In the Midlst of a Major Energetic Storm

From Saturday the 18^th:

Last night I spent some time binge listening to Destin Gerek’s podcasts.  He’s got a pretty good body of work now and it’s well worth a listen.  Not all of it will be relevant or valuable to you, and I’d have recommendations for Destin on how he conducts his podcasts (he’s generally putting too much attention on the guest and not enough input from him – probably needs a monologue or something so his knowledge and message is coming out more directly), but he’s brought in some pretty solid guests for an inaugural podcast.  It’s on iTunes – just search “Destin Gerek” and you’ll find it. 

As for me, I’m settling into my not-so-new lifestyle and starting to really enjoy it.  When I started this journey inward, I think there was a lot of resistance, and so there was a lot of subconscious sabotage – distraction, wasting my valuable downtime, etc.  But lately I’ve found a good place energetically.  I’m in a place where some pretty big waves that hit late last year and early this year have passed and I can celebrate a bit.  Things aren’t the way I’d like them to be for the long term, but for now things are good and getting better.

I’m embracing my journey inward with a lot more enthusiasm and curiosity, and also more honesty.  The whole point of this is to clear out the BS and get clear on who I am and my larger purpose.  And I’m finally at a point where I can look at myself more clearly.

And it’s interesting.  I realize I’ve changed in a lot of ways I didn’t even realize, that some big things that had been bothering me and driving how and what I’ve been pursuing are gone, they’ve cleared up.

After I clear out all the layers of anxiety and BS, I’ve been surprised to find I’m actually very happy with this quiet, simpler life.  I really love my wife, I love my son and enjoy spending lots of quality time with him, I really like my job how things are developing career-wise, and I really enjoy these moments of quiet meditation and reflection, just enjoying the slow pace with little or nothing to do. 

I really enjoy my meditations, energy clearings and alchemy.  I enjoy not having a lot on my plate and feeling my life slow down.  This is home for me.  For a while I’d feel bored, and I still do from time to time, but the more I embrace slowing down, the less bored I feel.  I just relax and time seems to fly by without having to fill it with “doing stuff.”

For a while I was pretty attached to the Internet and social media, but I’m cutting that cord, too.  It feels good.  It reminds me of those times last year when we’d take short vacations to places “off the grid,” or where Internet was spotty at best.  And it was sooooo nice!  Just relaxing with my family and slowing down to the pace of the sun and moon and letting all the BS of city life go. 

 

Since the 18^th It’s been a steady week of major energetic attacks, so it appears that period was a brief lull in the storm.

It appears now that I’m in the middle of a very large energetic storm.  I still continue to receive the message to slow down and go inward, and it’s beginning to have some positive effects, but it’s clear the energetic storm is far from over and there is much to learn.

I’ve been in this “going inward” state since around November.  At first I felt a lot of resistance, but now my mind is slowing down and things opening up.  But that’s not the end of it. It’s just a marker.  The attacks are getting stronger and affecting things around me.  Possessions breaking, things like that.  Also money issues and work stress for me and my wife.

This is the problem with energetic attacks – I can shield myself and my family, but I can’t shield everything.  So major repairs, expenses and work stresses come in, and there’s little I can do except try to minimize the damage. 

But it hasn’t been just things breaking, it’s affecting me as well.  Many nights of difficult sleep and just general stress. The reason I’m being asked to focus inward and heal is because this is a difficult time energetically and it’s going to take a lot of resources to keep the energy clear and moving on the right path. 

But despite the external attacks and their affect on my energy and things around me, my internal state is getting better. I’ve been using Natural Grounding more regularly.  And it works.  In fact, I’m finding blocks from the last time I stopped doing NG and it’s clearing out my energy more and more. 

So I keep going.  Internally it’s getting better, externally some major stuff is going on.

Etienne has talked about some of the recent energetic events, and I sense there’s a lot more happening.  So it’s just a big energetic storm and it’s going to have to run its course.  It seems to be affecting everyone, and many in not good ways.  I’m watching the reaction to Trump with wonder – millions of people going crazy from the energy flows. 

Keep going.  More to follow.

Black Magic and Energetic Attacks: Your Negative Thoughts Are Killing You

Someone I wouldn’t expect asked me recently if I did “magic.”  I said not really, I’m an energy healer, but it’s not magic in the sense laypeople think. I don’t “cast spells” on people or anything like that.  The person was concerned that I might be “placing curses” on people.  Which I thought was odd because 1) this person has done nothing but mock my energy work and 2) this person has been attacking me energetically on a constant basis, just not as a trained alchemist.  

As I posted before, I don’t use energy work unto others without their express permission.  To do so, either as an uninvited “good spell” or “curse” is black magic.  Generally black magic doesn’t work – that is, it doesn’t help nor harm the intended recipient.  It does, however, do a lot of damage to the energy of the person engaging in black magic.

Because most people who engage in energy work really don’t know what they’re doing, black magic is common.  And a lot of people aren’t even aware they’re engaging in black magic.  Simply saying a prayer asking God to change someone else in some way to your liking is black magic. 

So if you’re angry at someone and you wish for God to “smite” them in some way, you’re committing black magic, and almost certainly damaging your energy.  If you do this enough times, and with enough power, you will eventually kill yourself.  Even if you wish for God to change someone “for the better,” and that person rejects it, you’re poisoning your energy.  Even energy healers will full permission have to be careful – always asking for no more than what the recipient is willing to accept, and always for the greater good.  That way if a request falls outside the boundaries it’s negated.

At this point in my journey I can tell certain people are attacking me energetically.  Most of the attacks are pretty weak, but occasionally someone with some real power and intent will throw something at me.  I have a very strong energetic protection, which means energetic attacks (or even “beneficial” black magic) bounces straight off and hits the attacker with the same level of force in reverse. People who are consciously engaged in energy work figure it out quick and stop attacking, because they don’t like getting hit with their own negative juju.

The danger is those who either don’t believe in energy or don’t know what they’re doing.  They keep attacking and receiving the full brunt of their attacks and never realize their actions are making them more and more ill.  The worst of these attackers start becoming physically ill- maybe someone who never gets sick starts developing colds and flus on a regular basis.  Others get cysts or migraines.  Others it can be even more serious – over time people’s negative thoughts toward others will give them cancer, heart disease, stroke, diabetes, and/or severe mental illness.

I think this person is experiencing some serious medical issues, but it’s interesting this person thought to even approach me and suggest I might be “cursing” them – that’s the telltale sign this person has been engaging in a LOT of negative thought toward me.  I hadn’t been giving this person a moment’s thought since I told them to stop bothering me, but apparently this person has been spending a lot of time and energy thinking bad thoughts about me.

In Buddhism we talk about right thought, right action, right life, the Law of Cause and Effect. And Buddhists make no distinction between wrong thought and wrong action, they’re equally destructive to the person engaging in them.  The world around us is our thoughts – it’s impossible to fill one’s mind with bad thoughts and manifest a good world.  That’s not to say we’re perfect, but that we strive for purity in thought, which leads to purity in action, which leads to purity in life.  But other religions talk about this too. Christianity speaks about sinning through thought alone and many of the concepts are similar – you are your thoughts, and there’s no getting around it.

Too many people don’t get this, or they believe somehow their bad thoughts are “justified,” that if they were wronged then they’re entitled to think bad thoughts and engage in black magic.  But the universe did not create an exemption for revenge, or “he started it.” You are either committed to pure thought or not and your life will reflect that choice.  There are no exceptions.

When I see people suffering because of their decisions to engage in forms of black magic, I feel sad.  Often the negative reactions seem disproportionate to their thoughts and actions.  I’ve seen quite a few people who are victims of their own karma, and never once did I feel their karmic comeuppance was fair or justified.  But it’s not about fairness, it’s about the level of negative energy and the ability of the system to handle that energy without collapsing.  So for some people, a little negative thinking can practically kill them, while others can be like that for a long time before their system tips and bad things start manifesting in their lives. 

So no, I don’t cause people to have health problems.  I can help those who give me permission to heal their energy.  I can teach people how to heal their own energy.  And I can share what I know – like now – to hopefully help others from making terrible mistakes.

And as for now, I’m still going inward and healing my energy.  It’s frustrating at times, because it feels like I should be “doing something” more, but the message keeps coming back that this is what I need to be doing.  So I will.