My Emotional Healing Meditation - Healing My Past

I went deep into healing meditation last night.  I have been holding onto lots of anger and took the time to face it and take responsibility.

I took a powerful step toward really healing my past, instead of operating unconsciously in the same self-sabotage pattern.

Using powerful crystal attunement and Hoʻoponopono, I faced the sources of my anger and accepted responsibility.  The truth is, I never really healed my first marriage.  I ran from it. I felt terribly guilty and judged myself a bad person, so I ran.

The truth is, I feel bad about what happened and what I did.  I hurt her – I gave her joy and took it away.  I may not feel that my current situation is fair, given what I did, but I have to take full responsibility.

Moreover, take responsibility for everything before that led to this. 

It felt good.  At one point I was back on the blacktop at my high school – probably in the 8^th grade (it went 7-12 grades when I was there).  I felt all the things I felt then, and then I brought my awareness to now and broke free. 

I pulled out two large entities – I killed one that said it hated me and wanted me dead because I was good.  The other was huge – much bigger than me – and I transmuted it into love and watched it burst into a giant pink prana cloud. 

My social habits no longer serve me.  I was wrong about everything and everyone.

My mind was full of prophecy dreams (which I can’t remember) and powerful energies that made for a kind of restless sleep.  The agitation is settling down a bit now.

I can finally accept responsibility for the ways I hurt people – especially women – and how that’s all been a reflection of the self-hatred in me, of my low self-worth.  I can apologize and forgive myself.  Layers of trapped guilt, shame and suffering melted away.

And I can accept my current situation without anger or hurt feelings.  And I can allow my own suffering to come forth and heal.  Now I feel free – sleepy, but free.  As I continue to elevate my energy, there’s going to be more need for these healings and I need to make this a regular part of my meditation practice.

A Penny for Your Emotions

Can a simple object like a penny help you access and resolve unclean emotional patterns?

Short answer, yes.

I was at the car wash today and saw this penny sitting around.  I connected with the penny and did a small ritual to release its connection to the cabal and return to the earth.  After that I charged it with loving energy and then put it away, not thinking much of it.

While sitting in the car wash, I was experiencing some negative emotional patterns.  I came back to the office and reconnected with the penny, which had absorbed those emotions perfectly.  I accessed the patterns through connection with the penny, engaged in a thorough energetic cleaning and healing process (tested with the pendulum until complete), and then let the penny go.

For those who are skeptical of energetic access through objects, consider this another NLP exercise with the penny being the reference point to the emotions, the anchor.  Fire off the anchor, then work reprogramming. 

The effect is the same, you can access an unhelpful emotional pattern at a time and place when you’re prepared to release and heal.

Following the Feeling Process for Transforming Negative Emotions (And a Valuable Energetic Micro-Lesson)

I present this here because the message is accurate and this practice is immensely valuable for moving past emotional-based behavior into a more conscious way of being.  I highly recommend integrating a process like this into a daily meditation and reflection practice. 

I sense some strong unhealthy energy in this individual.  She is carrying a tremendous amount of personal and cosmic power, but is acting out on festering wounds that she has chosen to identify with instead of heal.  As such her energy comes out as unclean.  Ignore her attempts to position herself as a guru and other subtle oppressive energetic operations, this is her attempts to manipulate the world to avoid healing - also avoid the possible tendency to react negatively (resonance with the energetic toxin).  Instead, focus entirely on the truth of the practice. 

This is good practice for learning to develop resources.  You're going to find truth from many sources, most of whom are flawed, some deeply so.  The key aspect of conscious living is being able to harvest the grain and throw away the chaff.  One cannot wall off from negative energy while being a force in the universe.  This is a good a place as any to begin and/or deepen that practice.