Not Taking Crap Anymore

Some day-after observations of my energetic work with Etienne.

First, I feel an amazing energetic clearing today, especially in my lower dantian.  I’m amazed at how many of my unhelpful automatic responses in the world were the result of that stuck fear-energy.  Just going through my day is night-and-day easier and it will be much easier to further my purpose with this energetic resistance gone (and the energy now working for me).

Second, and probably more important given our recent work, I had a dream that explains the message of perseverance I received yesterday.  (The message was “keep going; it’s going to get tough, but it’s worth it.”)  In the dream I had thrown boxes and boxes of junk out of my space.  This action enraged some oppressive people.  I could see at first they were shocked and then very upset.  I went back inside and could see them outside the front door.  They dropped some new boxes of junk and banged on the door, demanding that I take their crap.  I told my wife not to let them in, but somehow they got through the door carrying boxes of their junk. 

I told them they had no business violating my personal space and to get out and take their junk with them.  They were yelling, threatening, demanding I take the junk as if I owed it to them.  It was very tense, but they did leave, still making threats and saying this wasn’t over.  I threw their junk outside, shut the door and that was the end of it. 

I spoke with my higher self and confirmed with a pendulum test about this, that it was a fairly accurate explanation of my current situation.  I have been a willing receptacle for the psychic garbage of other forces, to the point those outside forces feel entitled to use my space as their psychic garbage dump.  Over time I would clear out the junk, but always more would show up, and the cleansing process has been very time and energy consuming and often feels like I’m not getting anywhere.

The message I was receiving yesterday was more specific than “keep going,” it was a message to expand and protect my personal sphere and not take anyone’s crap.  (Which aligns with my personal history on all levels.)  You could see this when you’d go to remove junk and forces would immediately try to shove more junk in.  The message is telling me the external efforts to fight my internal cleaning efforts will intensify until they get the message that their junk is no longer welcome here.  The immunity is the door and walls, and they’re going to test that immunity until they’re exhausted, which could take a while.   

This isn’t just “higher-level” energy, this all energy – above, below and here in the physical world.  I’ve spent my life taking people’s crap and then properly disposing of that crap, only to have more dumped on me.  Yes, this is true – this is how I’ve lived my life since as early as I could remember.  All my mechanisms were attuned to receiving, processing and dealing with this external crap. 

Then I’d wonder why I’d get tired, be resistant to dealing with people, be afraid of confrontation, worry all the time and have so much “stuff” to deal with.  My life has been a psychic garbage dump and I’ve been operating from a reactive place. 

Last night, that shifted.  I’m no longer taking anyone’s crap.  And I’ll likely receive strong resistance on all levels to this change. 

So I’m adopting a process on all levels, to consciously and unconsciously no longer take other people’s crap.  It’s interesting – I’m noticing how everything I’ve been doing has been from that place where I’m supposed to take this shit.  When I stop that, everything changes, the whole energy changes.  It’s powerful.

And as I move into my role as coach and healer, this becomes important.  I’m not here to take crap, just help other people heal and delete their own junk.  That’s a powerful step into healthy coaching, learning how to help others without getting entangled or drained energetically. 

The first step toward actualizing my truth.

Q&A: Energy Readings; Thoughts About Where I'm At

Question:

I've followed and read the "Readings" you have done for men. Can you please tell me what these reading are and how you've come about doing them? I am intrigued.

Answer:

Thanks for your inquiry!

Recently I had a very profound third-eye awakening (actually overall energetic awakening on many levels).  Shortly after this Destin put out the call for men to ask for feedback and I engaged in a couple energy readings as feedback for men with whom I didn’t have a personal relationship, basically to offer something of value toward the task.

The feedback was very positive, in that men were saying they received a lot of value from the readings.   And I have found providing the readings to be valuable for me to exercise and sharpen this awareness aspect.  So I expanded and now offer a free reading to every man in EMP.

So it’s become an opportunity for me to practice giving readings while offering something of value to the group (since it’s difficult for me to join the events).

I wrote a brief description on an earlier post, but essentially the reading involves centering, grounding and connecting to my higher self.  Then I connect with the energy from a recent photograph (since it’s a distant reading) and take a picture in my mind’s eye of the energetic impression.  Then I’ll go about writing my reading.

I’ve noticed as I’ve been diving deeper into this aspect of my awareness that more subtle aspects are coming into my awareness, such as colors and awareness of implants and spiritual entanglements.  (It’s an ongoing process with massive potential for development, I’m just getting started.)

Let me know if you have any other questions.

Personal Thoughts and Impressions:

I’ll admit I’m still working through massive amounts of self-doubt and expectations of how things are supposed to be and supposed to work.  I recall the times what I believed was my intuition was in fact a misjudgment of emotion and ended up doing me and many others tremendous disservice.

I’m also expecting a certain amount of resistance, especially as my newfound expression collides with some old disempowering relationship paradigms. 

So I’m sensitive to inquiry when my higher self is welcoming it.  So there’s some painful unprocessed values conflicts going on.

So what’s going on is some fear and self-doubt and a higher knowing this is evidence I am on the right path.  So there’s calm and conflict.  I realize in the end this is where I am meant to be – to notice these places of inner conflict and resolve them.

Updates:  My ability to differentiate energetic vibration from personal preference and assumption is growing stronger.  I noticed last night I could “taste” energy, as I posted last night.  This has grown stronger and sharper.

In addition I can read people’s energy apart from visual preferences.  This is a powerful new epiphany and one that can guide me into a much more authentic way of being.  For example, I noticed an older woman whose energy was glowing and beautiful, and I was able to see that energy and value that apart from assumptions about her physical appearance and social paradigms.  This is a giant step in my growth.