I've been back for a couple weeks now and I'm just beginning to put together the thoughts I want to share about my experience. It was truly a spiritual journey, in every way. It was easily the most challenging trip to Asia I've ever experienced, as well as the most frustrating, expensive and spiritually rewarding. It was a breakthrough, but it took a lot out of me.
The problems began from the moment I planned the trip. I had to abandon the original trip due to unexpected conflicts, at great cost. The second trip I set up after I had to eat the first one had numerous issues with flights, layovers and airport problems.
The cat had a mysterious wound that required surgery right before the trip. All these weird setbacks and expenses right before the trip.
And on top of that I experienced energetic attacks the likes of which I've never experienced before. Something clearly didn't want me to go, and it fought me the entire time. I became instantly sick - REALLY sick - at arriving at the airport to embark on the trip. I almost had to bail out, but my efforts to counteract the attack were answered and I instantly recovered, enough to take the trip.
I was exhausted the entire flight over, and still sick in Thailand, though I was able to begin some powerful energy work right away. I cleared a lot of negative energies in Thailand and Bangkok and established a strong energetic bridge between Thailand and my home in Los Angeles. I began downloading amazing gifts and insights, while still suffering attacks - physical and psychic attacks that were draining.
Within 24 hours of landing I found some amazing crystals at JJ Market. It's like Lumerian soul crystals were coming out of the woodwork to find me. On my journey I attracted six such objects, including an amazingly powerful and ancient Buddha pendant and a ring. The other stones are incredibly powerful and I used these throughout the time in Asia to do some really powerful work.
Even the Thai silk is from the trip (a gift). My crystals have a whole new energy now.
The trip was frustrating. Every travel seemed delayed and there was a lot of driving around and things not working out. But things did work out. We ended up in the mountains, which was a truly spiritual experience. I sat outside among the clouds and did all kinds of amazing energy work. Here is where I cleared up most of the energetic blockages in Thailand and opened up the ancient energies that had been blocked. The energies are back to the way they were before the attacks and blocks.
There is amazing ancient energy in Thailand, very close to Source and free from Western and Cabal corruption. Now that it's flowing again in Thailand and through the energetic bridge, my work has become considerably more powerful and effective. Thailand and I took a quantum leap in evolution, but it's taking a while to integrate things and bring the message to the world.
The last leg of the journey was China. This was not an energy I was able to fully clear. I did some work and was able to connect somewhat to the ancient energies of my prior lives, but it's going to take a lot of work and a lot of time to clear things up. Lots of energetic blocks, but it's better.
I returned home frustrated, dizzy, confused and tired. I've just begun to come out of that state and start taking meaningful steps with the new powers and realizations.
One of the new realities I'm dealing with is getting used to living without certain fantasy illusions that I've been holding onto, about myself, about others, about the work I'm doing, really everything. It feels liberating and chaotic. Also frustrating and tiring. I'd say I'm not myself, but the truth is I'm more fully myself than ever, it's the false structures and self-images that are not there. Those were never me. They're gone, yet I'm still here.
So where do I go from here? I have a lot of work to do, and I'm doing it. A lot of the stuff I thought I was here to do was the false structure. I've been sitting back and criticizing people and things that are false or out of alignment. That's a weak standpoint. I've built an energetic home in Thailand and Los Angeles, and a bridge.
My energetic work helped get the kids rescued during my time in Thailand (it all happened while I was there or preparing for the trip.) That's... kind of a big deal.
I know, sounds nuts when I say this - even here where people understand what I'm doing and some people can confirm things. Look, I came into all this thinking it was all BS. Part of the reason I'm having these conflicts and attacks is because I'm still dealing with my own egoic disbelief. What happens is I get my ass kicked so hard I have no energy or capacity left to argue and then things HAPPEN. Like, really incredible things. Because I'm doing energy work when I'm too punch-drink and sick to question what I'm doing.
I've muscle tested and pendulum tested until my fingers are sore. This is happening for real. And the message I'm receiving is this is just the tip of the iceberg.
A while back (I posted here earlier in the summer) I went to the beach and had a major transformation and it's like nothing's been the same since. I mean, I go about my life the same - I do my job and the things I need to do, but on a spiritual level everything is different, a whole new universe has opened up and my purpose looks much, much bigger.
The message I got was "king," then Etienne used the term "Lords of Light." That also resonates. It's a big role, but it looks nothing like what I see other light workers doing. But that's been my problem, I've been devaluing my own powers and gifts and purpose by comparing myself to others and then pointing out how others are wrong. That's weak.
One of the messages I received is something that applies universally, so I'll share it:
"Release attachment to fantasies of a better self and better life. Focus on gratitude and appreciation of your true self, here and now. The journey of fantasy will lead only to scarcity and disappointment. The journey of gratitude and self-discovery will lead to riches beyond any fantasy you could possibly imagine. True wealth and power is only found here and now."
You need to spend some time on that, it's a powerful truth. And the process of shedding fantasy and truly diving into the here and now, of self-discovery and self-awakening is a difficult process and the essence of why I am here.
