I haven’t written much because, over the past four months, I
have been profoundly disappointed with world humanity. I didn’t see a lot of positive, insightful or
educational value in expressing my disappointment. At this point, I feel it is, because the
problem goes very deep and affects all levels.
My job is to do my part to elevate the consciousness of
humanity. Instead, humanity has been
worse than ever. That does impact me –
something’s very wrong at all levels. I’m not sure how to resolve this problem,
but it’s time to speak on it.
Since the Wuhan Coronavirus started coming into the world
consciousness, pretty much everyone has behaved stupidly, panicky,
irrationally, repugnantly and fear-based.
People in overwhelming numbers gave over their freedoms, their common
sense, their jobs, their wealth, their children’s future, etc. to fear-based
media disinformation. People stupidly
locked themselves in their homes, shut down their businesses, pulled their kids
out of school, tattled on their neighbors, and turned themselves into stupid,
panicky, asshole zombies.
For nothing.
Nobody was “saved” by closing. It was stupid, jack-booted and just plain evil. Everything that was done actually killed more
people, both from the virus and from the effects of the extreme lockdown
measures.
Italy has a really lousy medical system. If you get sick,
you don’t see a doctor – you go to the friggin’ hospital. So if you have an infectious disease, you go
to the very worst place you can go and spread it to the most vulnerable.
So of COURSE lots of people got sick and died in Italy. Between their idiotic “Hug a Chinese”
campaign (because the US canceled flights from China) and their idiotic health
system, lots of people got sick and lots of people died.
Then what did they do?
They took reasonable measures to control the spread. And then they listened to the Chinese,
ditched the common-sense measures and locked the country down.
And the rest of Europe, instead of looking at Italy and
saying “fuck that shit,” followed the idiotic Chinese model. Willingly.
Like a bunch of stupid, worthless fucking sheep.
That’s when I wrote what I wrote and then stopped. But it only got worse.
While Europe was being mind-bogglingly stupid, the “Ascension
Community” was busy being mind-bogglingly disconnected from everything and
making a mockery of Alchemy and all the work it had been doing.
You had one group that denied the virus existed and claimed
it was some government conspiracy. Then
you had another group that claimed it was Armageddon, would kill millions and
cause permanent damage to everyone who survived and the typical “The World Will
End Tomorrow” BS. Crap, I wasted moments of my life listening to some knucklehead
talk about how lockdowns were great, the economy was going to collapse, oil
would never go above $2 a barrel, the virus was going to kill hundreds of
millions of people and we should all plant gardens because there was going to
be a food shortage.
And some “evolved leaders” were saying that guy was
accurate! OMFG, that’s when I walked away
from the whole community – everyone was FULL of SHIT.
The “exponential death” people were wrong. The denial people were wrong. The “love and light” people had their heads
up their asses posting pictures of animals in the cities and saying we should
stay like this, and isn’t it great everyone is poor like me now. People I had a lot of respect for were just
spouting nonsense that didn’t match anything actually going on in the real
world, claiming it was “muscle testing,” but never holding themselves to
account when their wild predictions turned out wildly wrong over and over. People I didn’t have much respect for did
things that made me respect them even less.
Basically the entire spiritual community, including the
handful of good ones, threw everything away and acted like ego-driven fools. So for the past four months I was struggling
with the collective idiocy and fear-based sheeple behavior of humanity and the
collapse of the spiritual/ alchemy community, down to the subatomic level, just
obliterated.
I received messages during this time to resist the lockdown
mentality and distance myself from the insanity of the spiritual world. It is time for me to individuate and begin
walking my own path, and this experience rapidly accelerated that process.
I knew the virus wasn’t the Spanish Flu pandemic the media
was screaming about. And the data
confirms my intuition. My intuition
actually matches real data, not just some Armageddon BS that only matches the
voices in my head, or some idiot with a video who thinks any dufus with a patch
of land and some seeds can do a better job than trained, experienced farmers
(good grief – you want to show your ignorance about farming and basic common
sense, try telling me how gardens will save us from food scarcity and I will
assume - rightly - that you know nothing about anything).
So I fought the prevailing opinion about the lockdown, about
the danger of the virus, about the sheeple mentality. For a long time, it was just me and some
right-wing people with their own major blocks and veils. Not exactly “evolved company,” but it’s all
their was. Eventually, some people from
other ideological backgrounds came forward and the data confirming the truth
couldn’t be repressed.
Right around the time the general public was sick and tired
of being sheep, the US exploded into race riots. This was the inevitable result of trapping
people in their homes, lying to them and then lighting the tinder.
The race protests are not about elevating consciousness. They’re basically a bunch of really stupid
white people (mostly women) trying to look good in front of their stupid white
people friends while black people laugh at them. Other than that, it was frustrated people
sick of the lockdown blowing off steam and trying to steal back what society
stole from them for four months. It’s not consciousness, it’s catharsis.
But compared to the lockdown, the riots were a breath of
fresh air. And they did their job –
everything opened up after that because they called out the government on its
own bullshit.
Turns out most people didn’t buy the lockdown BS, they just
didn’t know how to fight back. Now that
the lockdowns are ending, people just want to put that hellish episode behind
them.
I can’t. I’ve never
had such a low opinion of my fellow man.
Just a bunch of pathetic little sheep who do whatever they’re told, no
matter how stupid. And the “evolved
leaders” didn’t do any better – just “end of the world” porn or complete
denial. It’s like being reasonable and
seeing the middle path, in terms of the severity of the disease and in how to
deal with it, wasn’t allowed in the spiritual community. If you were looking
for a middle way, you were in “spiritual denial,” you’ve been infected by the
virus, you’ve been corrupted by the False Light Matrix, blah blah blah. The egos in that group were overwhelming, nobody
wanted to ask questions with an open mind or support freedom (which is what we’re
here for – if you want to lock people in their homes, go be a prison guard, don’t
be in Alchemy).
I doubted my truth because I felt all alone. But it turned out my intuition has been spot
on. I really need to trust myself, even
when I feel like I’m in a “bad place” and everything is going wrong.
So I’m on my own. I’ll
still learn from masters, but I’m standing on my own. What I learned from this is my intuition
serves me very well, especially when the world around me is going crazy. I’m farther along than I thought I was. I still have a lot to learn and a long ways
to go, but I’m also comfortable and accepting of my imperfections and still
committed to my higher truth.
Humanity let me down. The Alchemy “leaders” lost their way. But I’m still standing and now I’m on my
own. It’s time.
