Was I Right To Be Harsh All Along?

 I was looking back at a "recent" blog post "What Changed?' in July where I felt regret for being harsh about my energetic assessment of "people who really didn't deserve it."

I noticed a few things.  First, almost immediately after that article, my personal energies began going to crap - all kinds of problems.  Problems with the house, money issues, energetic attacks, work issues, health, you name it.  Everything went downhill at the same time, and very quickly.

And one other thing happened - the individual who I was thinking of in that article came out basically celebrating Charlie Kirk's murder and falsely stating his killer was "right wing" (a popular fake conspiracy theory among the delusional left for a while after the murder, total cope, and very low-vibration behavior).

And now I'm looking at things and thinking that post was a "jumping the shark" moment for me.  I went full False Light Matrix.  Which is the same as going Full Retard.

You never go Full Retard.

It turns out my regret was flat-out wrong.  Everything I sensed about this guy that felt "mean" or "harsh" was 100% accurate.  The guy is an asshole, he's a phony, his energy is total shit, his life is a nonstop trainwreck because he is attached to bullshit False Light Matrix beliefs, Luciferian contracts, crappy energy loops and the worst, most unhelpful and destructive patterns of his mentor, without any of the offsetting elements.

There's nothing mean or regretful about speaking the truth.  Speaking the truth about this guy could save many well-meaning but misguided people from becoming his clients and getting sucked into his energetic septic tank (minus the helpful bacteria, or even a vent).  And expressing regret for calling balls and strikes as they are was actually a mimic pattern.

Once again, the lesson here is there's nothing nice about trying to be nice.  Call it like it is, use gentle, positive language where appropriate, but leave no doubt where you stand.  People are counting on you.

And now that I think more on this, it was that lapse into False Light Matrix and mimic patterns that preceded the energetic shit show that followed.  I get what I was trying to say - that anger pattern was its own mimic pattern, but there was a strong foundation of truth.  "Back then" my issue was a difficulty adjusting to and aligning with that energy, which brought forth so much anger.  In July, my issue was I was getting high on my own perfume - I was just beginning to feel the full effects of my energetic alignment and I went full retard.  It's taken me the better part of five months to recover from this.  And it's taken me to today to locate that "slipping off" point.

So here's the challenge going forward:  being in my power, being in my sovereignty, fully accessing and expressing my power - while being who I am in terms of heart and expression, while calling balls and strikes, while being humble, while avoiding traps of "being the nice guy," anger or guilt.  

Some people are assholes.  And if those assholes are influencing other people's energy, that's fucked up and needs to be called out forcefully, not couched in feel-good bullshit.  I might wish that asshole was well-meaning or had good qualities, but that doesn't make the asshole any less of one.  That person shouldn't be coaching or dragging anyone else into his shithole life.  

That's not harsh, it's the truth.  And it needs to be said.

Can Someone Jinx Their Teams?

 An interesting little side inquiry after another disastrous year for Florida State Football - all after I made my first visit to a home football game. A season that seemed to take a lot out of me energetically.

I engaged in an inquiry - is it possible for a high-energy person to actually cause harm to their teams?  We know that superstitions like what clothes you wear or daily rituals don't impact the outcome of sports.  Neither does appealing to the divine for favor.  But is it possible that a team's sudden string of misfortunes (which started when Jordan Travis broke his leg on my birthday) could be mirroring internal energetic issues and they're manifesting through the connection?

Theoretically, yes, it's possible.  But not likely if one is a fan. As an "energetically advanced" fan, generally the most you can do is be able to sense what is going to happen, if your energy is clear and you're highly attuned, which means leaving out a lot of the passion that makes being a fan enjoyable.

In other words, your energy cannot cause the team good or bad fortune, but you can sense it coming.  You can feel into the energy of the team and get a good sense what their season will look like.

If one is looking for an assessment of their own energy, don't look at the results of your favorite teams, notice your energetic patterns before, during and after the game.  That's how you can identify potential blocks and areas that need attention.

The sense that the season "seemed to take a lot out of me" is the inquiry.  Is this accurate?  Partially.  But there were many things that took energy out of me from September through November, and the sad state of the football program was the least of it.  The drain during this time period is the starting point for energetic assessment and repair, not the outcome of some external event in which I'm a spectator,.

Going through all of the energetic issues revealed patterns and blockages that could then be worked through and I saw major improvement.  The football team, sadly, didn't.  Because as much as we'd like to be able to think we can influence that outcome, we can't.  

The second half of 2025 has been a real challenge, but things have stabilized and improved quite a bit.  Still recovering from a lot of attacks and damage and stabilizing my nervous system.  I had a real "high point" where I was in my peak healing state and then things hit a very rough patch.  Yes, it's better.  things overall are better - things with the Florida house are more established and stable, things with the family are much better, things with work have been very challenging but slowly turning a corner.  Those things all reflect into and from my energy, those are things in my energy field.  

Things that are directly in my energy field will be affected by, and have an effect on, my energy.  Things outside of that field, no matter how emotionally attached I am to them, will not.  And then it's a matter of managing that emotional attachment - it's not healthy to put too much emotional attachment on something outside of one's own energy field, it creates unnecessary leakages and attachments.  

And the bigger question is, why am I doing this? That's an important question.  And when a program is faltering, that's a good place to have that inquiry.  Am I putting off something that needs to be done?  Am I wasting time?  Am I bored?  A lot can be gained from this inquiry.  And cultivating a healthy emotional connection and balance to external things is critical to cultivating a healthy energy practice.

So long story short, no, you can't jinx your team.  But your frustrations with your team can be a starting point for an inquiry that can help you better manage and cultivate your energy.