Monday, March 6, 2017

"Experiences" vs "Things": Maybe It Isn't Always a Choice


I don’t spend a lot of money on myself.  I’ve prided myself on this.  I have nice clothes with pretty good style, but I spend very little on clothes for myself.  I drive the same car I’ve owned for over ten years.  I rarely go out to eat and I own very little “stuff.”  I have some crystals (okay a lot), but they cost almost nothing.  I don’t own the tech “stuff.”  Occasionally I’ll spend for some training or something educational, and if I spend money for pleasure it’s generally on travel or experiences. 
As I’ve been clearing out that “holding on” energy, I realize I’ve probably taken this too far and actually gone too cheap on myself, which instead of being frugal and life-nourishing is actually stifling my energy.  This weekend I spent a small amount to get some Bluetooth stereo equipment.  Some of it I kind of need for the car, because of the new laws (cheaper than one ticket, so kind of a no-brainer), and some just makes obvious sense. 

I realized immediately a few things in doing that.  First, as I’m going deeper into Natural Grounding resources, I notice a huge difference in the quality of the experience with the higher-quality equipment.  When the sound is more rich and clear and surrounding, it deepens the level of experience.  Even lying on the couch at home listening to NG music feels different now, my body would absorb the experience instead of listening more passively. 
It’s not like I splurged – the whole investment was considerably less than the cost of a usual long-weekend vacation.  But the payoff was immense.  

I had songs in my phone I thought I was “sick” of and couldn’t listen to anymore.  But I was inspired to create another playlist with these long-forgotten songs and listened to them through the new speaker – it was like listening to them for the first time. 
I also bought a few pieces of furniture – one of which I still need to assemble.  It makes a difference, it frees up the energy and brings some order to the chaos that develops in the apartment. 

Because my value is on the experiential and not the physical, I tend to overlook the value that the physical can bring to the experience.  This weekend was a reminder that the physical can play a valuable role in enhancing the energy of the experience.  Being too frugal on the “stuff” could actually be short-changing yourself and the full value of the experience. 
I should add also that the process of obtaining those “things,” and assembling the furniture, were valuable experiences in themselves. The entertainment value of the experience of waiting for my car stereo to be installed was worth a good fraction of the money I spent for the item, to say nothing of the listening and driving experience.  So maybe it isn’t a “things” vs “experience” duality as much as a challenge to be mindful of what “things” to bring into my life and how to integrate them with the experiential in a way that best serves.

Friday, March 3, 2017

Holding Back Energy Vs. Clearing Out: Lessons from "Difficulties"


Still going inward, still slowing down.  Still learning so much from this.
Last month I had a number of experiences that seemed like “bad luck” or “challenges,” and it was only after that I realized what they were – a clearing out of bad energy.  In one case I had been holding onto physical and emotional trauma from a years ago that was trapped and festering in a tooth.  The root canal cleared it all out and then it’s gone.  I had negative energy that for some reason had settled into my car’s transmission, and after replacing it there was all kinds of opening.

A car?  But it drives completely differently now and the energy when I’m driving it is clean.
Even the spending of funds and paying off of some debt freed up energy, actually opening paths to receive more wealth in the future. 

I have a tendency to hold onto energy, which creates tightness in my energy system and body and also lends to fear-based patterns. Going inward is bringing awareness to them and they’re releasing. 
I’m beginning to see how that “holding” pattern has guided a lot of my thinking and behavior patterns.  And it’s drained energy that could be better used to actually create what I want, instead of holding on and fighting against things I don’t want.

I wouldn’t see this larger pattern if I hadn’t spent a considerable amount of time slowing down to pay attention.  This is a key piece, the thing that’s been holding me back, and once I see it it’s actually not that difficult to flip the switch.  All this time I’d been operating under the assumption this is just how it is, but it isn’t.  It’s a choice.
And when trying to do “big things” with energy, I’m realizing how important it is to align those patterns to create and move energy through, instead of holding back or seeking to preserve. Just noticing this I feel a huge sense of relief.  It makes perfect sense.

So I’m grateful for the “challenges” of the past month.  They’ve helped me to learn a much more valuable lesson.