious awareness aspect.  What am I buying?  Is is something I need or serves my purpose, or is it a "shiny object" or a thoughtless purchase that's likely to feel like a ripoff down the road?  

My relationship with money and spending is a manifestation of some of the unhelpful patterns that show up in my communication, following through on tasks and other issues that I resist confronting head-on.  I avoid the conscious examination process and fall into unhelpful emotional habits.  For example, I wanted to kick the Bob I have in the back porch.  I couldn't find the sparring socks, so I ordered another pair.  Not a huge purchase, but unnecessary.  A more thorough search revealed the missing socks.  

Supplements is another area I waste on.  I focus on what they're supposed to do, not how they're actually benefitting me - or not.  Do I need this?  Is it serving me or am I just wasting money on crap because I want it to work?  I can think of a few things that really aren't serving me and need to wean myself off of unconscious consumption "for my well-being."  It's wish-casting, which is a common unconscious pattern of mine - I don't want to fully examine the issue so I imagine this pill, or this app, or this trick, will take care of the problem.  

Then there are subscriptions, "surprise fines," investment losses and associated "junk" that adds up and is a drain not only on my finances but on my overall energy and mood.  And I don't believe they're "accidental" or just "things that happen in life."  They're unconscious patterns manifesting over and over.  

And I'd say of all the resistance and leakages I currently experience, the financial resistance and leakages are currently the most pronounced and most oppressive.  There's also the most room for conscious examination and improvement.  

I've got two weeks (a little less) left of this phase of transformation.  And I don't have to be perfect at sustaining everything, overall I'm doing well.  But I really intend to use these next two weeks to better examine the aspects that have me "falling off the wagon."  Stress with work and home, anxiety about changes I want in my life, physical fatigue, mental fatigue, "boredom," unconscious patterns that could be a form of hypnosis I just need to break.  

And also, what patterns are changing?  Clearly, the fact I'm speaking to the resistance and examining it consciously instead of taking it personally or just writing it off as magical "backsliding" is something new and positive.  So is the overall energy, not to mention I look and feel better physically.  

Taking concrete action instead of wishful or magical thinking, that's a big distinction.  

Update: More Crystals, and Caution

I’m very excited. Yesterday I received a huge batch of crystals, as well as bottles of tiny crystals that will be perfect for crystal potion sprays.  I was like a little kid admiring my crystals – far, far too many to attune all of them, I took one of each of the main ones and attuned them last night, along with the bottles. 

Yes, these are for energy work.  And… they’re just cool to look at and enjoy.  It’s a fun hobby on top of being an important calling.  So I’m very excited, looking forward to having time to enjoy my new toys.

I also took my other personal crystals – and the singing bowl – up another level in attunement, thanks to my new personal symbol that’s been opened up to me.  This is a level I won’t be sharing to the masses (maybe to select students), because some things are coming up for people that have reminded me to be careful.

One person in particular took in too much consciousness at once when he wasn’t ready and snapped, went crazy.  People think “oh, this stuff doesn’t do anything, it’s just placebo, yadda yadda,” but the stuff works, it’s powerful, and too much at once when someone isn’t ready can be bad.

So I’ll be offering the highly-attuned crystals for sale (or as part of my coaching for those who want to go more in-depth with one-on-one alchemy and personal evolution work), as well as the potions I talked about before.  But the “next level” is not something I’m selling – that’s for my personal collection (and it’s a lot of energy, I’m actually thrown off somewhat today from the new level of energy that’s been awakened) and for clients who have done a lot of work and are ready.

And I’m realizing I need to change my free offerings.  A lot of my offering has been from a place of “here – see how this works?  It’s real, now you’ll believe me and listen to me.”  First of all, that’s a scarcity mindset and not giving my readers any credit for seeing value.  And second, it’s potentially counterproductive. Some of my offerings, like the singing bowl, open up massive consciousness (it’s VERY high frequency energy). For those who are ready, these are amazing resources, and there’s much more.  For those not ready, it can be overwhelming.  It’s all about calibrating, so people aren’t being turned off before they begin.

At any rate, I’m having fun with my new crystals – and soon many others will be able to enjoy them, too.  And I’m having MASSIVE positive effects from this work – whole new levels of consciousness that are impacting everything for the better.  Also having fun with the new potion - tried it out today in a VERY bad-energy place, cleaned it right up - this is great!

I’ll have pictures soon.  I still owe you a crystal ball, right? 

MAJOR Consiousness Shift!

MAJOR upleveling of consciousness last weekend!  I wrote a little about it over the weekend, so here are the latest updates (things are happening so quickly it’s difficult to record everything, I’m forgetting a lot of good stuff before I can share – downside of being in presence). 

I attuned one silver ring Friday night.  I put it on Saturday morning and immediately got an offer to collaborate on my coaching work.  Kept finding bargains all day, including the major bargain, that huge obsidian crystal ball for five bucks!  An online purchase billing dispute was resolved (despite the merchant stubbornly claiming he did nothing wrong).  And I received an unexpected check in the mail. 

Saturday I attuned another silver ring with an onyx stone (no pic). I wore it when I went out for just a short time and bought over $100 worth of stuff for $14 – apparently silver is good for manifesting bargains. Today I wore the first silver ring and resolved a long-standing stalemate around getting some medical bills reimbursed.  And my paycheck hit my bank account early, so I could pay down my debt and order the stand for the crystal ball. 

Over the weekend I attuned my beaded bracelets.  I put them on today with the intention of healing my wrist, which had been hurting for over a week for no apparent reason.  This afternoon I felt a “pop,” and my wrist doesn’t hurt anymore.  My shoulder on my right side feels much better, too.  Wow!

Meanwhile, my blog received all kinds of traffic over the weekend, even though I was doing very little work on it, simply put out the intention and asked the archetypes to expand my message.

Last night Etienne finished attuning the giant obsidian crystal ball.  At the same time, I woke up – my wife was praying – I see a calm white light over my altar and a pale blue light over my crystal ball.  I closed my eyes and was taken to a shiny black palace where I was given a shiny white urn – with spiral legs and a spiral design on the front.  Around it were seven stars. 

I was told to integrate this into my body – which I did.  I was told this was my personal symbol and was given to me because my consciousness had reached a level where I was ready to receive.  My crude artistic representation of the urn, placed in the middle of a crystal power grid, is the picture above.  I pendulum tested and determined the picture, while lacking for aesthetics, contains the energy of my personal symbol. And in looking at the grid, and the picture I took, it is powerful.

 

I researched this and came across the Buddhist Treasure Vase (pictured above), which is one of the Eight Auspicious Symbols.  So it appears I have received a very powerful symbol indeed! 

During this time today as I was preparing this grid, my ex changed her plans, so not only do I not have to get up early tomorrow, I actually get to sleep in on Wednesday – and a whole week to sleep in next week!

And the article on happiness came into my consciousness.

Oh and the incredible distant attuning session (which you can still utilize by stating your intention to receive the attunement from the past ritual - sort of a spiritual download).

Still a lot of that spinning feeling, which means more big stuff is coming.  I re-listened to my coaching session with Etienne, received it at a whole new level.  Hold on, it's about to get crazy!

The "Spinning Feeling" of New Consciousness

"Do you know what is that spinning feeling in your head? It is the emergence of a new consciousness that is starting to pierce through your ego shells. This is just the beginning and it will gradually amplify over the next 4 months." –Metatron (channeled through Etienne)

I’ve been feeling the spinning feeling for a couple weeks, but this week it’s become much stronger.  Today is at its peak, though the strong wave started the night before last when the last two crystals attuned and I got a “Wave” of consciousness all at once that knocked me off-balance.

Last night I invited more of this wave by casting a spell to get rid of all internal blocks and resistance, particularly in my solar plexus chakra, and create massive manifestation, wealth and personal power.  I used the newly-activated citrine crystal and selenite wand, along with other activated crystals and the singing bowl.  I then supercharged the spell with high sexual energy and a good night’s sleep. 

The spell is activated and creating massive changes, and allowing more consciousness to come through at intense levels.  So my spinning has gone from mild to being on a ship in a storm.  It’s intense, lots of energy flying around.

About a week ago I decided I had to change how I remember things.  My old way, which was egoic, involved mostly holding the to-do list in memory and remembering things through anxiety.  That’s not going to work, that mechanism has been shattered, completely disintegrated.  So now I’m consciously creating to-do lists and reminder notices because I just can’t rely on my memory anymore for things like this.

It makes it difficult to write and blog as well – I’m really going to have to integrate a reliable system and use it like a ritual.  If an idea isn’t directly in my present consciousness, it’s likely going to be lost.  This is a new way of being and the old system that wasn’t really serving me, but I’d grown accustomed to using, is gone. 

Things move very quickly in this reality, which is both exciting and challenging.  New realities come up and even the memories of old long-held realities just disappear.  So there really is no turning back at this point. 

I feel very alive and clear in my energy, but also dizzy and shaken up.  Apparently this phase will go on another four months – no wait, it’s going to APLIFY.  Good grief!  Well, good a time as any to integrate a new spell that will open up the channels to receiving more of this consciousness.  It’s intense, but I can handle it.  And there’s no point in going small and measured from now on.

Following the Feeling Process for Transforming Negative Emotions (And a Valuable Energetic Micro-Lesson)

I present this here because the message is accurate and this practice is immensely valuable for moving past emotional-based behavior into a more conscious way of being.  I highly recommend integrating a process like this into a daily meditation and reflection practice. 

I sense some strong unhealthy energy in this individual.  She is carrying a tremendous amount of personal and cosmic power, but is acting out on festering wounds that she has chosen to identify with instead of heal.  As such her energy comes out as unclean.  Ignore her attempts to position herself as a guru and other subtle oppressive energetic operations, this is her attempts to manipulate the world to avoid healing - also avoid the possible tendency to react negatively (resonance with the energetic toxin).  Instead, focus entirely on the truth of the practice. 

This is good practice for learning to develop resources.  You're going to find truth from many sources, most of whom are flawed, some deeply so.  The key aspect of conscious living is being able to harvest the grain and throw away the chaff.  One cannot wall off from negative energy while being a force in the universe.  This is a good a place as any to begin and/or deepen that practice.