Thoughts on the Afterlife

Came across an article about a woman who has "died" three times and experienced the afterlife.  What was interesting is that her interpretation of that post-death experience matches very closely with my own personal revelations, both experientially and in coming into contact with others who have passed.

Fear of death - the fear of the destruction of our consciousness and ego - is normal and natural.  It is also false and unnecessary.  (Unless you are someone who has good reason to believe your punishment in the afterlife will be severe, in which case that fear should be your signal to change your ways.)  It is both a lie created by the ego to control our spirit and a lie perpetuated by society to collectively placate our individually oppressive ego patterns.

Those of us who have seen the truth about death know it is beautiful, sacred, peaceful and a natural part of life.  There is no end, only transitions and death is a transition into something transcendent.  And that "something transcendent" is already available to us in the living world.  The ego does not want us to know this, because that would render the ego useless, it would lay bare the truth, that the ego is weak, knows very little and is governed by base emotions like fear and anger.

As a society, we have collectively created a structure to defend our fragile egos in the face of infinite connection.  Our egos need us to believe their death will be the end of everything, not a step into pure freedom and true life experience. So our egos connect with other egos to create a self-sustaining architecture, all for the purpose of sustaining their illusion of control.

The Teal Flame does not recognize the egoic falsehoods, at the individual or social level.  It's all bullshit.  And just because a lot of people buy into that BS, doesn't make it any less false.  When the stories and fears are placed into the flame, they burn away to nothing, but the true person remains.

Your fear of death is an ego shadow.  Embracing the impermanence is a recognition of the essence of life, which has no beginning or end.  Life is not some chemical reaction or some spontaneous event, it is a universal experience that exists beyond space and time and can manifest in the physical world, but is not limited to that manifestation.  

We are an expression of this universal force, this experience.  Call it God or Source, it doesn't matter because it doesn't have a name.  We are here on Earth as a temporal expression of the divine, and we will continue as such after our death.  And it is this temporal, cyclical energetic experience that makes life on Earth so beautiful.  It is fragile, it is only here for a short time before returning to the infinite.  And it will return and bring forth new life.  

Fearing death is fearing the essence of the divine experience.  Seeking to forestall death through weird artificial means is ungodly.  It misses the point of life entirely.  Our bodies are finite, our lives are not.  In the finite there is beauty.  The mystery of what is beyond is not a mystery - when we can feel past our physical experience and feel into what is beyond our physical bodies, emotions and thoughts, that is the infinite that resides inside us and what we will experience when our physical bodies pass away.

Religion As a Mirror: Are People Inherently Good?

 

Why are atheists passionate about their non-religion?  I mean, if you truly believe in nothing, wouldn’t the appropriate action and emotion be, well, nothing? Why would you bring energy into nothingness?  That makes no sense.  True atheism would be spiritual disinterest with no energy expended whatsoever.

So what causes people to be passionate about nothingness? (And I’m not talking about the Buddhist nothingness, that’s different and does have a religious context.)

I have a working theory, which is that these atheists actually do believe in God, but are so terrified at the thought of their own unworthiness that they violently reject God to protect themselves from the pain of their on spiritual unworthiness.

“If I don’t believe in Hell, then I can’t be sent there.”  But if you don’t believe in hell, then that entire sentence makes no sense. 

Religion, when applied faithfully, serves as a mirror – you see yourself and all your good and bad aspects.  People who reject religion aren’t rejecting the mirror, they’re rejecting the reflection because they can’t deal with the reality of their own imperfections.

This brings me to a fundamental philosophical question:  Are people basically good?

A lot of people, especially people in various forms of “love and light” spiritual bypass will say, yes, people are basically good and “turn evil” through corruption, etc.

But if one removes this distortion and answers the question honestly, the answer is much more troubling.  Throughout human history, people have not been basically good.  In fact, most people are pretty fucked up.  That’s not to say they’re “bad,” but they’re not inclined to goodness.

Thus the mirror test.  Some people look at the mirror with rose-colored glasses and say “I’m all good, even the bad parts are good, isn’t this wonderful?”  Well, no, it isn’t.  Humans are selfish.  They kill.  They fight.  They hurt each other.  They’re lazy.  They’re corrupt.  Outside forces didn’t corrupt people, people themselves did that.

It’s hard-wired into our brains to kill, to steal, to rape, to lie, to hurt.  Our primitive brains tell us we need to do these things to survive and pass on our genes.  The fantasy that people long ago were good people is 100% false.  People long ago were literal savages and did horrible things to others without any second thought.  They had no mirror.  They had no angel on their shoulder.  They were fucked up people doing fucked up things.

And the worst part? Every one of us walking the earth is a genetic byproduct of those fucked-up people.  Nobody on earth comes from a pure, good lineage. We all come from savages.

And when you take off the glasses and realize you’re as fucked up as “those other” bad people, or at least on the same spectrum, and that is in fact the human lineage, it can be jarring.

No, we are not all divine light.  We’re mostly fucked up people from fucked up lineages.  And that fucked-up-ness is literally the reason we are here.

Some people look at that and see hopelessness.  We’re all doomed.  Therefore there cannot possibly be a god, because that would mean God would condemn his entire creation and what would be the point of that?   If we’re products of the universe then the universe must also be fucked up and it’s all for nothing.

Some look at this reality and deny it.  No, no.  Everyone is good, we just need to “integrate our shadow” and recognize the divine light in every other person.  All is one. 

Different justification, same result:  nothing changes.

Religion, when applied properly, holds up the mirror, shows us the evil inside, allows us to identify it as evil and reject it, and serves a path toward eradicating that evil and building a good life.

Now, here some would say, well, we’ll never get this.  Only a small fraction of people on Earth are even mostly good.  Another small fraction are mostly evil.  And the huge majority are in this broad spectrum of “fucked-up-ness” and every time we make an effort to get better, we just fall right off or find some other avenue to vent our evil.

The promise of religion isn’t that you’ll achieve perfection on your own, but that you learn to identify good and evil and set your thoughts and actions more and more toward good.  You’re not perfect, but you seek betterment, not to gain something but to actually become a good person.

That in itself is an act of goodness.

God does not promise us perfection in this lifetime.  God does not promise us that if we go to church or follow his rules that everything will work out just fine.  In fact, all religions “promise” that the world around us is fucked up and there’s no getting around that because it’s literally in our DNA.  What God does promise is we don’t have to resign ourselves to this fate.  We can turn our gaze toward good and move – however imperfectly – toward the good.

Trying to bridge the gap through the “most people are good” delusion ignores the truth and denies the work.  Collapsing into denial is also a lie – it’s saying your DNA is more powerful than God. Which is nonsense.  It’s not easy.  It may feel hopeless at times.  You will fail far more often than you succeed.  But none of that overcomes the truth that goodness does exist and is available to us, no matter how fucked up our reflection in the mirror is.

At this point people will argue that this is exactly the language bad people use to control others.  And that’s true, it is.  Bad people are drawn to power, and especially religious power, because this is the ultimate means of control.  So yes, a lot of organized religion is corrupted and run by bad people.  Not most, certainly not all, but “the devil quotes scripture” in all its forms.

So critics point to bad people who misuse religion to get people to do very bad things.  Yes, this happens.  People also do very bad things for no reason at all.  The commonality isn’t religion, it’s people.  People do very bad things.

Religion can certainly be misused as a trap, but that doesn’t make religion itself bad.  God is still there, even if his word is being misused.  And rejecting God doesn’t make the bad stop happening, it’s throwing away every tool you have to become better than your DNA. 

Rejecting God actually makes it easier for bad people to manipulate and control you.  Notice how communist dictatorships all seek to stamp out all religion and impose atheism.  In order to give the evil complete control they need to stamp out any hope for goodness. Then they can control the language to make evil sound good with words like “equality.”  (“Equality” is one of those “nice-sounding” evil words that literally replaces a good concept (fairness) with a cruel and amoral measurement system.)

Those who seek power – and evil people are profoundly drawn to power – tend to be those most passionate about getting people to turn away from the mirror.  Don’t look at yourself and try to get better, look over here, this is your problem, and I can fix it and then you’ll feel good without having to try to be good.  This is a fundamental aspect of communism, but also every other oppressive, evil structure that has come about through human history.  Evil Roman emperors engaged in this deception.

There are modern “spiritual leaders” who also seek to bypass the mirror, or sell the idea there’s some magic fix where you wave a wand and the “evil structure” vanishes leaving our goodness in its place. And notice how they also seek to appoint themselves as the source of truth and the final arbiter or goodness, often under the false pretense of “freedom.”

The reflection in the mirror sucks.  It’s supposed to suck. That means you can see good and evil and that you don’t like the evil you see.  This is actually good!  It doesn’t mean you should collapse into shame, that’s another bypass.  You see the evil, you reject the evil and you change thoughts and behaviors.  And for this to happen, you need a clean, good, strong, accurate mirror.

And yes, breaking that mirror is very bad luck. 

Viewing the Machine that Controls Us

 

This morning I had conscious awareness of the various chemical and genetic programming going on that were driving my system and behavior and before written off as “magic.”  It’s not magic.  It’s a very precise and manipulative science.  Everything – the visual stimulation, the way my genetics would interact with my stories, my imagination, the chemicals and my body’s reaction – it’s all a very carefully-aligned programming.  And in those moments I had awareness of all of it, and just *that much* distance from them that I could see the control board and begin to consciously operate some of the switches.

This is my “red pill” moment.  I can now actually see how this programming has been running everything in my life to some extent.  The false scarcity mentality is a genetic bypass to compel me to reproduce and to bring forth a legacy.  The false survival instinct programming is designed to avoid risk and stick to the known programming.  Even the artificial self-image concepts were all to force certain behaviors, even if they weren’t consciously serving me or making me happy.  This programming doesn’t give a shit about my happiness or best interest, it serves something else entirely.

And once I saw it, once I saw that I can have even the slightest actual control over that programming, that changes everything. 

I feel nothing but empathy for my prior selves.  They acted as they were compelled to act.  I was programmed to believe in magic.  Now I know the truth, I don’t hate my old self, I feel so much more love and understanding for that old, badly manipulated self.

I don’t even hate the machine.  It was just doing its job, automatically.  Now I’m being given choice.

All the fears and worries about my job, finances, and all this other petty stuff feels so silly now, but only because I now have the key.  They can’t touch me now.  I have choice, even over my fears.  Which is good, because some fear is good and important, and that can get overwritten too, which can be deadly.  But most fear is just manipulative BS.

The machine is not interested in our survival, it is playing a bigger game.  We are each expendable.

Even my spiritual practice changes.  A lot was really chemical reactions. Not bad, some actually healthy.  But now conscious.  That accidental (was it accidental?) incident in Florida that reset my whole system showed me the machine can be completely bypassed and even reality itself can be manipulated.

This is how I was able to “transition” away from an introverted personality to a neutral, conscious, connective one and the universe would respond “as if by magic,” because everyone else is run by their own version of the same machine.

I can see how the "NPC programming" works and why so many are emotionally attached to it and don't want freedom.  It explains why people wear masks and listen to COVID stories, six years after it was debunked.  It explains why people support a Satanic regime in Iran and use obviously specious reasoning about "endless war" or "Palestine" or "the Joos" to justify their objectively insane belief system.  (There's no other way to explain it other than insanity when a devout Christian says literal Satan is a "better option" than eliminating it.  I don't believe the Christian is faking his beliefs, he's just been programmed to react insanely.)

It helps me see how other good people are being badly manipulated.  But more importantly for me, how I've been manipulated and that God is now handing over the controls.

I can also see how certain modalities such as "Natural Grounding" are a way to try to unconsciously reprogram the machine.  They can work - sort of - but it takes a long time and dedicated practice.  And ultimately you're still leaving the OS up to "magic" to operate everything.  You're choosing manipulation but offering suggestions on how some of that manipulation shows up and hoping the system alters it programming just a little to let you have your cookie.  Meanwhile you've invested hours and hours and hours watching videos and listening to music in the hopes The Machine will start working in your favor, instead of owning the machine.

And that person was me.  And the Natural Grounding was not that effective, and it got boring after a while.  Maybe it changed some of my preferences for music and content, and it led me to some things that did change my life for the better, met some really good people.  I look back on that version of myself with empathy. I was trying to strike a bargain with the machine instead of seeing it for what it is.  

There is a downside to this.  Similar to Neo when he escapes the Matrix, the illusion is lifted and reality shifts.  A lot of the "feel-good" patterns go away for good.  But you also realize how fake it all was.  It was brain chemistry and genetic patterns handed down by generation.  It worked, but it was always limited.  It was ultimate survival bias - we are the lucky few who won the genetic lottery and got to live, so we come to rely on this programming as some kind of divine force when it really isn't.  

We are who we are because are ancestors were who they were.  All the way through the existence of life up to us.  But adaptation is not wisdom.  Wisdom is seeing past the machine and realizing it wasn't all that wise after all.  In fact, in a lot of ways, it's a mess and needs major improvement.  

We can do better.  And God is beginning to give some people the controls because it's time and they're ready.  That is the evolution.

Charlie Kirk and the Status of the Spiritual Warfare

 I imagine some readers have wondered where I went and why I’ve been so silent in the wake of the rash of high-profile violence, particularly the assassination of Charile Kirk. 

Part of my disengagement was cyclical – my energies were moving into other endeavors and the issues of this blog were not a priority.  Another part was intentional – I didn’t want to jump into the fray and become part of the political argument going on.  I do that sort of thing, but that’s not what the energies here are about.

Having some time to integrate, I can look at what’s been going on and say it’s part of an ongoing pattern which accelerated recently.  The Luciferian power structures have been either destroyed or severely weakened.  That’s not to say they can’t come back or that “we won,” just that their power has reached an ebb, which has left millions of people who are plugged into that structure without power.

The result is they’ve been going crazy.  Literally. 

This isn’t new.  A lot of this structure’s foundation is untreated mental illness – the Luciferian structures recruit from the ranks of the unhealthy, wounded and broken.  Healthy people only enlist in these structures under some kind of bargain where they obtain money or power or some other goodie in exchange for their service.  The rank and file are pretty messed up.

Once their power grid went down, even the healthy people in charge lost their minds.  We saw this during the 2024 election with the Trump assassination attempts.  We saw this with the Luciferian cult response to those attempts.  The pro-Hamas protests, which morphed into the anti-ICE protests, the whole bizarre “No Kings” protests, and pretty much everything the US Democratic Party has done, as well as what’s been going on in Canada, China and Europe with the governments’ complete trampling of human rights, cheered on by the Luciferians.

So Kirk’s assassination really isn’t a shock when looked at from that vantage point.  It was enlightening for the huge majority of people who either cannot see or refuse to see the spiritual warfare going on around them.  For them, this event truly was a shock and a “Turning Point.” 

And those of us who have been fighting for the light all these years, usually on an island, usually with the blinds closed, so those who don’t understand aren’t alienated or made fearful, have been waiting for that moment for a very long time.  Now legions of “normals” who had been dismissive of the spiritual war are personally aware of its existence and called to service.

This is a good and necessary step.  We cannot continue to have a handful of people fighting these battles in secret, to protect the normals who would not support our efforts to keep them safe.  We need a large army, and now we have one.  Or at least a significant number of people.

Some of the other things going on that have sparked outrage – the celebration of Kirk’s assassination, the continued support for Hamas and its propaganda on the left and right, the ongoing “trans” propaganda warfare – this is not new or different.  This is the same Luciferian patterns we have seen for years.  The difference now is a lot of the mimic patterns and energetic support structures have either been destroyed or weakened, so the energy is “untethered” and schizophrenic instead of power-based.

There’s also been a concerted effort to cut off some of the taxpayer-funded support of these efforts, namely eliminating USAID, cutting funding for PBS and NPR and phasing out the US Department of Education.  This is all nice, and cutting off the funding spigot definitely helps reduce the power of the Luciferian elements, but it’s more of an effect than a cause – the funding went away after the power structures were destroyed.

One event that I noted at the time but didn’t fully appreciate the significance at the time was the unprecedented snowstorm in northern Florida.  Florida has a special energetic relationship compared to the rest of the US and has become a place of energetic leadership in battling the evil forces.  The snowstorm was the modern “Noah’s rainbow” that let us know the energetic shift had taken place, and that’s when all the other activity above the surface began.

What we’re seeing now are a lot of the ripple effects.  I expect to see more stories of insanity-induced violence, political and otherwise.  Eventually the Hamas structure will fall, along with the Iranian Luciferian circle of influence. Look for North Korea to experience a rapid downfall as well.  The Cartel power structures will continue to deteriorate and there will be direct US attacks on their infrastructure that will have big ripple effects in the US Luciferian-controlled areas such as Hollywood, Washington DC and New York City.

The big takeaway is that energies improving doesn’t directly correlate to improvement in the physical world.  Too much of the world is associated directly or indirectly with the evil energies, so there will be major disruption as things realign.  Possibly even economic recession, though I’m not the perennial doomsayer on that one - hoarding gold and building bunkers is crazy stuff.

For spiritual people who follow me, stay grounded.  This message will serve to ground you to true light.  Focus on your personal duties to God, which are revealed only to you.  Continue to observe and ask questions but be wary of high-follower “light workers” claiming to have “The Answer™”

Fishing is My Church

 I just got back from a nearly two-week Florida vacation with my youngest son - lots of fishing, a great bonding experience.  I go there a lot now, and I fish there a lot.  It's become my spiritual sanctuary, the place where I do my best spiritual work, find the deepest connection to God and discover the deepest insights.  

Some of this is because it's my home - I have a house here, that I've talked about before.  Some is because, even when I'm working here (this is my first vacation here in over a year), I'm much more relaxed and available for spiritual practice.  And for a while I thought the fishing was a distraction, but it isn't.  Fishing is an integral part of this spiritual practice, it is the pathway to my spiritual practice. 

When I was a little kid and first getting good at fishing, my dad would say that this was when I was fully myself, where I'd let go of whatever stress, fears or negative thoughts that were getting in the way and fully be myself.  Much later in life I learned to cultivate a connection to my spiritual core through meditative practice and breathwork, and I found it felt similar.  

Consciously combining the two energies elevates my vibration and spiritual connection to the highest levels.  I can accomplish this without fishing, but with fishing it's effortless.  It's where I find presence, peace and a connection to the source of life.  It connects me to a primal, ancestral energy that is deep and profound and reminds me that life does not begin or end in this lifetime and this life is a small piece of an infinite timeline and we are each a small but essential piece of the universal energy, God energy.

If you look at the picture you can see very strong crown chakra energy in both of us and I'm fully grounded and present.  In this moment I'm not consciously practicing spirituality, but I'm living in it, I'm in my "church." 

In my Florida home, fishing is a critical part of my meditative practice.  I meditate and pray for a fruitful fishing experience, ask for guidance on when and where, fillet fish as a meditative practice, and bring the feelings and experience back into my nightly meditation and prayer.  

Fish are a key part of the Buddhist spiritual practice, and a key part of my altar spaces. I have carefully-chosen fish statues, carefully placed on each altar space.  I require regular presence with water - lakes, streams and especially the ocean - for spiritual cleansing and renewal. Water itself is a critical part of Buddhism and my spiritual practice.  Fish are a critical element of the New Testament and a symbol of Christ.  

It took me a while to fully realize the deep personal spiritual importance of fishing.  It's more than something I do or a hobby, it is a part of me.  It's my gateway to God and to my own path.