About These Past Four Months

I haven’t written much because, over the past four months, I have been profoundly disappointed with world humanity.  I didn’t see a lot of positive, insightful or educational value in expressing my disappointment.  At this point, I feel it is, because the problem goes very deep and affects all levels.

My job is to do my part to elevate the consciousness of humanity.  Instead, humanity has been worse than ever.  That does impact me – something’s very wrong at all levels. I’m not sure how to resolve this problem, but it’s time to speak on it.

Since the Wuhan Coronavirus started coming into the world consciousness, pretty much everyone has behaved stupidly, panicky, irrationally, repugnantly and fear-based.  People in overwhelming numbers gave over their freedoms, their common sense, their jobs, their wealth, their children’s future, etc. to fear-based media disinformation.  People stupidly locked themselves in their homes, shut down their businesses, pulled their kids out of school, tattled on their neighbors, and turned themselves into stupid, panicky, asshole zombies. 

For nothing.

Nobody was “saved” by closing.  It was stupid,  jack-booted and just plain evil.  Everything that was done actually killed more people, both from the virus and from the effects of the extreme lockdown measures.

 

Italy has a really lousy medical system. If you get sick, you don’t see a doctor – you go to the friggin’ hospital.  So if you have an infectious disease, you go to the very worst place you can go and spread it to the most vulnerable.

So of COURSE lots of people got sick and died in Italy.  Between their idiotic “Hug a Chinese” campaign (because the US canceled flights from China) and their idiotic health system, lots of people got sick and lots of people died. 

Then what did they do?  They took reasonable measures to control the spread.  And then they listened to the Chinese, ditched the common-sense measures and locked the country down.

And the rest of Europe, instead of looking at Italy and saying “fuck that shit,” followed the idiotic Chinese model.  Willingly.  Like a bunch of stupid, worthless fucking sheep. 

That’s when I wrote what I wrote and then stopped.  But it only got worse.

While Europe was being mind-bogglingly stupid, the “Ascension Community” was busy being mind-bogglingly disconnected from everything and making a mockery of Alchemy and all the work it had been doing.

You had one group that denied the virus existed and claimed it was some government conspiracy.  Then you had another group that claimed it was Armageddon, would kill millions and cause permanent damage to everyone who survived and the typical “The World Will End Tomorrow” BS. Crap, I wasted moments of my life listening to some knucklehead talk about how lockdowns were great, the economy was going to collapse, oil would never go above $2 a barrel, the virus was going to kill hundreds of millions of people and we should all plant gardens because there was going to be a food shortage. 

And some “evolved leaders” were saying that guy was accurate!  OMFG, that’s when I walked away from the whole community – everyone was FULL of SHIT.

The “exponential death” people were wrong.  The denial people were wrong.  The “love and light” people had their heads up their asses posting pictures of animals in the cities and saying we should stay like this, and isn’t it great everyone is poor like me now.  People I had a lot of respect for were just spouting nonsense that didn’t match anything actually going on in the real world, claiming it was “muscle testing,” but never holding themselves to account when their wild predictions turned out wildly wrong over and over.  People I didn’t have much respect for did things that made me respect them even less.

Basically the entire spiritual community, including the handful of good ones, threw everything away and acted like ego-driven fools.  So for the past four months I was struggling with the collective idiocy and fear-based sheeple behavior of humanity and the collapse of the spiritual/ alchemy community, down to the subatomic level, just obliterated.

I received messages during this time to resist the lockdown mentality and distance myself from the insanity of the spiritual world.  It is time for me to individuate and begin walking my own path, and this experience rapidly accelerated that process. 

I knew the virus wasn’t the Spanish Flu pandemic the media was screaming about.  And the data confirms my intuition.  My intuition actually matches real data, not just some Armageddon BS that only matches the voices in my head, or some idiot with a video who thinks any dufus with a patch of land and some seeds can do a better job than trained, experienced farmers (good grief – you want to show your ignorance about farming and basic common sense, try telling me how gardens will save us from food scarcity and I will assume - rightly - that you know nothing about anything). 

So I fought the prevailing opinion about the lockdown, about the danger of the virus, about the sheeple mentality.  For a long time, it was just me and some right-wing people with their own major blocks and veils.  Not exactly “evolved company,” but it’s all their was.  Eventually, some people from other ideological backgrounds came forward and the data confirming the truth couldn’t be repressed.

Right around the time the general public was sick and tired of being sheep, the US exploded into race riots.  This was the inevitable result of trapping people in their homes, lying to them and then lighting the tinder.

 

The race protests are not about elevating consciousness.  They’re basically a bunch of really stupid white people (mostly women) trying to look good in front of their stupid white people friends while black people laugh at them.  Other than that, it was frustrated people sick of the lockdown blowing off steam and trying to steal back what society stole from them for four months. It’s not consciousness, it’s catharsis.

But compared to the lockdown, the riots were a breath of fresh air.  And they did their job – everything opened up after that because they called out the government on its own bullshit.

Turns out most people didn’t buy the lockdown BS, they just didn’t know how to fight back.  Now that the lockdowns are ending, people just want to put that hellish episode behind them.

I can’t.  I’ve never had such a low opinion of my fellow man.  Just a bunch of pathetic little sheep who do whatever they’re told, no matter how stupid.  And the “evolved leaders” didn’t do any better – just “end of the world” porn or complete denial.  It’s like being reasonable and seeing the middle path, in terms of the severity of the disease and in how to deal with it, wasn’t allowed in the spiritual community. If you were looking for a middle way, you were in “spiritual denial,” you’ve been infected by the virus, you’ve been corrupted by the False Light Matrix, blah blah blah.  The egos in that group were overwhelming, nobody wanted to ask questions with an open mind or support freedom (which is what we’re here for – if you want to lock people in their homes, go be a prison guard, don’t be in Alchemy).

I doubted my truth because I felt all alone.  But it turned out my intuition has been spot on.  I really need to trust myself, even when I feel like I’m in a “bad place” and everything is going wrong.

So I’m on my own.  I’ll still learn from masters, but I’m standing on my own.  What I learned from this is my intuition serves me very well, especially when the world around me is going crazy.  I’m farther along than I thought I was.  I still have a lot to learn and a long ways to go, but I’m also comfortable and accepting of my imperfections and still committed to my higher truth.

Humanity let me down. The Alchemy “leaders” lost their way.  But I’m still standing and now I’m on my own.  It’s time.