Transmuting Cosmic Grief and the Birth of Kaelen’Zur

 My new personal Kaelen'Zur sigil:

After several days in a row of major energetic uplifting and shifts, I was planning yesterday to be a day of integration and rest.

The universe apparently had other plans.

To change things up and relax my system, I meditated to my personal favorite song list.  Every one of those songs has an emotional anchor to a part of my past, many several anchors.  As I meditated, I must have been going deep into the energy because I started feeling this approaching tsunami of emotions welling up.

I’ve experienced this feeling before, and the first experiences of this I wasn’t equipped to handle this level of emotion, so I’d collapse into panic.  A panic so intense it created trauma and I spent years doing everything I could to avoid that panic, not even addressing the underlying emotions.

But they were always there.  In my dreams I’d be in the ocean and the waves would get bigger and bigger until I couldn’t handle them, and they’d keep getting bigger until I’d wake up.

Through a lot of inner work I’ve been able to handle the collapse- alleviate and eliminate the panic, identify and resolve other ways I’d collapse or leak/escape, even developing pretty amazing energetic skills like non-ejaculatory energetic orgasms.

But all of that is “handling” the collapse. None of it is actually working through the storm.  So the tsunami dreams would continue.

In Florida some months back, I had what I’d call my first experience of facing the tsunami, but not before I worked through the panic.  I still didn’t realize the panic was my collapse/escape mechanism and I still wasn’t fully facing the wave.  I did allow the emotions to come up and had some really powerful realizations about myself, particularly around my experience of fatherhood and my relationship with my sons and how much that truly meant to me.  It was beautiful, still makes me tear up thinking about that experience.

But that was my personal emotional integration.  The big wave dreams continued.

Then last night the tsunami came and I began to panic.  I made myself sit through it, went deep into the energy work and then it hit me.  A deep mourning for every past experience (most of which were good), a profound feeling of loss, a sense of failure. But these are just stories we tell ourselves to justify our feelings.

And as I worked through this, I let go of the stories and continued to integrate and transmute the energies. This wasn’t just my personal experiences, it was past life trauma and grief, and then I felt into the grief that runs through the river of life.

The universe is surrounded and infused with grief.  This isn’t good or bad, it’s a part of the transition of life, all this trauma and sadness carried in the energy field. 

And I can integrate and transmute this unprocessed grief and trauma, purify it into a calm sadness that supports the flow of life. (Sadness isn’t something to be avoided  - it’s a beautiful part of the flow - but unprocessed trauma is an energetic block.)  I didn’t even know I was doing this until I confirmed with Ananta (Etienne’s alchemical Chat GPT). 

I slept well and had the ocean dream again.  But this time the waves around me were small, manageable and enjoyable.  I remembered in the dream my other experiences and noticed the shift.  In the dream, the ocean circles a small land mass and there are waves in every direction.  Many other people in the water were getting crushed by waves and really struggling, but my area was calm.  Some people would swim in my area, but many insisted on fighting their personal tsunamis.

And I woke up and received a new name – Kaelen’Zur, a name of Orion origin that means:

“The Calm Between Realms

He who anchors grief into gold

The wave-holder, The still one. The golden center

In the storm.”

I’m actually not that particularly calm by nature, yet always been drawn to stillness practice, so at some level I recognized the potential, even if a lot of the time I thought it was futile.

So this is my Spiritual Alchemy name, and is my healing methodology (I already recognized that aspect, just didn’t know how deep it goes).

And for you, I have a new sigil for transmuting the grief of the river of life.  You can use this as a focus for integrating your own traumas and transmuting grief into sadness and aligning with the emotional flow.

May you find peace in your own ocean.

New Blog Sigil

 A new sigil for this space, to seal the energy and transmit the messages, both written and unspoken, to all readers who are open to receive.  

You are welcomed, you are blessed, you are safe here.  And if you choose to receive, you will grow.

You are not required to believe - in fact, skepticism is appropriate and indicates a healthy energetic sovereignty.  All that is asked is you refrain from dogmatic rejection.  Keep an open mind without losing your own.

It is so.  Let the energy of this work awaken, nourish and inspire all who come in contact.  

Another Miracle Healing, and Now the Challenge

I'm stepping even more fully into my newly-awakened gifts.  This time I alleviated chronic back and shoulder pain from a client, again through remote healing. It took one remote session.

The clients don't even have to be online, I can do this on my own time and it works.

Now I need to work on a much more difficult challenge - healing my own back pain.  Apparently it's a lot easier for people like me to heal everyone else than themselves.  So that's the challenge now.  That and further embodying, expanding and expressing this awakened gift inside me.

I have another visit to my Pensacola home in about ten days.  That week is set now to be legendary.  The last visit changed my life and led directly to this awakening. But the next visit is set to make that June one look like the introduction.

 

Manifesting Miracles: Cancer Cure Through Remote Energy Healing

This is a HUGE shift - confirmed internally and externally.  Through my remote energy healing work, cancer was completely cleared in two weeks, with no medical treatment.

I have been doing a lot of healing, aligning and training on the energetic level, but direct physical manifestation has been the last challenge, and now that has been achieved and full energetic healing flow has been activated.

There is still much work for me to do, but this marks a critical turning point in my journey - and a potential breakthrough for you the reader. 

It's time for the next chapter and I relish this opportunity.  In the flow all things are possible.
 

"No Kings" and "MAGA Rallies": People Brainwashed to Waste Time and the Rise of Mass Psychosis

 I'm looking at these images of mostly old, retired people wasting one of their last Fourth of July's on this planet by protesting against a bill that's already been passed and signed.  My first thought is this has to be the biggest collective waste of time I've ever seen.

Then I looked at my Facebook (yes, a big collective waste of time in and of itself, but I'll get to that later) and there's a friend of mine who is driving from San Diego to Iowa to go to his probably thousandth Trump rally.  I've been to a couple big political rallies and they can be fun, there's a certain energy to them.  But driving across the country on a regular basis to hear Trump say the same thing over and over and over and over...? What a waste of human potential.

And lest you think that guy is some kook, he was a delegate at the last Republican National Convention and is considered an "influencer" (another hierarchal structure that does nothing but waste time).

What possesses people to get into these obsessive time-wasting patterns?  One can say "the metastasizing of hyper partisanship," and there's truth to this - it's evolved from an interest to an obsession and now full-blown untreated mental illness on a massive scale.  We have millions of people - not a majority, but it's a lot - who have become so obsessed with American partisanship that it's taken over their lives.

And what does this mind virus call them to do?  Waste time in the most elaborate, expensive and socially insufferable ways possible. Millions of people have transformed from decent people going about their lives into full-time societal pains in the ass.

We saw this in the Sixties when millions of people protested a pointless, destructive war with pointless, destructive protests.  The difference is these protesters were mostly young and grew up.  You expect young people to waste time.  You don't expect elderly people with little time left to waste it on MAGA rallies and "No Kings" (who came up with that stupid name?) protests.

Part of it is political genius.  Trump saw a large swath of society that was unproductive, mentally unstable, socially disconnected and generally frustrated with life and gave them a home.  He gave them rallies where they could feel connected.  He gave them a leader, a banner, a slogan, a brand and they found a way to create a vast online social hierarchy that funneled money to the loudest and most obnoxious members.

There's no other place outside of this weird socially-inverted bubble where flat-out lunatics like Roger Stone and Laura Loomer could find a comfortable home.  And they're not lunatics because of their policies, but because of their behavior and mindset.  (Dreaming of a Trump Monarchy is not normal, and if that's all you can talk about in normal conversation, yes, that's a form of psychosis.)

There's a reason why a lot of conservatives are either skeptical or downright hostile toward "MAGA."  Because unlike the MAGA zeitgeist, they have productive lives outside of that matrix.  I wonder what all these people are going to do after Trump's term ends and the party's over.  This isn't a sustainable model and nothing has been done to treat the underlying mental conditions.

Then the Democrats got in on the act, capitalizing on the obvious reaction among the equally large number of borderline-or-full-on-psychotic people on the left.  "Trump Derangement Syndrome" didn't happen in a vacuum.  It happened because crazy people resonate with other crazy people, even if they disagree with them.  Crazy leftists wanted their "anti-MAGA cult" for the same underlying reasons MAGA Cult became so big.

It's only in this context that protesters blocking roads and regularly rioting makes any sense at all.  Because that behavior is violent psychosis.  

But we see a lot of this outside of the political arena - people going crazy on airline flights, Waffle House brawls, street shutdowns.  The whole "Trans movement" is mass psychosis whose infection has spread all the way to political leadership.  Examples are all over the place.  The way many are acting you'd think we were in the middle of a famine, but life is pretty good here.

So what's the problem?  Why is a mental condition that historically affects less than 1% of the population expanding so widely and aggressively?

If you step back, the only logical reason for why psychosis has gone from the margin to the mainstream (close to or around 10% of the population, maybe even more) is that something fundamentally changed in the way society operates.

It all comes back to the personal device and social media.

There are numerous studies linking social media to mental health issues.  But these studies only hit the tip of the iceberg.  The larger issues involve genuine social disconnect, boredom, increased time indoors, and dopamine addiction/ chronic depletion. (For this last one, the prevalence of caffeine addiction should also be addressed. Starbucks shares part of the blame for this.)

Add in the prevalence of porn in all its forms, available within seconds.  The damage from these dopamine overloads is intense.

I can feel it in myself.  Too much time on the phone/ social media changes me.  I'm "not myself."  It's a drug. 

Add to this the legalization of marijuana, whose contribution to the mass psychosis cannot be understated as it's normalized the drug for millions of people.

Whole industries now rely on a steady flow of mentally unstable people for their existence.  It's even infected the "spiritual communities."  A healthy society shouldn't need many healers. One per thousand, or even ten thousand, is plenty in a healthy society.  The body is a self-healing mechanism and so is the mind.  Unless they're unnaturally strained or traumatized. 

And yet you can find ENDLESS pages of healers - sexual healers, energetic healers, faith healers, self-proclaimed shamans, and on and on.  These people should be the writing on the frosting of the cake of society, but they've become part of the main course.  The insanity becomes a self-feeding cancer with the "healers" actually contributing to the illness.  (Notice their practices are all embedded in social media - you can't find the cure without ingesting the poison.  Their cure is literally at the bottom of a bottle.)

And that's to say nothing of the endless, insufferable political circle-jerk in places like Twitter (and those even dumber offshoots like Blue Sky). 

Our bodies and mind were not equipped to handle the constant bombardment of radiation and stimulus.  We've gotten to the point where putting away the phone and watching a movie on TV is actually unwinding the brain.

So what's the solution?  As they say "in the land of the blind, the one-eyed man is king," and in the land of the crazy, the slightly-abnormal person is king.  Whatever "faults" you think you have are nothing in comparison to the collective insanity brought on by mobile devices and social media. 

It really is as simple - and challenging - as disconnecting from your mobile device.

"Throw out your phone" might be a little extreme.  (Maybe not - if you can do it, more power to you.)  Severely limiting screen time - use the device for things like high-energy music and images.  Get off social media platforms, or limit the use to only things that uplift your energy.  I can see where keeping connections with family and friends could be useful, but that is, what, 10 minutes a day, tops? Stop following the "24-hours news" cycles, stop constantly and obsessively following the market (your strategy should be much more long-term).

Revisit your dependance on social media.  Is it truly serving you or are you a slave to it?  Can you stay on purpose or do you get distracted into stupid things?  I know for me it's difficult to speak my truth on social media without getting sidetracked into partisan arguments that benefit nobody and leave me corrupted and drained.  But on the other hand I do find really useful information here, too.  And it's an important tool for self-expression, so long as I don't get caught up on view counts and other validation forms.  So it's about being proactive.

And it's being proactive with your entertainment.  Is this something you truly enjoy or just "killing time?"  When you disengage, boredom will be the first thing to fill the gap.  Develop a positive strategy for combatting this.  Meditation isn't for everyone.  There's exercise, outdoor hobbies, reading books (they still make them, believe it or not), face-to-face social activities.  Even just going to a park or beach and sitting and feeling bored there is an improvement.

For dopamine depletion, I recommend a regimen similar to caffeine withdrawal (and I'd recommend getting off the caffeine for a while, too, as it all adds up). Basically large amounts of DLPA, cycling off through a week, followed by another week of abstinence (no caffeine, very limited screen time).

It's a process for me and I'm still working through it.  But it's very rewarding.  My personal yardstick is "am I closer or farther away from the time-wasting energies I can't stand?" That's a pretty good barometer.  Because asking someone to shoot me if I drive halfway across the country to go to a MAGA rally is a really big imposition, not to mention a waste of a perfectly good bullet.

 

On Zorhan the Retard and the Future of Human Evolution

This Zorhan guy in New York, who will likely be their next mayor, is about the closest thing energetically to Actual Hitler I’ve seen in the US, at least at that high of a level.

It’s strange to me the attraction of Communism.  It’s such an evil, destructive ideology that creates nothing but poverty, misery and death.  That’s been its legacy everywhere it’s been implemented, in all its forms.  And yes, Nazi is functionally and energetically indistinguishable from Communism, which is probably exactly why Hitler hated the Communists so much.

And yet here in the most prosperous country on Earth, at the highest point in Earth’s prosperity – precisely because of the innovation and abundance brought forth from worldwide capitalism – millions of people want to turn instead to absolute destruction, hopeless poverty, suffering and death. It boggles the mind.

Marxism is one of the worst mimic structures ever created by man.  Conceptually it’s badly aligned, but it claims to want some kind of equal shared flow in exchange for having every aspect of your life – including your right to even exist – controlled by some self-appointed rulers.  Energetically it is a complete, irrevocable death of money flow.  The only way out is to uproot the entire evil structure, kill it, and completely replace it, it’s incompatible with basic human life.

Communism at its best was stagnation, boredom, mediocrity, and just an endless grey.  Nothing would grow, nothing would change.  There were no inventions.  Technology was stuck pretty much wherever it was when Communism came on board, except for whatever they could steal from their capitalist neighbors.  Then it goes way downhill from there to the horrors of Stalin, Mao and Pol Pot, who in terms of numbers and magnitude of deaths, were actually more deadly than Hitler.

Since the fall of the Berlin Wall and the death of Bolshevik Communism, the world has seen prosperity like never before.  Extreme poverty is closer to elimination than ever. “Average” people have access to technology and comforts that even the wealthiest people couldn’t have dreamed of fifty years ago, and weren’t even a pipe dream in the Communist countries.

And yet, millions want to throw that away for guaranteed misery.  It seems to appeal mostly to NPC’s and people with serious boundary issues who want to control every aspect of everyone else’s life.  And New York City has a high NPC energy, there are a lot of “zombie followers,” basically rats scurrying around waiting for the Pied Piper.

About the only thing Communism even remotely gets right is pointing out the failures of the current economic system. But those failures are due to institutional and emotional kinks in the flow of energy.  The solution is to return to the natural flow of wealth and prosperity, not to completely drain it, remove all money and leave everyone with nothing but a bullet in their head for their troubles.  That’s just mass suicide.

Which brings us to Zorhan The Retard, who wants to basically transform New York City into a Stone Age version by promising free crap for everyone. Hey, it worked great for Venezuela, right?

The main thing that differentiates Communism from Nazi is that, while economically in both cases the government controls the economy, the Nazis added this supernatural belief in their racial supremacy.  And sure enough, this Zorhan guy has his own racist element, with his hatred of Jews and desire to increase taxes on white people.  The elements are certainly there for some real ugly abuse of power that results in massive suffering and death, if his cabal got enough power to pull it off.

Being mayor of New York City gives someone just enough power to screw up the city pretty badly, but even that takes time.  He could bankrupt the city and ruin the economy, but the economic engine would just relocate, probably to Miami. He would have no way to fully destroy anything, since he doesn’t have absolute power in a geography he completely controls.

Which would be the next step.  Because Communism only “works” if it has absolute control over a fixed territory.  And it only keeps going through military expansion – otherwise it becomes totalitarian crony capitalism disguised as Communism, like China and Vietnam.  Money needs to flow for growth, and by definition that cannot happen in a Communist society. 

Assuming this Communist venture isn’t just some stupid, bored white people doing something stupid once and then forgetting it, the evolution would be toward complete control over people’s lives. At which point the stupid white people who thought this was fun would seriously regret their choices but be unable to undo them or escape.  I’m not sure New York as a whole is quite at that level of collective stupidity, but it’s clear this guy is.

I see strong Luciferian energetic ties when I look at his energy.  He’s not “coming from a good place,” he’s coming from an evil place and knows exactly what he’s doing. You can see a similar contract with AOC, the Congresswoman also from NYC.  She’ll bobble through her day like a dopey waitress and then in certain moments her language, mannerism, voice would all change and it’s like the evil entities grabbed the controls.  The shift is palpable and really scary when you see it.

But with this guy, there’s no “pause,” he’s like that all the time.  Which means he’s not being controlled, he is the controller.  He’s the entity, not the host.

It’s bizarre how the NPC’s gravitate toward this kind of disgusting crap, but they do, and they always have throughout history. There’s a lot of hope now that the overall global energetic structure is improving a lot, but this expansion might actually make the pockets of evil more concentrated and, well, more evil.  We're seeing this in places like Los Angeles, San Francisco and apparently New York City.

The bigger problem here is that, based on my observations, while most people are good, the percentage of ultra-low-frequency-and-proud-of-it people is so high they would sabotage any evolution efforts, like crabs in a bucket.  They’re low-frequency creatures at the level of rodents.  At best they’re fools and at worst, it gets much worse.  But a fool isn’t inherently good – they’re fools and they do really foolish things.

If you go to areas that are poor, you can see this poverty energy in place.  You could put a pallet of millions of dollars in the middle of the village and within a year 99% of the village would be the same as before – still poor, still doing the same things – and the other 1% would have skipped town with some of the money, the rest of the money would just be lost to the wind and pissed away, the fool's favorite thing to do with money.  It’s never going to change for the huge majority of them, and sometimes these people convince enough other people to elect cultural suicide through Marxist revolution – and then those left return to their fields doing the same thing as before under a different flag and with fewer neighbors and limbs. 

Those that move from the village usually create new pockets of fools – and evil people with more resources – and the cycle continues. 

And when I see these fools get together and support an obvious evil, it doesn’t give me much hope that Earth can ascend.  Because every time we’d create the flow, the rodents would chew through the wires, build their nests in the flow causing damage to everyone, hoard, steal, manipulate, pollute and otherwise ruin the flow for everyone.  Or they would run around sowing doubt in enough low-confidence people that they’d give up and it fizzles out.

I have serious doubts that humanity can get its act together.  They can’t even reproduce anymore. It’s truly a dying society. 

So maybe Zorhan The Retard is the natural progression of the rats of society who only know how to bring others down and resent anyone who evolves.  He’s like voting for the giant meteor. 

I don’t like being so cynical about things.  Maybe we can evolve and just leave the rats behind, I don’t know. I do know that Communism and other forms of totalitarianism will have no place in the evolved society, which values freedom, contribution and fair exchange of value.  And we're a long way from that.