Friday, March 3, 2017

Holding Back Energy Vs. Clearing Out: Lessons from "Difficulties"


Still going inward, still slowing down.  Still learning so much from this.
Last month I had a number of experiences that seemed like “bad luck” or “challenges,” and it was only after that I realized what they were – a clearing out of bad energy.  In one case I had been holding onto physical and emotional trauma from a years ago that was trapped and festering in a tooth.  The root canal cleared it all out and then it’s gone.  I had negative energy that for some reason had settled into my car’s transmission, and after replacing it there was all kinds of opening.

A car?  But it drives completely differently now and the energy when I’m driving it is clean.
Even the spending of funds and paying off of some debt freed up energy, actually opening paths to receive more wealth in the future. 

I have a tendency to hold onto energy, which creates tightness in my energy system and body and also lends to fear-based patterns. Going inward is bringing awareness to them and they’re releasing. 
I’m beginning to see how that “holding” pattern has guided a lot of my thinking and behavior patterns.  And it’s drained energy that could be better used to actually create what I want, instead of holding on and fighting against things I don’t want.

I wouldn’t see this larger pattern if I hadn’t spent a considerable amount of time slowing down to pay attention.  This is a key piece, the thing that’s been holding me back, and once I see it it’s actually not that difficult to flip the switch.  All this time I’d been operating under the assumption this is just how it is, but it isn’t.  It’s a choice.
And when trying to do “big things” with energy, I’m realizing how important it is to align those patterns to create and move energy through, instead of holding back or seeking to preserve. Just noticing this I feel a huge sense of relief.  It makes perfect sense.

So I’m grateful for the “challenges” of the past month.  They’ve helped me to learn a much more valuable lesson.

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